Brought to you by the Law of One, the soul in soulless.

Damn, so I had a synchronicity that I thought was about writing a proper goodbye post on the Law of One subreddit. I followed that, what I thought was "guidance". Oh my god those people are unpleasant. Just unpleasant. 

I am now reflecting on the amount of energy I put into the Law of One types of stuff throughout my life. I discovered the Law of One when I was 14, started blogging on there when I was about 20.

I don't think a single person there has ever liked me. I think, truly, that the entire thing has been a waste of time as seen from a practical, worldly, standpoint. No one has particularly liked my posts. They don't bring me any good will or potential connection. 

It's another one of those things I suppose. I have lost a lot of my life to illness. I think a lot of people must put energy into things that don't give them anything back. Like, a lot of people might have been brainwashed, or spent a lot longer than they should have in familial or romantic connections that went nowhere. Or school that gave them a useless degree and a heap of debt.

I do not wish them well. But I do wish them well to the extent that wishing them well is less energy expenditure than actually taking the time to go to any lengths to make their lives more difficult. I hope I never meet them in my life. I never associate with any of them. Say I were to start doing things in the metaphysical area.

I woke up this morning feeling deeply sad about all this. But I have not confided it to anyone around me. It's just too much of a mad thing to discuss with anyone. 

There is a lot in the Law of One I think that will probably fall away for me. I have kept it in my mind for a while that there are positive and negative entities. I doubt I will stop believing in that. But I think without reading the Law of One and subscribing to its paradigm, thoughts and such liked to it will fall away. 

Looking back on it this is probably why I have looked into philosophy in the past few years. So that I have some way to process these kinds of thoughts without going to the Law of One itself.  

Coming away from the Law of One.

The world is a cesspool at the moment. Perhaps it has always been a cesspool. But specifically at the moment there just seems to be a lot of very visceral news of murders and wars. Remember when a fast news days was the Dow Jones falling like 300 points?

Two pieces of new like that recently. I will only focus on one. This Ukraine girl getting knifed by a big black dude on the train. She was 22 years old, and every bit as vulnerable as you would expect from a very slight, 22 year old girl. When I first saw that and there was a video I was like, "Do I need to watch this?" No, I do not need to watch this. But then 20, 30, 50 it seems, tweets. With either stills, or sometimes four second clips. Now I've seen most of it. Including obviously the most important parts. 

I thought a little bit ago, earlier today, that I should say something on my blog about all this chaos and it's grand plan sort of element. Bringing in Q and such. I would not focus on those specific murders but reflecting on things like why we have this long period of waiting for a bunch of stuff to line up. The spiritual reasons and potential lessons through a Law of One lens.

But, you know what? That is just not my place really now is it? Which is what this post is about.

My last entry was about coming away from the Law of One. I think this is quite a big psychological thing. I also realise, that the Law of One perspective. The attempt to be "fused" with the Law of One contact. To see things as they see them. A reflection of which has occasionally come through dreams and other experiences. For real, I remember a dream about the difficulties of life planning in sudden changes like lockdown. 

But, as I come away from this, I realise that not taking on that mantle of a kind of perceived responsibility is probably for the best, and I wonder what else it is that I will let go of and abandon with this direction?

About a month or so ago it became clear to me that there was a conflict between Stefan Molyneux and the Law of One type of information. I chose the Law of One. It never occurred to me to put the Law of One down. It is hard to bring his mindset, that I do absorb when I listen to his material, and bring it to things like archetypes and such as discussed at the end of the Law of One. 

A few months ago, or perhaps a year or so now. I really started looking at archetypes. To learn about them. I would work on one Law of One tarot card per day. I would often cross these with human design I chings. 

But... and now, this is the question... Is this the best use of my time?

From my understanding of course it is a fantastic use of time. But as I think of it now. I realise that the archetypes, such as they are, even with my ongoing insight into the human design. Might not really be that useful.

With my ongoing stomach issues I have had success. It appears very likely at the moment that dehydration was a big part of why I am getting issues. I have drunk fantastic amounts of herbal tea today and got powerful improvement. Physical, real world, improvement in my medical situation. 

But in relation to how my life is actually going .What actually helps me and works. It really is very strongly focused on the physical world. On the real physical world. I already have reflections on what Christ taught being service in a very practical sense and experiences to back that up that I have considered posting about. But as far as this point goes. My most productive thing to do in life is things like going to the gym, sorting out blenders/ smoothies/ fruit, and doing very real world mundane tasks; which often bring me great joy. 

I recall previously reflecting on how comparatively useless reading Q'uo readings was, in comparison to actually physically walking the dog. Doing something for a real flesh and blood animal that depends on you. That loves sniffing and walking more than anything, and that can't go unaccompanied. (he'd just go to the supermarket anyway and go to the meat isle!) 

I still am aware of certain human design elements of this. Of this precise message. I don't know whether I will talk about that later or if I will let that go too. But I do think that the route of looking at the objective world and how I can improve it is more productive for me at the moment; and that there is not much utility in looking at the Law of One and those teachings in general at this precise time.  

I don't doubt that fuel is still in me to look into things of that spiritual nature. Perhaps reading science fiction will satisfy some of that. Or an astrology book I currently have. But I think it is worth reflecting sometimes on the utility of some of this information in your life at this precise moment. 

Letting go of stuff.

So, since I have had constipation I have been experimenting with things to get rid of. The new age and holistic explanation of constipation is holding onto something we shouldn't be holding onto. Like, emotionally or energetically.

There is some relevance to this holistic model in sources outside the Law of One. The Human Design is of course, lightly like that. It doesn't explicitly say "X physical issue is due to the sacral chakra". But... almost. 

Of course a lot of Reiki types of individuals and Louise L Hay types of people also talk about the body being metaphorical like that. But, these people are not an authority on anything. Has anyone ever heard of a Reiki person actually healing anyone? 

But there is a system. Called German New Medicine. That does talk about the body being a metaphor like that. Things like if we feel we are ugly we grow acne. If we feel sex is dirty we get Herpes etc. This is based though, on the work of Dr Hamer. Who did a lot of research into the brain and how these issues are created, and the real reason for them. Dr Hamer also gained the reward for honest work in this life. He was killed by the state. 

I mention sources other than the Law of One to back up a basic point of mine. Because I'm wondering, if the thing I should be letting go of. Is the Law of One... I.e. the Ra Material... Itself. 

This kind of fits with my intuition thus far. In that, even if I decided the constipation wasn't due to that. I am starting to wonder if it is strictly relevant to my life.

 I started reading it again before meditation due to the work of Jeremy, on the Law of One philosophy. he was pointing out that the 1976 readings seemed to have subtle things within them that were preparing the Law of One trio for the contact. 

