Reflections on the use of will power.

Following on from my last post. I have now requested the moderators delete my account at Bring4th, that was done. So that is a chapter of my life that has swiftly passed away. 

I saw this quote from Stefan Molyneux today:

It is yet another way, in my view, to handle people that are generally condescending. To handle people that want to take an unrequested mentorship position. Who assume themselves superior. If they are doing so, they are claiming absolute knowledge over your life. That their pithy cliche, should have more authority than the conclusions you have reached from living your day to day life. 

I can imagine me saying that to someone... "So, from that statement, you are claiming to have absolute knowledge? On what basis do you clam that?" Etc.

But even though it is very unlikely I will have anything to do with llresearch/ bring4th at any future point in my life (I asked for my account to be deleted because they were deleting my posts!) I will still be reading and reflecting on the Law of One a great deal. Today I have been thinking about this: 

In my unification of the tarot and astrology/ human design. This, the very first major arcana and it's concluding picture from the Law of One. Is reflected in the same position as my unconscious North Node and a few other points. So I think it is relevant to my life possibly. 

One of the things I have noticed and wanted to talk about many times, but never quite done so. Is that with this archetype or idea. That looking at the image. The likely answer to this persons issue, the solution, is likely to come from the subconscious mind. As we often experience this. We often get on with things and the subconscious solves it for us. 

The bird, the checkered box, etc. Represents the subconscious mind in this image. The finger pointing down might indicate that this is the point on some level. But the attention of the figure in the image is on the circle. It is on the thing that they are focused towards. 

I used to think of this like what many of us have heard of as the scientific process that includes intuition. Such as the guy that got the dream explaining the double helix. That when we focus towards solving something. We focus towards doing something that perhaps has the emotional core of improving our lives. Either the direct answer to what we were looking for or an emotional response comes to us through the subconscious mind. 

Bear in mind, the figure cannot move forward with his feet because the bird cage is blocking his path. He is focused towards something and cannot even move forward without shifting his attention to the caged bird. 

Now though, I am rethinking the meaning. I have noticed that when I pay attention to going to the gym. When I start to make it an identity and reason for being. My life kind of goes off the rails, and I often stop being able to go to the gym. 

But when I focus on music. Everything kind of seems to work better. Things flow, and I end up going to the gym and getting benefits from it. 

In essence, I wonder if that is what the card is saying? Not that focusing things is an indirect way of getting solutions in life. But that the best way for the conscious mind to function is to function on what the person loves. That the subconscious can then do it's work unhindered. That this is the correct way.

Also, this is my way. I have no doubt that a lot of the gym bros that promote the gym on X and things are genuinely meant to focus on that. Because we are all different. But for me, focus on music and the rest follows! Including this! I don't produce spirituality from wanting to be a spiritual person but as a side effect of living my life.  

Philosophical thoughts. 

I got home yesterday and saw that Stefan Molyneux had a livestream: "Bring your questions". One day I have no doubt there will be millions of people that look back at the time that Stefan Molyneux was giving out answers and would love to talk to him. Like, some today might Lionise other celebrities. Like Elvis Presley. 

Something I have been turning over in my mind, trying to figure out, get a handle on. Sometimes it matters emotionally to me, and sometimes it really doesn't. But the gym definitely changes my perspective on it. 

"Love is our involuntary response to virtue, if we are virtuous". As I said before part of me can't quite capture this and I have been trying to understand it. With Stefan Molyneuxs definition of free will, "Free will is our ability to compare proposed actions to ideal standards". He has explained that this is something we naturally do. That we cannot not do, it is just how the brain operates. 

So when he talks about these things he talks about things he understands that we naturally do. It is not something that intellectual understanding really changes that much. It is not like 'Oh, I have to compare propose actions to ideal standards', and then the person starts doing that. It is more like 'Oh, so this is the billions of times I have compared proposed actions to ideal standards without being aware of it'. 

So, if someone becomes less virtuous and we are then to fall 'out of love' with them. How does that happen? Is it because they start acting badly and we do it with our will power? They ghost, they get abusive and we start thinking "You know what, this person's a nasty piece of work", and then use will power to stop that loving feeling? 

Or according to this theory do we just suddenly not feel positively about this person anymore and start avoiding them?

Like, what is happening with the people, that, say, do have a partner that becomes an abusive drug addict. But they still feel like they love this person? Are they not in fact in love with the person still according to this theory? Then what explains the emotion?

Stefan has discussed this with people where lust is involved. Where a guy is pining after a girl with no virtue that he eventually admits he just wants the sexual access. But this is not the motivation in all situations like this.  

It is a bit of a mind bender. After I had been to the gym though, I did not want to ask the question because all of a sudden, I did not care about the person in my life that it was relevant to. Another thing Stefan has said is that you need to be lifting enough, because without that testosterone increase, you might not know what your real beliefs are. Without high testosterone, people have a tendency to yield to the beliefs abusers would prefer them to have to avoid conflict. Which is why if you give liberals a testosterone injection, they convert to Conservative. 

So I suppose, ideally I should have done gym often and for a while. Like, a few times a week for several months. Before I know if the question is even a real question. Previously I have noted that going to the gym allows me to perceive and confront the negativity in things more. So perhaps, being able to perceive the lack of virtue is an important element in this? 

One thing I do think though. When I write songs, I tend to capture a whole lot of the nuance of life. I recall a girl that I knew who jumped off a cliff. A song I wrote about her, the first verse and the chorus was about how fragile she was. How unwell. The second was about how I missed her, and the third was that she now has to face the consequences of her actions (since I have new age beliefs about life after death etc.). A little bit more angry. But these are all aspects of the same situation, that's one of the things that I think music captures. It captures the contradictions. The complexity. Without having to reach a conclusion.   

It is also kind of channeling in a sense. None of this is mapped out before. It just comes out in the feeling. So perhaps just writing a few songs of this nature could also address the emotion that has motivated some of these thoughts. 

Which goes back to what I was saying in the last post referencing real life experiences and session 46. For me, perhaps accepting these emotions and creating music around them is how the catalyst is addressed?