Reflections on societal responsibility.

This is a video I want to make a comment on today. Not a particularly direct comment:

Youtube: Chiara: Musings on the G center in human design. Dated 12th of January:

https://youtu.be/OR2094DLhpY?si=x7JNjKceWcLjZM4i

These sorts of casual discussions on the human design I have always found to be very useful. Often when people get overly confined to structure they miss out the benefits of a story that has little insights within it.  

While watching this video I had an insight on responsibility/ accountability in general. It strikes me that having a human design chart in front of a person. Having the person they could ideally be, I suppose. Might change some of what we feel about them. 

The quote earlier that I wrestled with about "love being our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous". Might link to this. It is not a thought I have completed. But it is interesting. 

I used to know a girl with an undefined G. I have said this before, but I have to repeat it here for context. We were friends but I was not well enough for actual sex. So we played about a bit but nothing serious. We spent a lot of time together though, but she was borderline. With severe mental issues. Putting it lightly. And she jumped off a cliff.

I have wrestled with the very masculine, self help or philosophical idea of one hundred percent responsibility. I believe it makes sense. It is the opposite to a powerless perspective. 

But I have wrestled a little bit with it as it applies to me personally. Since I have a serious medical condition, and it is only recently that I have been kind of... well. I have had a lot of issues because of this. The medical condition really screwed me up. Issues with anger and such like that. 

So, it seems to me that it is hard to take responsibility for a previous situation, emotionally. This is the issue I think with the discussion on responsibility in general. For me.  The emotional element. When it is discussed and people are challenged it is often strongly emphasized. It is very what I would have once called a "neurotypical way of thinking". That every single thing needs to be processed emotionally to be "real". 

But the insight I had as to how I interacted with this girl. I have a defined G, and all the additional things that provide context to that for me. How, as the defined G, I could have explained of modelled certain things. It stung. But it also got past that emotional difficulty. Regardless of what the emotions are. I can see the best way things could have gone down in a way they didn't, and it doesn't have any emotional connection. 

It's like listening to someone complain about money, and the larger economy, when you know fully well their voting choices have created this issue. There are many issues I think, with how much blame should lay on people voting destructively. You could say that people are tricked. That the negative has fashioned the world in a way that someone going to put a tick in a box in a voting booth creates galactic level crimes and this is an unfair trick. Or you could say that no, those people voted the way they did. Often bullied and socially ostracised others based on said propaganda, and they need to take emotional responsibility. 

The middle route is, it doesn't matter, I cannot know and do not care about this emotional element. But we can describe and explain the mechanical element in the chart. Person held this political idea and it moved xy and z parts of the chart into the not self, as an example! 

 

Getting it wrong.

Even though my ideas on stopping prayer, still make complete sense to me logically. In experiential terms, it has not. 

I do apologise. Lately I seem to be feeling around in the dark a little in order to find spiritual insights and general ways of improving.

I have reverted those posts to drafts. So they are not visible any longer. Since it makes no sense to put out something I don't believe is true. There have been other posts previously which I was not quite sure were true or not. But I left them up. Since there were parts of the reasoning that were still legitimate. But this one there was nothing, I don't think, that was legitimate. 

So, I made a post with a few ideas about prayer. The reasoning still might be sound... In theory. But when it comes to real life it is not practical.  

I have also wondered along with this if separating myself from the Q'uo readings is not completely correct. For two reasons: A) The Law of One contact said that Carla was doing very well in her alignment with the Creator. B) She was a very talented channel. So she can channel, and those entities speaking through her are not just her. 

I went on the lawofone.info site links recently. Going through some blogs and such. The retardation is strong. One of the articles I saw was titled: "Charlie Kirks strategic targetting of minorities".

The attitude towards left wing individuals is something I have not quite solved. While I do take Stefan Molyneux's viewpoints on a lot of things. I do agree with the theory again strongly. There is not really a way to get out of 'taxation is the initiation of the use of force' and such. It's not as clear in my experience that all left wingers are inherently 'sinful', and the Law of One does not cast the situation on Earth to be a fight we are involved in. Which makes the left less dangerous. Being less like people that might destroy civilisation, and more like a population to be managed by higher angelic forces.