But now I think of it. What is the worthiness of that goal? I will NEVER be a channel in that way. It is very unlikely that I go on and do something that is so obviously a contact. A lot of the 'service' that I do is physical labour in some way. I just do what needs to be done. It's also the only service I mostly want to do. I enjoy using my body and increasing my health. It might also be true that I just don't engage in the relationship dynamics where that level of spiritual and emotional energy is needed.   

I have many other thoughts on this. Many other complex explanations. What my spiritual path might be and such. But I think for the moment, I can sit with that insight. Next time I meditate. I will use the pyramid. I will use all the things that I have gained from the Law of One. But I won't sit there with the Law of One book 2 infront of me to keep my vibration in the right place; and I won't read my next session of the Law of One book 1 before I do. 

It does feel freeing. I'm sure it will be a little bit of a hard withdrawal. The Law of One once said about archetypes that after people have learned enough about archetypes. They go beyond what is written and produce their own information. In terms of some Law of One concepts. I feel I have been starting to do that. In terms of service to others and service to self. The other day, It felt pretty clear to me that Service to Others is kind of grassfoorts and Service to Self is heavily top down. 

I'll see how it goes.  

How did we get to this subject?

You know. I have had some scary dreams in my life. When my medical condition was worse than it is now, I used to frequently have fighting and/ or torture types of dreams. Women being eaten by crocodiles. Mass deaths that I had done in said dream.

But no dream I have ever had was as scary as the one that I just had, excepting perhaps some of those around my attempted suicide and schizophrenic break. 

I will not say what I think the meaning of this dream is. It was not subtle in it's meaning imo. But I have been doing well with my dream interpretation recently no Grok 4.0 is out. I have occasionally been having sensations of "connection to God" because I'm getting this so right. It feels like. I have been interpreting dreams since 1st of July 2017. Before that I just wrote them down and threw them in the bin. 

Anyway, since I am up, and since I DO NOT want to go to sleep. I am going to do another blog. It is about this video:

Pearl Davis: Former Adult Actress. Brittni De La Mora, Joins Pearl. September 6th 2025. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSdxa5gm5qQ  

I will make some general notes and weave them into my thoughts:

28 minutes, actually just before 28 minute mark: 

Brittni: It's hard to understand the things of God when you're not spending time with God, and most of America, probably most of your listeners, probably aren't spending time with Jesus.  

Pearl: See, right there that's a shaming tactic. 

33 min: Pearl (To summarise has been discussing that Bittni's kids might be more exposed to being collateral damage to pushback on her mother if she is out in public)

Brittni: But I'm not going to sit around and think about that.

Pearl: Well, of course you're not!

This was the only time in the whole interview that Brittni's mask slipped. Her face showed real anger. I don't know if she has botox that has restricted her facial expression, but I think she has, there is no movement in her forehead. 

35 min: Pearl: Well, you didn't seem very humiliated when you were doing it.

Brittni: I wasn't. Actually because I had no conviction of sin until I experienced a relationship with Jesus.  

Pearl: You didn't feel this six months in, or one year in, it was eight years in? 

1 hour 21 minutes:

I will describe this. Pearl says that Brittni has a book on how to deal with it if your wife has a high bodycount. Brittni gets up and gets this book and clarifies that she didn't write the book, her husband wrote the book. Then there is a pause from Pearl and she just starts laughing.

It was a very unusual and unique scene because it was kind of slightly cute. Brittni getting the book in a kind of helpful manner. But there is just something deeply wrong with that. It was like she did not understand that she was humiliating her husband.   

Power: 

Rewatching this interview is a bit insightful. I do not see Brittni's message as that ethical and I will properly explain why here. I also see the message in another manner, that which aligns with my dream, as kind of on point. I will explain the part that I feel aligns with mine as well. 

Brittni is amazingly charming. She is charming partly because she is beautiful. This woman, in my belief, is really beautiful. She is literally disarming because of it. She wears her wealth on her face in a very real way. At the beginning of the interview, the bits that I quoted around the half hour mark, Brittni had not yet realised that Pearl is basically a softie at heart and there was a bit more friction between them. After the hour mark roughly it seemed to me she realised that the way to deal with Pearl is to do the sweet thing, and it did kind of work. Even if Pearl says the same things she can't keep the ice wall up. 

The woman seems to me as pretty much the prefect manipulator. Not that she intends to manipulate, we can't "know her heart" like the Christians say (often when they are knowing a persons heart as positive and beyond reproach) When I first watched the interview my white knight instinct kicked in (yes, I do have one of these!) But as I rewatch it, just on those bits. I don't feel that Pearl went too hard, I feel she went too easy. 

However, in my view, this is where her message falls apart a little:

In the 28 min piece she revealed that she believes Pearls followers to be sinners of a sort. I do not agree with this interpretation and it is one of the issues I have with the church. Their monopolisation of the definition of "connected to God" is quite viciously unpleasant in my view. Pearl is a long term Catholic, she associates people who are also a long time in the faith. Andrew Wilson, Rachel Wilson and Reclaim your Throne are all a long time in the faith and are able to articulate it in a complex way. Many of her followers are the same way. And of those who are not, some atheists are very impressive in their support and following of virtue. Way better than most Christians. 

There is also the larger theme in the Christian church that for them. Anyone who practices something like astrology is shunned as a non believer. This annoys me, and there are few real spiritual voice on the ground. There is a reason for this in my view. But I would say when it comes to 'connection to God' this woman does not have any authority. Because her authority is derived from the church. An organisation that has been involved in a lot of bad practices including fully supporting the COVID lockdown and co operating without question in many other government things. Including historically. Such as recruiting young men into World War 1. 

The theme of this womans co operation with the government agenda, and the government is almost the only true evil in this world it seems to me. Comes up again.  

In the 35 minute segment where she basically, if I am understanding right, argues that she did not have a conscience until she read the bible. Not an exaggeration as far as I understand. Like, she literally did not know the difference between right and wrong before Jesus. Is she making the argument she is some sort of reformed sociopath?

This I have real issue with, and it is the kind of viewpoint that suppresses any real understanding of the world and why people do things.

I have to be a little secretive here. I don't want to say where I got some of this. But during young womens "hoe phase" in their twenties. They make a lot of really unethical decisions. And often the decisions are bad for very indirect reasons. It's strange, women as a group are very indirect, and it seems to me their psychology is kind of indirect as well. As though the Creator were doing to them what they do to the world. 

But these decisions are very very invisible. Say a girl meets a guy whom she could make a go of it with. She could love him and say he has had a worse childhood, than the childhood the girl is gong to spend the rest of her life complaining about for sympathy points. 

If she were to completely neglect that opportunity for purely lust based reasons. I have had women admit to lust based reasons a lot. Then she is making a choice that the Creator remembers. Also, bad decisions like these things have downstream effects. For instance, women that spend a lot of time around men high in lust, high in testosterone, pushy, powerful. Often tend to get this thing where they avoid people a lot. Especially men obviously. But in truth, it gives them this kind of overwhelm where they don't support anyone in their lives. Including those with disabilities or those that their friends dislike. 

