I wanted to repeat something I have said recently. And comment on it. Only a little. Almost like an irrelevant comment. But I am SURE this is the answer now.
It is all a next dimensional level. This is relevant. Here is Stefan Molyneux's chart:
The only real part of this that is relevant is Stefan Molyneux has Gate 25 in his conscious Earth Position. I believe his philosophy is expressed, through his incarnation cross. There are several other areas his chart is relevant to mine. A lot of his philosophy is expressed through his conscious Mars in gate 4.1. And I also have that exact position. His unconscious Mars sits exactly on my Chiron.
Now I want to go back to my own chart. If you see my own chart and how it's energy would naturally flow. There is a split path. After the energy travels up from the spleen through the 44-26. It can either go through the 51-25... Which is a projected channel. Or the 21-45, that is a manifested channel.
I have mentioned this before. In that there are opportunities for me for the energy to go down the 51-25, and for that path to kind of dominate. But a better direction is the 21-45, and then, since the 51-25 is projected. The energised 21-45 invites the relevant information out of the 51-25.
So what the actual expression is of the 51-25. Is shocking unpleasant information (51) leading to a kind of openly expressed philosophy of some description. One thing that happened, that I have mentioned previously, when Mars and Chiron were transiting 51.1. (the exact gate I have it in twice!) Is that a friend of mine killed herself. The events surrounding this were connected to the kinds of things discussed in the gate 25. By Stefan Molyneux. The general left- right divide and the deeper values this relates to shown by this gate.
This, is probably not coherent to most people. I have to get all my information out. I feel it is important. But I recognise that right at this moment now, and possibly until the end of time if I am ignored. People will not really get it.
So here begins to set up the tension and activity of my chart. I have said that a dysfunctional energy pathway is for their to be too much emphasis on the 51-25. Too much focus. In a sense my entire chart is trying to decide what to do with the information/ wisdom I pick up.
One of the ways I can decide my path is actually the 51-25 projected channel is if I decide I am a "healer". Which is one way to use all the energy I have collected. Even suggesting it sounds heretical. Another, and one that is important here, is to decide that I am to become a "philosopher" of some sort. And this is partly built after having followed and admired Stefan Molyneux for such a long time. Stefan Molyneux is a philosopher. This energy in a sense wants to build on that and complete it. To escalate the gate 25. Which is also the conscious North Node (So I am saying the conscious North Node is not the real "way" in one sense, in another sense it definitely is).
There are a few more thoughts here I will not go into. But I will refer to just briefly. I have wondered, when I have been ostracised from social situations and I have decided that it is the 51-25 channel that is rejected. What happens precisely energetically with social ostracism and what the follow on is. I.e. the 'karma'. But I will not go into that now. I have some good points on this though.
What I did want to explain a bit more of is how this fits together though. Based on something I was saying previously.
Previously, I mentioned, that I have put a lot together. That our nodal points each have a behaviour connected to them. So for me it is conscious South Node, Exercise (46) Conscious North Node, Meditation (25) Unconscious South Node, exploring material on narcissism, like videos (48) and music (21).
The trouble is with these nodal points is it is hard to put together in some ways. Exercise of course, improves everything. Even partly music. Why do I think the gate 48 is relevant to the narcissistic information, when with what I have described of the 51-25, it probably fits there too?
And yes that is true. But it also seems to me that the particular south node point, references its north node equivalent. I knew this was true, but I did not have clarity on that until today.
Firstly, another point about male psychology I worked out and put in a video previously. I have this theory that exercise is very fundamental to the male psychology for a psychological reason. That reason I will explain as follows, the first, is that a lot of jargon can be in mens minds that is quite stressful stuff.
I will give an example of this. I once had a workplace that didn't want to see too much more of me. So they sat a woman next to me who was a manager, who kept pretending she was helping me and kept trying to report me to some sort of manager. A lot of times these came back with that I had done nothing wrong.
You would think I would have taken a hint, and stopped believing this woman was trying to help me? I did not. This was at the time when I was bad in health terms. At a constant level of very high stress.
So this piece of information. Considering this manager that had been sitting next to me. Was a puzzle piece in my mind that had two properties. It was a part of my world view to be integrated. It was something that had happened to me. And it was something that was incredibly stressful and I was not able to confront.
How do women handle this kind of stuff? I am not quite sure. There are a few differing things they use. They are more socially engaged with others so they have more people watching their back. They experience stress keenly, leading them to talk things over with said friends. They have a lot more supporters because their general pleasing demeanor and attractiveness.
But men, I think this is where some of the tension between the genders happens.
I was out one time and had just been for a long walk. All of a sudden, this realisation that this woman had been sitting next to me for this purpose, and I had not perceived it, became obvious to me. It felt very good.
So what had happened. Is I had taken this experience, this memory, with an incredible amount of tension and fear in it. And I had gotten rid of all the negative emotion in it to make it an inert building block. Then I can fit it into my world view without issue.
So where women get out of the situation. They negotiate. They justify. They do all the things. Men can go through a process where, due to their ability on an internal level to handle the tension and conflict. They can simply observe a thing for what it is without a need to interact with it or change it. They can say... "This is a nasty thing that exists in the world, and it is what it is. It is not going to change".
You can see how this would view would upset women that wanted to find some way out of such direct awareness of how a thing is, that might possibly lead to confrontation!
But anyway, that side note was for an important point. I was saying that the nodal points are connected to each other. Gate 46 and the exercise, was connected to gate 25. In that, when I did the exercise, I have done enough of it recently. Loads of insights flooded my head of how to make a solid philosophical thesis together. This was a strong/ profound experience. A moment of clarity.
But, I believe, a false one. How I meet this false insight is... meditation. And this is where I think the 46 and 25 link for me. The 46 provides all the insight, the freed up emotion and information can then go to the gate 25 and express any conditioning that is not correct. But meditation ends this issue.
After I meditated. I completely came away from the idea of being some sort of philosophy starter and sat down and wrote this blog. I do not know how. But I do believe gate 48 and the insights into narcissism etc. Is connected in the same way to music. There is some common material that is addressed both with narcissism information and can be expressed in music. I do not have this down yet. But I wanted to summarise my points to further cement my position on the Nodes.
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