There is a mega powerful transit coming. Four planets in gate 61. Maybe I'll go into that. But I just wanted to mention it. 

 

 

Session 61.9. Subjectivity.

Firstly starting off with a reflection on this Q and A from the Law of One:

Questioner: This brings out the point of the purpose for the physical incarnation, I believe. And that is to reach a conviction through your own thought processes as to a solution to problems and understandings in a totally unbiased or totally free situation with no proof at all or anything that you would consider proof, proof being a very poor word in itself. Can you expand on my concept?

Ra: I am Ra. Your opinion is an eloquent one although somewhat confused in its connections between the freedom expressed by subjective knowing and the freedom expressed by subjective acceptance. There is a significant distinction between the two.

This is not a dimension of knowing, even subjectively, due to the lack of overview of cosmic and other inpourings which affect each and every situation which produces catalyst. The subjective acceptance of that which is at the moment and the finding of love within that moment is the greater freedom.

That known as the subjective knowing without proof is, in some degree, a poor friend for there will be anomalies no matter how much information is garnered due to the distortions which form third density. 

Subject knowing versus subjective acceptance! 

This session and answer has definitely joined a few neurons in my brain. Provided a kind of answer to a very internal query. 

There is a bit of a trap that a person can find themselves in I think. When looking for truth. Weighing up a belief in a larger spiritual reality, which cannot be completely justified objectively. For instance, in the Law of One. 

The trap is, I think, that if you have to throw out objectivity to some extent. The tendency is to fall back on a subjective truth. The reality becomes that the subjective has larger meaning. Perhaps based on a religious or spiritual experience of some sort. 

But then subjective knowing and subjective acceptance are not distinguished between and I will do my best to explain what I think each does mean:

Subjective acceptance: This is something that I cannot justify why it is a virtue. But is talked about in the Law of One. Subjective acceptance is that our subjective experiences are accepted. So if we do have a spiritual experience that is purely subjective. We do not pretend it didn't happen. That this extends to accepting what is going on in our lives and what that would mean in general. So it kind of becomes objective eventually. 

Subjective knowing: Subjective information. Like let's say a lot of this information, such as talked about by the Law of One. Becomes kind of formalised, in New Age beliefs as an example. If we were to take the belief that life is a set of lessons that are planned by higher forces. Then we can impute that belief onto the real world. It can become dogmatic. 

This means that we really can be sure of very little. To restrict our experience to subjective acceptance, rather than subjective knowing that would seem to come from that.  

Writing Smut.

Root issues. 

I have talked recently about root energy issues in general.

I think about sex a bit. But not just in the way that all guys, and probably all people do. Like experiences I would like to have or whatever/ girls I want. But, I am not well, do not have money and really lack energy even if I did get a relationship, or so much as a female friendship. I am left with the drive but nowhere for it to go. 

The law of One vaguely advises on this. They say that if a person has a fantasy that is 'not consonant with the Law of One'. So, there are all sorts of unhealthy and unethical things we fantasize about. The best way to handle it is to play it out in the imagination. 

To me, I wondered for a while, if I could take that 'imagined' scenarios and put them in written form. Create another of what female writers in general like so much. A smut story. But a male one obviously. There are plenty of these stories on the internet already. 

This comes up in relation to my chart. I have the gate 58.2: A genius for perverse stimulation that afflicts oneself and others by promoting degeneracy and reducing joy to indulgence and decadence. 

Perspective.

I have often either wrote or wanted to write these stories. But I have often also, felt they were debased and wrong. Especially when I include real people in them. Like, people I know in the real world. So I have often ended up deleting them. But they are kind of good. I am able to write these stories.

Partly to push against this tendency I have tried my hand at writing normal stories. But just stories that are about mine and others ideal future. The trouble with these stories though. Is that they are no good. They are ridiculously cheesie in a way. It is like I am just suited to write the smut stories and do not enjoy writing normal stories. As though I just have more inclination and motivation. I get completely there would be more motivation to explore something carnal than something of any particular higher meaning. The carnal stuff comes first. 

The reason I have previously stopped with these stories is because they are debased, and because I have worried that writing them effects my real life negatively. Like, if I were to talk to someone my conception of them might be effected by these smut stories going through my mind. This is also in relation to metaphysical things that might be effecting things. In the New Age and Law of One those thought based effects on reality are considered very real. 