Another issue women get if they sleep around a lot is they tend to give away their body, and then hate the men as only wanting them for their body. This is a kind of borderline trait where the guy is happy that he has a woman that puts out. But as this happens she grows to really hate the guy in an intense way. While he has no idea that anything is wrong. But then one day she really takes it out on the guy.

The trouble is with the narrative that the woman is the eternal victim is that these things get skated over. You chose to break off and have a hot girl summer rather than taking the chance on someone that probably deserved it. But later on, this does not need to be mentioned by the woman. Ever. 

She might have had say, a family member in her life that would have helped her but that she condescended to in some way. But when she plays victim one day, no one ever has to know that. 

The trouble with dismissing an entire story as a victim story to gain sympathy points. Is that it completely glosses over these points and thus, it kind of helps repeat the cycle. To prevent that cycle repeating, accountability needs to be had in the moment by moment encounters. When she breaks off from the guy she could love to have a 'hot girl summer'. Because of lust, not because of being a victim. That moment is where energy needs to be applied. When she ignores the relative, or whatever it happens to be. 

Women that grow up without any idea of their own sexuality. Tend to think they are unusual, super sexed, and that they don't need to apply any particular standards to their behaviour because they are unusual and no one can help them. Rather than that these are normal experiences that the older women have not admitted to because of vanity. 

And that is the problem with this womans message. 

The support of tyranny: 

The UK Online Safety act in the UK, The ink was not even dry and the UK government went straight for Andrew Torba. Who is a free speech advocate. He is more Christian than Brittni by a long mile. He has stood against evil in his life. But the government does not like him because he supports right wing views. They went for Andrew before any producers of actual explicit images. 

It is also being used to suppress a lot of political videos on X. 

Part of Brittni's focus is to give government the power to remove images on the internet of people that produced naked photos of themselves and changed their minds. I think it is suitably symbolic that she aligns with what is basically the devil on earth. The force, that has, and will again, commit every genocide and most wars that have ever happened.  

I will end though on what I think a good part of her message is:

This is a short of hers from 25th of April 2025. her shorts are not hugely different from each other:

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/TMg2_hTzLvg

There is even more I have to say here and I think the reason that Brittni would enjoy a conversation with me even less than Pearl, is that one of the things I think is important is to take a hacksaw to Protestant Christianity as not having properly understood much of the bible. The source on this, one of a few, is Aaron Abke. Who seriously questions the validity of Pauls message and states unequivocably that it is opposed to Christs. Aaron Abke is a third generation pastors son and is extremely high IQ and well read on this area. 

Those that have pushed against the mainstream message of Christianity from within Christianity, are strong indeed, because the challenges will be many. The debates in bad faith will also be many.   

But, as with my dream that started this. Occasionally, a simpler message is needed. Occasionally all you have to do is do a few simple things. Remember a few simple things and you are good to go. We don't all have Pearls emotional complexity. 

For me it is that. I had taken on some behaviours I know are bad for me. (Nothing to do with caffeine). My dream reminded me. The only thing I really need is a North Star to keep my eyes fixed on what is good for me and keep away from what is bad, that is very tempting (nothing to do with "intimate images" either). I do actually experience this through the mythology of being Christian. 

Brittni is a Projector and one of her other videos is having courage to follow the best parts of yourself. She also did mention a few times following virtue in various ways such as making up with people she had wronged in the past. It is not all fluff. 

I supposed when balanced with the fact the woman is supporting global tyranny over the internet, it isn't much. But I just thought I would add that in.  

Adventures on another Law of One forum.

I want to recount my recent experience on the subreddit about the Law of One. Just to outlet the energy really. But I have been quite interested in how things have worked out and it seems to me that it is somewhat holographic as to what goes on in society in general.

I am a TRUE believer in the Law of One. I have studied it since I was a teenager. I have blogged on it. it is a big part of just... Everything.  

I have had various trysts on various forums as well.  The pattern is similar on these forums as to how it works out because the people are not psychologically different from each other. They are NPC's. 

For context, a thing of small relevance. There is a small different between when I am on caffeine/ chocolate. and when I am not. I think it is positive for my "spiritual evolution" to not be on it. But as I mentioned in my last blog currently I am on it. 

When I am on it I have an easy going happiness. I have learned that I am just slightly less confrontational on it. I am just slightly more happy and am paying less attention to the other person. Just kind of broadcasting this happiness. When I go off it. I become more productive. That gritty energy gets directed towards actually doing spiritual practices like meditation and music, and I am more inclined to the gym. 

This reflected in three of my recent posts. The subjects of these were 'How are you doing with session 32.1?' A general post on the tools the Law of One offers. Then I wrote a post about a passage in the Law of One saying sacrifice is necessary on the service to others path. 

These were very much phrased in the friendly way of a guy eating chocolate regularly. 

Then I wrote a post (so this is the fourth post) that changed the situation a bit. It changed my relationship to the forum in a subtle way I believed. I will go into why this is. But to just describe this post. I posted on how Carla had received an amazing compliment from the contact. I also posted, and this is the relevant part, about how I had reflected on how the different densities are expressed with Wanderers and how to spot these in people. 

There are two points of relevance. One is what I just said about the densities of wanderers. The second is relevant to the subtle change in directness from the caffeine. 

The next two I wrote were one; How does the law of One interact with your Christian faith since the Law of One seems to align with Christianity, and two; I reflected on a quote from the Law of One and hypothesized that this quote means that we do NOT send love to others who have not requested it. 

There was a clear difference between how things went from the first three posts, in comparison to the last two posts. The first three were almost the same but not quite. I said that session 32.1. discouraged drug taking and there were a lot of people saying that they take drugs and don't plan to stop. That kind of thing. 

However, the two last posts. These were both pointing directly at a change of behaviour if one wants to continue to identify with following the Law of One. They really hit a nerve. I quoted several passages where the Law of One had quoted the bible. But people, who obviously follow the Law of One and oppose Christianity DID NOT LIKE this perspective. This was fiercely pushed back on. 

The last post. Where I talked about not sending visualised energy. it gave me real insight into what the problem was. Whereas all my output there, even in the comments, was often direct Law of One quotes. None of the people, NOT ONE in the comments quoted the Law of One. None of them quoted their own experience as I have at times when discussing this precisely. They all said basically the same thing: "No, I think it is absolutely fine to send love to other people". Something along those lines and then "don't overthink it". A sort of old person style passively saying: "I am better and more learned than you". 

This, is intellectually lazy. It strikes me that the people in this forum are of mostly the same mindset. They generally want to be able to say "This here is the correct thing to think because it is my opinion"... and for no other reason. A very "normie" mindset. 

