To meditate is to be.

A very self centered post but you will realise from reading this is because I am unusually happy with a recent success... 

Well, success, and I mean BIG success. Success that felt a bit like a drug high. That I think might have come close to 'contact' in a sense (In the Law of One, the contact talked a bit about how they valued the subtle connections we have with the spirits in our daily lives, even as much as a full on ET contact). 

Anyway, since I am praying regularly, things are good. (Gotta keep on top of that). I have also been trying to keep up with meditation. I tell myself that doing daily meditation is not the point, since I will not be able to do it one day. But I can pray every day. So my energy can be focused on the prayer, rather than the meditation per sey.

But I digress. 

I got my meditation together. I set up a few minutes, ahead of the meditation, to get things in order. I actually read the bible in this time, and I have a suspicion that my path will grow more in that direction as things continue. I will become more devout. But as yet, only a suspicion. Daily reading the Law of One is a big thing at the moment. 

Anyway, after this preparation. My meditation was deep. I mean DEEP. I have started to appreciate my earlier years of not having much of a life, being ill, and a bit of a 'loser' in the shallowest sense. Because it did allow me to meditate a lot. I value that now. 

So, what did I experience? I can't fully describe it. It was better than most of what I have experienced in life so far. It was a strange synergy of every little bit of information I have gained from the Law of One. My understanding of the spiritual reality. How it relates to real life. The realest of life. All combined with active insights. 

It was beautiful. It gave so much clarity. It was like when you suddenly gain a new perspective and you realise something that you thought was important, is not actually important. The insights are continuing but in a far more grounded and subtle way. It's just clarity really.

It is perfect.  

I have quite a lot to say that I can't articulate. Or that I suppose I could if I tried. But it also doesn't seem that important. 

I suppose I wondered if this blog, I would spontaneously come out with more profound stuff. I often come out with points I don't expect while writing these blogs. But it hasn't actually. I will leave it up though. Because at the very least. If there are other spiritual seekers out there. Another reminder to meditate (The Q'uo readings basically say that every reading!) Might be good. 

The Primacy of Prayer.

Very very often I have thought to myself. In my general rotation of the different tools that I use. Is there one that I can use, that if I used it every single day, would have the effect of improving my life. 

Meditation? Looking at the human design transits? Playing Music? Refraining from masturbation? Reading the Law of One?

But I think, finally. I have found what that thing may be.... Prayer. Making sure that I set an alarm to do two main prayers a day, and saying an additional set of prayers from a book at night. 

As might be obvious if someone were to read the last few weeks of this blog. I am reading through the Law of One again. Many of these blogs produce quotes that were sequential from the one before. So one from 48, 50, 53 etc. 

I had an unpleasant experience the other day. One that could have easily escalated in an unpleasant direction. I felt that it would go wrong a few moments before it did in a similar way to how it did (we can call this situation A). There was just an unpleasant vibe in the air. I was wondering, in general, as to the point of things and it was in fact a non positive coincidence that lead to the situation. In a way it was pointless. 

I have found a very strong correlation, impossibly strong. When I pray. Things kind of go OK. When I pray for a while they go so OK that I stop praying because it is not obvious that it is doing anything. But when I stop. I will just get some sort of nasty coincidence. Things will just start to go wrong in some way. When I was actually making a philosophy out of NOT praying a few days ago. A set of posts I may have deleted deciding it was not useful or correct. I got a health issue from a minor lack of judgement that put me out for four days and created a lot of discomfort. 

For me, the protective value of prayer is not in doubt. Even though I am still wrestling with a skeptical side to my nature. So I have reflected on what the value might be even if there was no larger positive entities not interacting with us. The take away is that doing prayer is very positive. It is this that I hope to do, day after day, and to look back on my life and see positive results. 

I said, in reference to 'scenario A', that it was unpleasant, could have gone far more wrong and was kind of pointless. In the Law of One, session 68, the three of talking to and transcribing the contact. Found that they were in real danger of being negatively infringed upon. It feels similar to my situation at the moment, albeit in a less important way. 

I also want to make another point here about the Law of One, this also from session 68:

Questioner: Then you are saying that if this fifth-density negative entity is successful in its attempts to transfer the mind/body/spirit complex when that complex is in what we call the trance state to negatively polarized time/space, then the higher self has no choice but to allow incarnation in negatively polarized space/time? Is that correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is incorrect. The Higher Self could allow the mind/body/spirit complex to remain in time/space. However, it is unlikely that the Higher Self would do so indefinitely due to its distortion towards the belief that the function of the mind/body/spirit complex is to experience and learn from other-selves thus experiencing the Creator. A highly polarized positive mind/body/spirit complex surrounded by negative portions of space/time will experience only darkness, for like the magnet, there is no, shall we say, likeness. Thus a barrier is automatically formed.

What is interesting here to me is that even though, the Law of One contact is talking about opposing entities of a kind of galactic level evil. That this also applies to the most basic every day situations we get with even mildly annoying people. "Thus a barrier is automatically formed". Is a principle that is relevant to our daily lives. 

Anyway. The reason that prayer is THE thing, I believe. Is that meditation is very liable to be stopped by illness or life chaos and once you don't do something only one day. The momentum is broken. Last week I had a few days where I was stressed about something and didn't sleep. The next few days I slept for about twelve hours each day. When you sleep for twelve hours and you are not necessarily expecting it. Like, you fall to sleep at 18:00, and you have other things going on. Then you don't have time to meditate. 

We'll see how it goes. But hopefully, this is the thing! 

Reflections on my schizophrenic break.

In 2014 I had a severe schizophrenic break. One which had real world consequences. 

With all the insights I am currently having. I am starting to get to a place where I have insight into this. Not only the situation itself, but the situations that followed it. 