BUT, I realise this is not necessarily correct. Since, there is no physical effect of this reality. I have got no effect of positively getting on with any of these people, or people similar to them. From not doing those stories. 

When I am writing those stories and I attribute my lack of social success to potentially those stories. That is completely wrong. I just need to push on and not let the idea effect me.

Human Design:

Today, Venus is in gate 58.5 which I also have, and often correlates with ideas about writing these kinds of stories. It is not clear from the white book if this clarifies anything. But it is about whether or not someone succumbs to temptations. 

This doesn't mean I definitely will create these stories. Just that thinking through the various factors that impact it.  

We all get down sometimes.

At the moment. I am "unconnected". I don't know if everyone knows what that means. But I think everyone knows what it is like to feel "out of sorts" in some manner or other. Everyone has a kind of flow state where things work better, and a less than flow state where things feel a bit more "out of tune". 

It is likely health issue linked. I can't get on with meditation when I have a health problem, and that is the literal base of my spirituality. I am also thinking something over in the Law of One, so not reading further. Reading a session is usually pretty fantastic in general.

I think this time is productive though. I think I am working through something about how life works and such. Things that I need to accept about myself. 

This shift might be coming since I have shifted my way of processing, as previously discussed, and perfectly in line with transiting Pluto leaving gate 60.6 and entering gate 41.1. The shift is... no more energy healing... Only prayer is ever used by me. 

My plan is... getting back to meditation. After, sleeping properly. I normally sleep very well, but only seem to stay asleep for a few hours at a time at the moment. I DID notice huge shifts in my mental perspective that are interesting, having been on low sleep and having just slept. But those are reflections for other times.

I am also seriously questioning my tendency towards prayer, the rote prayers I do often. It feels very unsafe to stop it and I do get benefits from it. But I've noticed it is a bit of an energy drain. I have this set of prayers which I use from a book before I go to bed that even seem to have a positive effect on others. BUT, there is something draining and not right about it, and something more refreshing about the dreams when I do not pray. I do not get this sensation with prayers I have created, they don't have a connected energy drain. But I think maybe the language and my sensation of a general liberal leaning (the prayer for the good of the world includes the word 'racism'), are starting to mean that these prayers are not good for me.   

Anyway, that's all. I decided to make this post because I am quite sure it is a post that others relate to. 

Reflections on root chakra issues.

I have not kept up with the Semen Retention. The illness I suffered a few days ago left me in a very low place and having more energy in that place, not sleeping. Was not practical.

There was also another concern though. The Law of One in their discussion of polarity summarised that the negative polarity, often suppresses it's energy so said energy can later be released at a moment that increases it's distortion to power. So as an example, suppressing anger and seeming positive and absolutely exploding in threatening anger when it is needed.   

As my "root chakra" energy started to gain. I found that the best way to not have 'carnal' thoughts in general. Was to just scroll past any posts/ social media, with female images. 

Unfortunately though, it seems to me this kind of anger. This attempting to literally erase any idea of lust from my mind. Also kind of stops the flow of their output in general. It is the effort to suppress the sex drive. it pushes it down so inevitably the lust floats back up.

Women often also connect their image to their general output of sweetness.  

I think this is why a lot of men have so much trouble with semen retention. 

There are other relevant things. I like this youtube creator. I am getting a little desperate with figuring out ways to increase health around other limitations. I want to lose weight for example, but my ability to change my diet and exercise, is carefully, and quite seriously, limited by various factors.

So I like to try and imagine myself doing exercise. It's one of the things that I am exploring. It is perhaps unrealistic. A little like a lot of my ideas. But it's still something I am thinking of:

Article. Dr David R Hamilton: The Science of Mental Reps: Build Strength with your brain:

https://drdavidhamilton.com/the-science-of-mental-reps-build-strength-with-your-brain/

So one of the things I like to do is to watch videos like this, that are surprisingly unsexual for me. Despite the fact it is a female form. I do though, prefer the beautiful female form to a guy doing this:

Youtube: TRAIN WITH GAINESBYBRAINES: 30 DAYS AB WORKOUT: 14 DAY AB CHALLENGE.

https://youtu.be/ZawiEE3xB-U?si=GHd49cTI4hVJa3Zi

The point is also partly to just keep thinking of it so I am more likely to exercise in general. 