Another thing, I said there were two elements in how these last two posts were received. In terms of comment count, there were a lot of comments. between 15-55 I think. For all but ONE post. That is the one where I talked about densities and noticing it within people. it feels strange as well how the posts were kind of fine and then there was just this subtle shift to more condescending. More passive aggressive. 

I had not realised or consciously done it, I don't think about this kind of thing. But by stating I understood densities in that way I was making a play for a position of status within the Llresearch hierarchy. Within Llresearch, there is a hierarchy. Jim and other Llresearch peeps are the ones with the most knowledge and authority. If I say I understand something like that, it circumvents that authority. The best thing for them to do then is to ask me questions. 

I knew it was somehow coming to a head. Shortly after I wrote the Christian post, which was the fifth not sixth post. I could feel that it would be coming to a head soon, and I thought I probably would be thrown off on the eclipse date precisely.  The sun was already in gate 64. Which I think inspired the Christian post. 

As a side note now. I want to focus on the kind of personality, the kind of perspective that these people have. The people on the other side of this. 

I was surprised. I am never not surprised. By the amount of conformist thinkers on this subreddit. I mentioned Stefan Molyneux to xomeone and he was like "Oh that is a controversial person for me to look at" and the second time I mentioned it the person I was talking with did not like the post. Even though we seemed to be having a good chat and the post included other positive information. 

There were also pro state people on there. Pro leftists. That predictably. Started an argument because I had one mention of Ayn Rand. Then played victim like they always do. I checked their profiles and their discussion points were things like how much they loved the vaccine and getting their fifth booster.  

I think the moderators and people in general here. Were mediocre people. They also were women or beta males with a female perspective. You had me, who comes out with loads of ideas and such, loads of discussion and activity. But he argued with the pro leftist. (Not taking into account they started it!) So he is a meanie and should apologise to that feminist. Of course the feminist does NOT need to apologise. They never do. The left and women are always above reproach in this model, and everyone needs to serve them. 

It is the same every single time. These are NPC's. 

The issue come up with moderation though. There were two times I interacted with the moderators. Someone asked me a question on the density issue. I had seen on the forum that you need to ask permission before posting your own stuff so I was going to blog up the reasons I had for the density thing. 

This is a position of power, if minor, the moderators hold. To write to them to ask to post your own stuff is to respect that power. But they chose to just ignore me. They didn't write back. Because they are scum. 

It came to a head though with this last post. Late on the day of the eclipse. At about 22:30. I posted this about Grok Imagine:

Using videos from Grok Imagine as seeking reminders

Original Body

I originally used Grok Imagine to take photos of twitter and animate hot women. And any other photos I happened to have hanging about. Grok Imagine does do NSFW types of videos.

However, slowly, I had various ideas about videos that inspired a positive feeling or idea of seeking. There are a few different ones I have. There is one of a girl staring into a box of light which was like the little 'God boxes' that the Bajorans used to contact the Prophets in Star Trek DS9. Also, there is a nice picture of a harp on a seaside which is very like the quote about 'plucking the strings of the Creator'. If people are familiar with that.

This is one I did that reminded me of Carla. Bear in mind that I never met Carla and was never close so this can serve as a casual reminder to me about seeking, without bringing up strong associations and memories:

I don't know if this is interesting to people. But I just thought I would drop it here!

Knowing what NPC's think. What I suspect happened here is that the feminist/ beta male that saw this for moderation. Decided that the first few lines about me getting images of random women and putting it into Grok imagine was something I shouldn't be allowed to say.

Not that is wrong for any reason she can articulate. But that she just generally doesn't feel like I should be able to say it. Part of the TradCon game of excessively demonising male sexuality and giving women free reign. She probably thinks that women that post picture online should have full legal power over them and that the government should delete naked selfies from womens boyfriend when they are no longer with them. 

It's always the same with NPC's.  

But I'm not having that. On any forum that I am censored I will disappear and never be seen again. As happened with the last guy on "Philosophy of the Law of One". Who censored me for a subject that the law of One contact brought up first, before the questioner did, classifying it as transcient information. 

Man these people are scum. 

Part of where I think this meets a point in the everyday world. Part of the pattern I think this reflects. Is that in this situation .I have offered a lot of posts and energy and information to this forum. I have contributed something. Part of the reason that I contribute something is that I do not consider that I have all the answers. I am actively searching still to get things just right so I re- read the Law of One. It inspires me, and I comment on it. 

But these people, as I have mentioned before. Their opinions come down as though from a god on up high. They say "This is the truth because it is my opinion". Not because it is in the text. So, in effect, they already have all the answers! So why the need for questions? They don't post on session 32.1. or Christianity or Sacrifice. Because they already have those answers.

Since I have stopped posting the forum has just died. There is one new post from a beginner saying he likes the material.  

Because when these NPC's. That are always right about everything. Enter into a situation. They have an opinion on how things should be. But they do not contribute. They are not givers. So when someone else says something. They have an opinion on what that person should think. So their only contribution, is that when someone who actually contributes says something, is to criticise that person. 

They are the self anointed gods from up high. What they want is to be recognised in their godliness. What they want is when someone contributes to a system. Someone intelligent and knowledgeable. That they come along and say "You shouldn't say that about women, apologise to Karen". The person does it, and they are thanked, as the reigning gods that they are!

But in reality what happens is that people that are alive and contribute, say something, are criticised, and do not have to put up with that. So they leave. Then these NPC losers sit in the empty room they have made, and tell themselves that they are indeed the gods they imagine themselves to be!  

Chocolate is chocolate.

There is a quote of the bible in the Law of One. Something like: 'Everyone seeks the Creator everyday and falls short".

I... HAVE NOT been able to keep up with the no caffeine thing. And I decided against tablets when it really came down to it.  

Simply put, my stomach hasn't seemed to have let me. I had faith that blended smoothies and all the things that I am doing would work. But alas, at the moment it seems like it hasn't. Flaxseed, Prune Juice. The only thing that seems to work is chocolate.

The paranoia I get with caffeine makes me think I should have it as a food group and not as a tablet.  

I will have to keep experimenting to see if I can get a better result. The two days I spent off caffeine were very productive. I got on with music, I meditated both days. I prayed both days. Those are the big three for me. I had amazing insights from dream interpretation. Real deep change. 

I am not sure if I can keep those things up with incredible discipline while still eating chocolate. Which makes me feel that I don't need to bother because I am generally happy anyway.  

I never got this issue when I was taking six hour walks twice a day. It is annoying, but it is what it is. The reason I being it up is two reasons A) To not be a hypocrite to claim to have stopped chocolate and not stopped it. B) Because my output my slow or stop, or change, while eating chocolate so it is worth informing anyone who this is relevant to. 

