Gate 51 and Trauma.

In the human design, one of the most spiritual channels is the channel of 'initiation'. The 51 - 25. With the hexagram for shock, in the gate 51. Which is both upper and lower trigram as thunder. Linking to the gate 25. Which, in my understanding, from my putting together of things. Is solely responsible for 'The Fool' archetype from the major arcana. 

So shock gives way to basic innocence/ spontaneity and truth. 

It is an interesting thing that brings a few questions. It was one of the channels that lead to Ra Uru Hu's expression. Through both the 51- 25 to the G- self then the 10 - 20 to the throat:

 

It is also in my own chart. I have the 51.1 twice in my design/ unconscious. Which links to the 25.6. So I have closely worked with this channel. I had a friend commit suicide when both Mars and Chiron were sitting on the gate 51.1. Chiron exactly and Mars was two days out. 

It... starts to bring some sort of understanding about how negative experiences can aid a person spiritually. What was Ra Uru Hu's expression? Well, Ra Uru Hu had an unbelievably intense, what I think of as extra terrestrial experience, which lead him to create the Human Design Chart. Of course, this became the basis for his expression. The gate 51 and the shock of that was a big part of this for him. 

Ra talked about, in one of his books, that he had met someone else that had started talking about human design similar concepts. Who had not been able to receive the information, and was now in a mental hospital unable to feed himself. Ra explained that this was due to his moon having gate 51.1. In that he was able to absorb the shock of these experiences. Whereas not everyone is. 

This is a basic understanding and theory that could go in a few different directions. But, my point is that I feel I am in this state right now. I was terrified when my eye hurt a great deal and I had to wait for it to get better and I am still psychologically unwell in a sense. I am not playing music. Not being able to play music is a novel experience for me. Not feeling it. I am not meditating or praying right at this moment. 

But I am still getting insights at the moment. I wonder if it is through this process. That this was initiatory in a sense. I am having insights about new ways of looking at the world that feels like it is putting together some puzzle pieces that are the results of months, even years of insights.

Those are not for this specific blog, maybe for other entries these insights will feature. But it was just a bit of a thought on gate 51 and such.

 

Here is my chart. You might notice that it is similar to Ra Uru Hu's. But it is the same in a very powerful way. The initiation channel of gate 51 - 25 leads up to the G- Self. But the G- self doesn't reach up to the throat.

I have written quite a bit about this due to believing that some of my 'not self' conditioning was to artificially create a G- self connection to the throat. That is too complicated to go into. But the point is, the 51- 25 is a projected channel in me. It was a manifested channel in Ra Uru Hu. 

Yet again I have summarised something that I can't fully explain. But it is important.