So that's just some general thoughts I have on the subject. It is a difficult balance and perhaps impossible one. I will be seeking to allow myself to think freely, to let my attraction to women continue. But at the same time will be seeking to lessen the levels of lust that originally lead to not being able to do any semen retention. 

Our changing society. Gate 38.

I realise this post might be a bit too personal, boring and even vaguely schizophrenic. I hope it provides value in that I am thinking through the Law of One. But I did feel the need to add this proviso at the beginning. I am partway through as I write this but I hope to end on a good point about society and such. 

New Years and the gate 38. 

I can't stand New Years Eve. I have never liked it. I think the best one I ever had was drinking a whole bottle of Baileys and watching the first episode of a vampire show that I never followed up on. 

In the practical real world. This is because I don't really have friends. The previous friend I did have I hung out with occasionally. I recall them all leaving on New Years Eve and every party or event has turned out to be bad luck. I have ended up walking home as the time crossed 0:00. I used to think this was because the real Human Design New Year is on January 22nd. When the Sun crosses into gate 41. But now I've started to think it is because on New Years Eve. The Sun is in gate 38. And that is a damn difficult gate. 

The gate of the fighter. From the channel of struggle.  

Which fits my current experience. Having been quite ill the past few days I am recovering. 

From the Law of One session 61: 

Questioner: Is there anything in particular that the instrument could do to improve the physical condition?

Ra: I am Ra. This instrument has two factors affecting its bodily distortions. This is in common with all those which by seniority of vibration have reached the green-ray level of vibratory consciousness complexes.

The first is the given instreamings which vary from cycle to cycle in predictable manner. In this particular entity the cyclical complexes at this space/time nexus are not favorable for the physical energy levels.

The second ramification of condition is that which we might call the degree of mental efficiency in use of catalyst provided for the learning of programmed lessons in particular and the lessons of love in general.

This instrument, unlike some entities, has some further distortion due to the use of pre-incarnative conditions.

My emphasis. Obviously, since Law of One quotes aren't randomly bolded. This line was one of those moments for me where I have to put down the book and try and digest it. That, with some other things in dream interpretation. These are good moments. Having met something so profound you have to think it over before you absorb anything new. 

Applying the quotes. 

The profundity is more in line with reading the Law of One repeatedly, reading not just the words but absorbing the overlying pattern. What we are here doing is to absorb and use everything in our real life. To "process all of our catalyst". I have watched this be a part of other admirable peoples lives. 

To me the line would likely be 'catalyst provided for the learning of programmed lessons and in particular and the lessons of wisdom in general. Assuming I do have lessons since the fifth density incarnate wanderer on Earth is already harvestable to sixth density. However, I do think I have lessons. 

So what does this spate of illness. What catalyst has it been providing me? For me, I felt like I finally might have got something right. But then, I might have got one of the particulars wrong. 

When I realised a bit of time would be spent in recovery I realised it is an opportunity to fully REJECT energy healing as a potential solution to anything. Energy healing is a thing I have returned to periodically that is always somewhat toxic. I have even had dreams, multiple dreams in fact, summarising to me that this is not positive. One of those reasons may be a certain lack of emotional empathy. I cannot extend the healing to others once I have theoretically healed myself, because I have not had the experience of caring for other massively. I do look after family members and such but my emotional empathy "doth not overflow". In the same way that an introvert doesn't have masses of energy for socialising. 

I suspect partly, that the reason for this, is that I desire very strongly to oppose evil. If I was life planning and I was discussing said plans with higher entities and they said to me something like. "You can have a distortion towards healing but you would spend a decade and a half as a leftist as well". That would be a hard 'no' for me. 

But I still wanted healing. Without turning to energy healing it is a bit more about just waiting it out. So I turned to prayer. Waking up I had an insight and decided to send energy to a few people. So this was my almost learning the lesson but getting the fine print wrong. 