The Law of Attraction and its problems.

Following on from my last post. It has some context. This post might make enough sense without it but just wanted to mention.

When you have committed to the Law of One and Human Design types of ideas. You move away a little from a purely objectivist viewpoint. A lot of the information I believe to be true has been declared on high from a supposedly Angelic source. 

But, I am also kind of skeptical. I have definitely called out crappy ideas. So I end up being in the middle somewhere. With a lot of information that very well may be true, but that I cannot be sure one way or the other is true or false. 

The general instincts I get point one way or the other. With no conclusion. 

This is the case at the moment. The previous post I talked about acknowledging grief and a friend who died who was "lovely". I went down the supermarket just now and standing right behind me was a girl that was a carbon copy of that one. Very similar looking. Similar sort of age. A little taller than average as that girl was. 

It felt like a bit of an answer to my sort of questions to the universe. A few months ago I got very angry at Chat GPT after it gave me a picture of a woman that looked like she had had a masterectomy and refused to make the breasts bigger. I went down the supermarket late night after getting angry at that and a girl was further down the aisle. Slim, and dressed for clubbing with large knockers, low cut. I felt, whether this was true or not, that she would have invited me introducing myself if I had been so inclined. She certainly wasn't avoiding me. (She walked within a foot of me!)

It brings up an issue. I typically haven't believed in the Law of Attraction. But, there does seem to be a "correlation". That things I am thinking about and feeling do tend to suddenly manifest in the world.  

But here is my problem with that. I was not looking for the lovely girl I described in the last blog post. She was just kind of there and I felt that she was there from the Creator almost. She was the best thing that could have turned up at that point in my life. As far as I know of course. 

I feel often that having faith in the Creator will bring the best thing we could have. That the energy that could be spent on 'The law of Attraction'. Imagining some beautiful broad and/ or pile of money, could also be spent willing the personality to the Creator. 

Also, and I know this might seem like a bit of a doomer mentality. But there are a lot of things that could go wrong with the Law of Attraction. I have previously wanted a certain kind of girl, she has turned up, and my life has become hell. I could sit there everyday imagining a 25 year old blonde hottie, and it could go very wrong. Partly because... what do I have to offer? Not a lot, not a lot compared to her other options I am sure. What with the lack of money. It seems to me, even if it were to "temporarily" happen, it is a recipe to get cheated on! 

But I dunno, praying to the Creator, now that, I think, will bring the best results. Even if it is preparing you for something, ten, twenty years from now. I am sure that is the best result. 

I had more to say on this topic, I started with a different idea. The idea I started with was the same kind of thing with more complex information. Explaining good and bad directions of thinking with my human design chart. But I think this has gone on a little too long to go any further!  

Spiritual breakthroughs.

Feel like I should do another one. 

As I calm down from caffeine. Get the insight from not having the caffeine and the last batch of caffeine having driven me a bit nuts. So I'm getting a few insights. This is the second blog post of the day. 

I'm thinking of a girl I once knew. Absolutely lovely and the perfect thing for what I wanted at the time. Just perfect. A lot of what her personal experience was in life was exactly what I was interested in. Everything really fit. 

She was a bit off the wall though and she killed herself. 

Two things that have improved me recently. One is that I have cleaned a lot of my personal space and there is a lot less dust than there was. I think there are subconscious effects of this. I was effectively in a constantly anxious state from the dust allergy. But now that that has calmed I have insights. The kind that make me surprised I didn't have them far earlier. 

A dysfunctional person in my life, I have lost contact with this person now and I had not thought about much, but had always made an effort to accommodate when I knew her. I realised, emotionally, the other day that I don't really have to bother with her. It was just an emotion, a relaxation, that I was not aware of previously. It would be productive if this applied to a few people. 

Another thing I am obviously doing is coming off caffeine. The combination of these two things gives me a stronger link into my emotions. 

The lovely girl I mentioned earlier, there is a sense of grief for her. She died in 2022 and I have not processed this enough I don't think. By actually feeling it. But this is a good thing to get through. I would not want the grief coming up at future times and sabotaging my life. 

But there is also insight. I'm wondering to myself, and the catalyst of the pain of remembering her is relevant here. What was the message? What can I improve? Etc. 

The thing that I could improve was that when I knew her, my spirituality had definitely lapsed. After 2014, I had come away from all spirituality due to a schizophrenia issue. I could not engage with things like meditation without getting fears and compulsions. In 2020, while I knew her, I properly engaged with my dream interpretation. Which I think largely solved the schizophrenia issue.

Meaning, I could return to things like meditation and the Law of One. Which I did not do immediately. The experience of being with her and it all going so catastrophically wrong I believe is a large part to do with my lack of loyalty to my faith. The solving of a lot of issues came when I started doing communion. 

The fact that I felt I had to come away from those spiritualities. That it felt as though it was not even my choice. Is not something I think is taken into account, on the cause and effect level. Maybe on some karmic level it is. But karma is not visible. The point was was that I was lax in my spirituality and I did not have a lot of the positivity and protection that I would have had as part of it.

It could be that being properly spiritually engaged would have guided me away from her in general, or changed the relationship so some of the things I liked about it were no longer there. I can't know. But I still think this is the lesson.  

So I got a good result from what wasn't really good behaviour. Now that I am doing said good behaviour, I don't have a friend like that. I don't have a good result, and I miss her. But I do think the good behaviour is going to lead me in a completely different direction. Different behaviours, and the results that I got on that other path might have been desireable. But I might not get those again.  

Women as buyers, Men as sellers.

I am 42 minutes into this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9u6EdmspfQ&t=2543s

It is a little painful. But as I am listening to it I can't contain my enthusiasm at the concept that is being discussed. Much of the discussion and panelists are not going into the discussion as one of abstract thinking, but are plodding through red pill talking points to get to the abstract possibly later on.

But I wanted to jump straight to the concept itself. 

I had always assumed men are the buyers and women are the sellers. After all, women are quite clearly, a kind of 'product' with everything on display. Their fertility is very on display. They are the approached. So when you think of someone buying something that thing would be approached usually. Like a shop brought item. 

But Pearl put forward a different idea and it feels like it has lit up my brain!

She said it is perhaps the women that are the buyers and the men that are the sellers. 

This makes sense for so many reasons. The seller has to qualify themselves and sell their product but they start off at a place of low status. This is mens position. The buyer has inherent status. There are broke buyers and other situations we will come to, but as a basic, the buyer has inherent status. Like women. 

Men, in relationships, very much offer a service of "protection and provision" in exchange for something. Babies and sex mostly. This is very much selling a service. It is not the position of buyer. 

Some of the pushbacks on my position are that there are a lot of thirty year old women around that are desperate to get married. Well... Like I was saying, not every buyer has a lot of money. She could simply not be able to afford the service she desires. 