I got what I consider energetic responses. Like, someone very similar to the person I sent energy to turned up and I got insights into that person that energy. I also got an instinct to contact someone, and I was reminded of the massively unproductively complex connection we have. 

For me, as a fifth density entity... "Love", as in sending Love. Does not make a difference. It does not solve anything. It does not shift or provide solutions to anything. So the point is. No sending love to myself in the form of energy healing. No sending love to others. 

What does make a difference.

What I think does make a difference is gaining enough wisdom on my situation that I understand why it is the way it is, and thus that I am able to moreso accept it. 

At the moment my situation is largely unchangeable. I am of course growing in ways that matter. Like, my understanding of the Law of One, and I am improving in health. I am probably improving in health as a direct result of not being employed and not being employed in the current market. So even though being unemployed is frustrating. There is a positive element to it. 

HOWEVER, the world is a larger place and even though I don't socialise. Moving forward in my life would assume that socialising would be necessary. 

In reflecting on gender roles, as this is the crux of the issue I think. (Because even men are controlled by women). My understanding is that men are fundamentally designed to work and provide value. To provide resources. They provide this, and what follows on is their instinct to look after a wife and family. What men desire when they have money is to get a woman and put her in the kitchen. To summarise in a very basic way. 

Every single car, computer, every cement block on the pavement, is due to mens desire for status in this way. 

Women are in a different place. They are born with beauty and an excess level of emotional energy. They are about looking after babies, or people, knitting together communities, and generally through that mechanism supporting whatever the tribal values are. Women are vulnerable to, and repeaters of, whatever the dominant propaganda is of the day. 

This stuff is deeply, deeply placed in our genetics. In our very being. As far as I understand. So men go out looking for ways to provide value in the world. Gain resources. The world is more likely to shame men that are not able to do so. As they are not useful to the tribe. (They don't have the inherent value of the female reproductive system).

So mens value is themselves + the job they are able to do and resources they provide. In the normal situation, women have to gain those resources from men. So they are nice to men. They think about ways to get said resources. They are charming. 

There is more to this that I won't go into. 

At the moment what we have is men but no jobs. A lot of them. Since as we have seen recently. A lot of white millennial men are deliberately excluded from workplaces by woke retards. But what we have is a lot of subsidised female jobs. Of course, there are real female jobs as well. But, disproportionately, women are getting a lot more of the jobs and some of those jobs are completely subsidised. "Lazy girl jobs", as seen on TikTok and such, can see women getting six figures for doing barely anything.

So this creates a long term toxic effect. Women have a lot of value. Female reproductive system + Job. A huge amount of value. Men have no value. No female reproductive system and potentially no job. And the ones that do have jobs, their money is taken from them and given to women via the government and taxes. So it leads to this effect where women. Just don't care about men in general. And they are not willing to concede that they are right about anything. It is the left wing bundle of neurosis or the high way. 

The reason this is partly done is to stagnate society. Men are innovators because that kind of groundbreaking creativity. The Elon Musk/ Nicola Tesla's of the world. Is a male thing. Men, even from about six months show greater tendencies towards systemising than women. The look at how things run and push for them to run better. 

Women do not have that testosterone. They favour the status quo. And speech policing everyone as though they were looking after infants. Their movement in general, opposes meritocracy and competence.  

This leads to a difficult situation but it is in the process of rectifying. It has begun in the US but it will spread to other countries. Manufacturing is returning to the US. By many times. DEI has gone. So men will rise in power. It will go back to where men have the competence, and the resources, and women, and various other communist affiliated groups, will be strongly incentivised to go back on the value system that they have built over the last few decades. 

When a group in society goes from powerless to powerful, it will cause quite a lot of potential friction. 

Conclusion:

So that is the wisdom that keeps me together. It correlates with an emotional desire for 'revenge'. But it is not really revenge, just the knowledge, the wisdom, of how things actually are. One of the things that is relevant to discussing these concept is "What precise emotion or thing connects to a word". Since revenge can mean different things. But it is possible to align such a word with something that is higher and for the good. 

This world and this society has reached such levels of darkness and confusion that it could be that when things change, we will simply look back on a lot of these troublesome behaviours as a time shrouded in darkness that does not make any particular sense. Or perhaps moral lessons will be drawn from it.