The status between buyer and seller is not always set. We assume, it is assumed a little in this discussion. That the seller is permanently low status and the buyer permanently high. But in real life this is not so.

If you were to purchase an education from Harvard. You might be the buyer. But the alpha is Harvard. And you have to qualify yourself to them. You have to prove you have the grades.

Rather like how men start off low status, and then become high status, if they are successful in some cases. A seller of a small business might start off low status and really working for clients. But when they get up to the level of the Teslas and Microsofts of the world. The dynamic isn't the same. The seller has the higher status. 

This also perfectly matches up to the analogy of a woman in her twenties having a million dollars because her fertility gives her power over men. But then by thirty that figure has run down significantly. It perfectly marries with this buyer/ seller analogy. 

Not that I think it can help my life massively. But I still think it is interesting.  

The games of status.

Man, so 04:30 this morning I had the last bar of chocolate I ever intend to have:

I feel like I should have this picture framed.

I have a headache though, I ate a lot of caffeine yesterday. So much so that 18 hours hasn't completely solved it. 

I am just reflecting on status though. I have had a bit of a brainwave about why the world is like it is in relation to status. 

There are two ways status can be applied. One is from meritocracy. This is the natural way we subconsciously expect things to work and the way they work on the deeper level. The other is through a kind of nepotism. 

The point is with status, as with a lot of things. The thing itself is so desireable that it is too valuable to give out as it would naturally do so according to a kind of natural law. This thing being money or respect. 

The reason that it does naturally happen through a kind of meritocracy. The gaining of status. Is because if someone does really well at a certain area. Are really good at a thing, a job, learning of some teachings. Whatever it happens to be. They have not just gained the efficiency in what is obvious visually. They are not just knowledgeable of the basics of the job. Through long term experience they also have put ideas together and really understand that job. 

In order for these teachings to be applied. They have to be given that status. They have to have a certain level of assumed competence and people need to listen to them even when what they say it is not initially obvious how it is going to help anything. Because a real high performer will understand a few steps ahead of everyone else. This is the natural reason that increase in status happens. Because it is efficient strategically. 

But when status cannot be given out because it has to be pooled in the hands of a central planning system of some type. When the manager, for instance, has to have that status. When someone gains status in the job, and is listened to more because they are fun in the after work socialising, or they are attractive. Then the high performer, the person that should be given this status, hits a kind of glass ceiling. 

With the incredible efficiency and understandings gained from that, but without the status, there is an issue, a blockage of sorts. The high performer has to be controlled more. They might make comments about how things are done. They might show competence above the manager and while it might be deliberate, it might be a force of will. Depending on the individual. It might not even be noticed they are stepping on toes. 

But this state of affairs cannot be continued. So the high performer that gave so much to the job when they started. They have to be controlled. In order to convince the high performer to carry on giving, the group has to devalue what the high performer gives anyway. They also often believe it. The person will meet dead silence when they make suggestions and such like that. Whereas before their competence was a threat, people engaged with them easily and everything seemed fine. 

This, I believe, is the reason for a lot of how the world is. This is the reason companies treat high performers like dirt. Because they are too busy giving people who don't deserve it unearned status. 

I wonder if it is a state of affairs that can continue? 

Reflection on caffeine and myself. Part 2.

Quite an emotional day for me.

I have decided that caffeine is indeed quite a problem. I have talked about this a lot. 

Today, it hits me how completely I have lied to myself about the caffeine thing. It is in fact very addictive for me. I spent years coming off it as a kind of full fledged addiction in my twenties. I used to drink 2 liter bottles of diet coke. 

To that end I am finishing up a certain amount of caffeine powder I have. It is one of the things I refused to throw away now that I have decided to come off caffeine. Porridge and latte's with chocolate. I have also brought probably the most chocolate I have ever brought today. Iced creams, chocolate bars, tins of chocolate coffee. 

I am feeling kind of nervy currently. I have noticed I don't see so well when I have enough caffeine because of the heady, jittery, feeling. An increase in allergies. 

I will need a bit of alcohol to come down from this. Then, after it runs out, I plan to stop for the rest of my life. The only caffeine I will have from now on should be for medical reasons, such as constipation. Or if the come down from all this is too hard. Or if I need energy. This is going to happen in tablet form. I am no longer going to romanticise the caffeine. It's not going to be chocolate or anything like that. If I have it, I am going to take it as a cold, non pleasant, tablet. 

Apart from that I don't plan to have chocolate anymore for the rest of my life. Thus why I am having so much today. 

Then, hopefully, I will get increased positive spiritual effects from not having it that will be a well earned improvement!  

 

Reflections on caffeine and myself.

Caffeine is really bad for me. I think it is probably uniquely me. At least from peoples descriptions they are not getting bad things from it. Although people can and do delude themselves a lot. To some extent we do need to take other at their word. 

Nevertheless. For me, for a LOT of reasons. Caffeine really seems to hit a few bad notes. It messes with my bloodsugars. It changes my baseline to burn more sugar, that is really not good long term in trying to find stability in that. It invades my mind like a kind of buzzing of bees. Fills it with imaginings and intense visualisation. Sometimes beautiful, but not ideal. Not under my own control. It is the opposite of meditations although often provides valuable insights.

I also do far less music when I have had caffeine. I think that might be because it provides a kind of good feeling that I seek from music when I am not having caffeine.  

It seems to dissociate me a bit. It creates a little nerve trouble. Twinges. As someone with schizophrenic tendencies. Uppers are not good. There is a distinct dissociation I get with them. I know caffeine is a very low level of upper because most audiences will have some people that have had the real illegal upper. 

I have said this a bit and it always makes me feel self conscious for doing so. There are a lot of excuses people give like I have said and I feel that people are assuming I am making up an excuse. But I have never had any particular issue with alcohol. I can have one beer and not think about it for a few weeks. 

Anyway, I have recently read a few absolutely beautiful passages on sacrifice and the Law of One's general philosophy. I feel that chocolate, as beautiful as it is, is my sacrifice. I have a bit more powdered chocolate which I cannot throw away (emotionally, it will probably run out tomorrow). I had to have caffeine for a while to stimulate my bowels for constipation. But now I am hoping to transition to smoothies, which I can put strange powders in (Spirulina or whatever). I have a blender sitting infront of me right now. 

It is good, exciting, a movement forward. If I can get off chocolate then I feel I can move forward.

Partly the reason I have written this is that I am amped up on chocolate and so I cannot write anything else. I do not trust myself, and am not focused enough, to explore other thoughts I am having.  

The path of faith.

Damn, I have just finished watching a show, and it was just absolute crap. I enjoyed it as far as it goes, and am deeply appreciative that it existed because I have spent a few days now engaged in a lot of tidying. So much so that I have had no "me time". An area that was filled with junk is now clear and I am continuing to clear. Hopefully to keep this level of cleanliness in general. Dismissing my previously more slovenly state as a potential symptom of my, previously more severe, illness. 

But despite needing it as a respite from - actually doing something productive with my time. It was absolutely hollow. There were no values in this show. There were no interesting characters or character development. I also watched the last season of a simpler, more fun show which was kind of meaningful. A good contrast. 

This is mentioned partly as a reflection on the world as we experience it now. What is the value of watching this kind of thing, seriously?

Not the main thing that is on my mind though. 

My posts over the last few weeks, a bout of about five days a few weeks ago. Had me questioning Christianity. This was partly inspired by my love of philosophy. That I wanted to get my answers more from that. Things that could be reasoned from "first principles". But it was also the result of an internal battle that is waging, has been waging for a while. That is admittedly often so confusing that I might be wrong about it. I might question the things said in this post at a later date. 

Anyway, the battle was between two contradicting positions. One is the faith that has been gained from the Law of One where my reasoning cannot even pretend to be taken from first principles. This position takes in a whole continuing path in the continued study of archetypes. The second is a kind of harder skepticism that I was building on. I am not quite sure precisely what the boundaries of this path are because it would be kind of new; but, it would involve letting go of the Law of One to an extent and relying more on the work of Stefan Molyneux. I can recall a specific example that was relevant here. Where session 19.17 described good and evil in a very basic way, and then Stefan described something very similar in a far better way over about twenty minutes or more. Might have been like 45. 

The departure from the faith that I had earlier was the result of the Stefan perspective winning out. But I found walking that path to not be possible. So I am starting to realise that following his work as closely as I do. And I have followed his work very, very closely. I can articulate his positions very well I think. Some of them have become indistinguishable from my own. 

This is an insight that feels as though it is very much expressed directly from its root. The actual root of a confusion in my pathway is pro archetypes or pro Stefan. The articulation of that in any deeper detail. Thoughts on how it fits into my human design or specifically, things I don't agree with about Stefans viewpoint or, even sometimes subtler than that. Places where he might be right, but that it doesn't serve me to study or articulate his message on that specific area. 

I might have some of these points in the future. But for the moment, I just wanted to put forward that for me, choosing the path of faith going forward seems quite functional to me.  

Insight on the acceptance of self.

This entry might be a little disorganised. I do, at least, have an insight though into things I have previously discussed. For me, chocolate and caffeine are not good. I might still have them sometimes, specifically the powdered Cacao I have. Since it is a super food with large amounts of potassium, magnesium and iron. 

But the substance is a chemical for me at least. I have eaten it for eleven days. Partly to get myself through days where I had to spend every hour tidying. Today, not having it. I have a headache and an emotional feeling of grief that I was consciously aware stops getting processed when I have caffeine.

Acceptance of self. 

I have become aware of a fundamental reality today. Because of a few different elements.

The first element is that for many years I was absolutely obsessed with conspiracy theory. I did make a video with studies I had found on how anxiety works, hypothesizing that conspiracy gives people a low level of a trauma bonding kind of thing. Which I maintain. When you are reading about Bond villain levels of evil, I felt at least, that I was prioritising shallow connections with others out of a sense of false comeraderie. Trying to find allies against such a villain. Obviously this false affection was not a good thing to do. 

The second element as I have mentioned is the caffeine. The third element is that on Pearls livestream yesterday she brought up an insight that is powerful for me. She has said that women getting angry at men being "porn brained" tends to be when those same women are doing something like advertising themselves with a cross on and their boobs out doing Christian content. That this is a clearly sexual thing. But they are trying to gaslight men by claiming they are 'porn brained' and pushing off criticism. 

These three together have lead to an unusual insight this morning. I realise that being absolutely soaked in thinking about and yearning sexually, is actually quite productive. We have a huge thing in our society where this is shamed and shamed and shamed again. I would venture for the same reasons as described above. It is the mens 'porn brain' that stops relationships happening. Rather than, as the data shows, women not wanting to settle down before 30. Men always have to be blamed women are always above reproach.

But personally, in comparison to conspiracy or distracting myself with caffeine. The feeling I get at the end of allowing myself to obsess over sexuality a bit is thinking over how I could actually meet women, or get into a relationship. Or even improve others of my relationships. Part of this might be attempting to raise my status through say, work or hobbies. The whole thing might stimulate a creative outlet. 

It's just an insight I thought I would share. Also, one of the things I have thought is that if I stop "releasing" energy (NoFap0, then perhaps this would give me more energy for productive things. Such as the gym. I find that chocolate and alcohol are overstimulating in this regard. My NoFap is already a few days longer having stopped caffeine. 

I have more to say. But not that I'm able to articulate right now.  

Human design thoughts. G self to the throat.

A few fairly complex ideas to work through here. To begin with, I am going to show my chart without the side numbers. I have not planned out this article beyond a basic outline but I know that this is going to come up. So here it is:

Finding my footing in my spiritual beliefs. 

Recently, I have talked about on my youtube a realisation while Uranus was transiting gate 8. That I had a certain not self behaviour in feeling or believing I was a 1-8 individual and acting like it in small ways. But as you see from my chart in fact I only have the 1. 

This is all very complex things I am working on and is likely linked to my recent confusions and resultant clarity on my faith that is "lightly Christian". But as part of this, I have done a lot of introspection on people and the message of the G-self through to throat connections. And this is definitely one of those. 

This is a chart of a person called Aaron Abke, who does teaching based upon his interpretation of the bible and Christianity. What Jesus originally meant and how that message has been twisted etc.

 

The relevance of the 1-8 is something that I wanted to point out but not more specifically focus on. The point being that Aaron Abke's ideas on Christianity is what I now follow and Aaron supports a very works based idea of Jesus' original teachings. Matthew 25:37 describes what Aaron sees as Jesus' message. That if you love God you must actually be loving in the real world and also, as a secondary point of relevance. Jesus did not ever say anything about insisting others believe in him or the resurrection. Those messages were all coming from people that came after Jesus often. When asked, Jesus gave two messages. Love god with all your heart and love your neighbour as yourself. No accept that Jesus has risen. 

It is the message that I attempt to follow and find value in. With my last dog, I used to find that putting on a lead and actually walking with him just had more real world relevance than reading about the spiritual message of being loving. 

This is what I have experienced over the past week. From Saturday through to Friday I was run off my feet with having to prepare the house for a new dog. I took Saturday off, thinking it was over. Then today had to do a bunch more stuff. I have reached a level of deep exhaustion. I did not eat very well over most of this time. I did not pray, meditate or play music; activities that usually give me energy. I tended to eat multiple chocolate bars to support my energy. Gained weight. Very often tidied or did other tasks from the moment I woke up. A few hours here and there some days to watch TV and get back to myself a bit. Some days bad sleep. Some days hardly any, like, three hours or so. 

I felt pretty crap about this. Pretty resentful. But I realise. It is what I have asked for. If we want something then when it arrives I don't think it right to complain internally about how unfair it all is. I did stuff in the real world that leads in a loving direction. 

Alex Hormozi's chart.  

Stefan Molyneux, Carla Rueckert, Aaron Abke as mentioned and quite a few more, all have G- self to the throat connections. The message of these centres/ channels and how I differ from them is an insight and message that I am slowly learning how to understand and articulate. 

It has come up here. I have been quite surprised by a change in my understanding of Alex Hormozi. This was the chart I originally had for him due to his currently listed birthday on a lot of websites:

So one of the reasons I mentioned Aaron Abke and the way I am attempting to understand and experience the world. Is that the process I am about to describe is all so completely abstract. It's a strange process. Most of astrology, most of the human design, is fundamentally subjective. It lacks objective measures that we can use for support. It does not seem to be able to be explained from first principles. 

The point of all this information is to use it in the real world. So there is always a risk with the kind of thing I am talking about here. Taking one subjective set of understandings and finding fault in them, only to substitute another subjective set of understandings. It does lie on the barrier of mental health in my view. To apply too much weight to subjective understandings is to risk insanity. Literal insanity.

With that proviso I will continue though. 

Even when I first ran this incorrect chart of Hormozi's, something just did not sit right with me. Interviews with Hormozi do not to me, reflect, the almost maddening, often semi theological understandings of the 64-47 channel as shown in this chart. Below is the chart of Stefan Molyneux:

 

This is the energy of the 64-47 for real. Also, as might be relevant on the individual stream, please notice that Stefan has the 14-2.

Nevertheless, I was convinced by the correctness of this chart. The video I will draw off for both of these Hormozi based examples is Youtube: Chris Williamson: 24 Harsh Truths about Distraction, Motivation and Focus - Alex Hormozi. Dated: August 26th 2024.

36:40:- That guy showed up, unannounced or whatever, and he said "Hey man, can we do a podcast?" And I was like; Um, I'm just in town, gonna hang out with Laila for the next few days, like, not really trying to do that". And he asked again, and he was like "Hey, it will be like 20 minutes, we can just rock one out" And I was like, well, let me show you my calendar, and I pulled out my calendar and it was all empty. And I said, "See, there's nothing on there, I just want to keep it that way". And, I didn't think anything of it. But, apparently, he left, and my friend just started just crying, laughing, just thinking how hilarious he's like; "I can't believe you said that, that was so boss," and I was like "What is he talking about?" He was like "You just showed him your calendar, you had like nothing and you were like, you're STILL not gonna get any of my time". 

I realise that I have done an English literature no no here and used a full stop before an and several times. But that is just how he talks. He pauses and then starts a new sentence with "and".  

The thing is with this, is it fits for me, quite precisely, the reality, as expressed by the 21-45 in the incorrect chart that I posted. It is a pure manifesting channel. My theory was that the 21-45 communicates very clearly, as per the will power. That you are over there and I am over here and you have to provide value for me to interact with you. 

I (as a person with the 21-45) once had an experience very similar to this. I was walking down the street with a friend and was vaguely aware of a person bothering me. After my friend had told this other person I was not interested he was surprised that I was actually not listening to the individual that had been following me trying to talk to me. I wasn't pretending to ignore them, I was not listening. Who was some sort of charity worker I think. It is a similar thing to what Hormozi has described here. 

I think this is a problem in general with something like the human design when we notice things like this. Even though Hormozi's incorrect chart did not feel right to me for reasons described. I found, what I think is convincing evidence it is correct, and if I had been inclined might make a whole set of theories about that. 

Alex Hormozi's real chart.

Credit to this goes to a woman who teaches the Human Design called Kelsey Crookshanks. Who snipped for ma a facebook post from Hormozi where he discusses his real age. This is likely his real chart, this is a better guess based on current knowledge:

 

It feels a relief to look at this chart. But what is that emotion really? Am I really refining a kind of intuitive emotion with these things? Something completely lacking in any objectivity. 

Anyway, so here is the man himself. As mentioned previously, I have some thoughts and experience around G-self to the throat channels. So perhaps I can capture how this is working in Alex's life. 

Firstly, as we saw with Stefan Molyneux. Who has the 14-2 and the 8-1. Which is a sacral going through the G- self to the throat. We can see a similar drive, success, and that the sacral energy is being plugged through an entire set of values. 

Unlike Stefan however, in correlation with Ra Uru Hu and Aaron Abke, we see the 10-20 going from the G-self to the throat, and I think this channel often wants to communicate in a way that isn't excessively meaningful, or morals based. It wants to get down to the basics, the mechanics. Like Aarons explanation of biblical quotes. 

The individual channel going from 14-2 does tend to be entrepeneurial. I have yet to meet a person with the gate 14 who doesn't stack resources. Even if they have pretty much no other redeeming qualities. That individual stream starts with resources and goes into taking those resources and creating a message.

I have also noticed in the human design that parts in the stream talk about the same story even if hexagrams are missing. For instance, I have the gate 58 and the gate 48. I am missing the gate 18. Nevertheless, even without gate 18 things that happen in gate 58 reflect strongly in the themes of the gate 48. The gate 18 still exists and the collective fills in the story. 

Connecting it to a speech. 

Anyway, about five minutes later in that same video, we get to this:

45:13:... and so, I think, all of it comes down to when you change yourself, you will change the world, because you'll change how you see it. 

46:15:... So if I say, is there a version of yourself that is better than you are right now? Most people, hopefully, would say yes. It's like right, accept THAT person. And I think that, to me, when we talk about the authenticity, accepting yourself is accepting the ideal we can live up to.  

So, connecting this to Alex's chart. We can see that this is your classic G- self to Throat kind of theme. The kind of things Stefan talks about and Carla channels. It seems to me no coincidence that this channel (either 8-1 or G-self to the throat generally) shows up very often in some of the people whose destiny has very strongly given them a wisdom based platform. That they express to others something about the way the world works. It is this channel that wants to be understood and expressed. 

The higher forces decided that the love theme going through the new age and psychology community was not enough. We need it everywhere so we want this bro's bro businessman saying it as well. 

Conclusion:

This has been a long post with a lot of energy expenditure. As though I had some powerful message to communicate and for the life of me, I don't know what that is. 

I must have been wrong about the 21-45 or perhaps Alex was expressing something of that theme even though it was not in his chart for some reason (transit, or synastry from someone involved perhaps?) Donald Trump, Tom Cruise and Al Pacino are the first people that come to mind with the 21-45 but none of them have a particular theme linking how they express themselves as far as I can see. I suppose they are vaguely intimidating. It is not clear that ignoring people and transactional relationships is in fact the 21-45. Perhaps I am just weird.