I have annoyed a great deal of friends and family through being fairly focused on right wing talking points. It seems to me though that the right wing talking points were a desperate inner attempt at gaining some sort of objectivity, from not having it in my previous understandings. Combining mild left wing leanings and spiritual teachings like the Law of One. 

However, there was also the lack of strength in my spiritual beliefs. I had read through the Law of One. But the Law of One is a set of deeply powerful spiritual concepts. When life happens, it is easy to let some half imagined, abstract idea come in and mess with an understanding. The Law of One's understanding are refined and powerful, so when you are kind of in the 'flow' of life. Those understandings becoming confused, can be quite catastrophic. 

I talked two blogs ago about sending love and light to people in general. My previous thought process had started to think of this as a very bad thing to do. In fact, this was a distinct part of my paranoia. That if I did send any kind of love or positive feeling, it would have extremely negative consequences. 

Later on in my life, things that I am reflecting now. In relating to certain individuals where I did not feel they were necessarily that positive. I am starting to realise that having come away from this tactic was not positive at that time either. 

Bringing us to this specific quote from the Law of One:

Questioner: Thank you. In closing that part of the discussion I would just say that if there is anything that we can do that is within our ability— and I understand that there are many things such as the ones that you just mentioned that are not within our ability— that we could do for this particular entity, if you would in the future communicate its requests to us we will at least consider them because we would like to serve in every respect. Is this agreeable to you?

Ra: I am Ra. We perceive that we have not been able to clarify your service versus its desire for service. You need, in our humble opinion, to look at the humor of the situation and relinquish your desire to serve where no service is requested. The magnet will attract or repel. Glory in the strength of your polarization and allow others of opposite polarity to similarly do so, seeing the great humor of this polarity and its complications in view of the unification in sixth density of these two paths.

At the very base of it, this is something that I should have been aware of a long time ago. To 'relinquish your desire to serve where no service is requested', (a line to reread when it is hard to remember). From having first learned about the Law of One, having had the energy to kind of improve me. It seems obvious to me that in order to remain sane and strong to the principles relevant to it. It was important, and is important, to re-read the books and make sure that the information is strong in a sense. Not modifiable by passing thoughts and fancies. 

This line from the Law of One also clarifies for me something that I have thought about and written about before. 

Stefan Molyneux: "Love is our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous".

I have still been thinking about this. It is clarified a little by another quote by him: "Reason, leads to virtue, leads to happiness".

To understand this. I imagine two people. Two women. One is right wing in a sense. Has her own viewpoints. Settled down early with a husband she loves with a couple of rug rats. Has a good relationship with her family and such. Supports things like perhaps Christianity, and literature like Charles Dickens.

The second woman is a leftist. A real leftist. Believes in climate change/ feminism, and is all sorts of insane. Leftists have a passionate hate for right wing people in general. Tend to believe and act on things like the positivity of the independent woman and hook up culture. Tends to hate men. Tends to hang around with people that take all kinds of drugs. Not interested in a long term relationship. Slept with a lot of very high status men she hoped would want her for more than a hook up. 

Life is not as simple as this. These are stereotypes and caricatures. In actual fact often right wing/ Christian women, even if they are traditional, can be quite controlling since they now have to do a lot to keep up their status. But on a basic level. One of these people seems like she would be nice to hang around. The second one does not seem like she is nice to hang around. Talking to a woman who mostly is concerned with looking after kids and has awareness of powerful literature. Would be positive and a relief. The second sounds like endless unproductive drama. Like a real headache, that will probably not want to deal with you anyway if you have anything other than left wing cult like beliefs. 

This makes sense as to the 'love is our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous'. This feeling is involuntary. You don't have to work to prefer to deal with the first one.  

And this is what might be meant by "The magnet will attract or repel".  

Sending love/ The Characterisation of Villainy.

In this blog I will include casual spoilers of The Mentalist, Person of Interest and Breaking Bad. Not real spoilers. Not like "This is the identity of Red John". But, "this is how it was emotionally with Red Johns accomplice".

Firstly though, just a personal note. I wrote two blogs ago about reading session 67 of the Law of One and, in my interpretation of the material, the idea that sending 'love and light' to people in general IS a correct thing to do.

There is actually quite a lot going into this, it became something I really thought over a few years ago. I have had quite powerful insights into how I originally got a schizophrenic break. I think insights into this could be a very positive thing to communicate in the future.

Right now though, the good thing is... "Sending love to people". I believed I should not do this previously, so I have reversed this. I am doing it with both people I have known personally and organisations and such. Not always with a clear cut agenda. Like, I believe the Law of One said that sending love to negative entities harms them in a sense. Reference sessions 25 and possibly 67. I also believe it is likely that sending positive energy to people you do get along with is mostly positive. Although, in some cases I explicitly don't do so. I think if you have an open, loving, normal relationship with someone. Artifically sending "love" is not necessarily a good thing. 

Results, are few, and internal. But good. The main positive one. I mentioned on my original post how my ability to create music has kind of taken a nose dive in the past few years. In a strong way, said musical 'flow' returned. Not in making new music, but in playing old. It is true indeed I believe, that in order to connect with certain half finished previous songs. Sending love and light IS important. 

I do feel that it is a big thing, a big insight I have had and I am expecting ongoing positive things. I just want to quote this first to explain one of the things I don't think is right about 'sending love':

This woman talks a lot, directly opposing the non violence beliefs of Christianity and any other single thing that is non violent. She seems very high IQ. She provides a very good counterweight to articulate opposing arguments to the validity of certain spiritual ideas, I think. 

I've thought through her opinions at various times, internally, as I go through my various experiences in relation to spirituality. 

But, I want to oppose this one here. Sending love and light to a person does NOT, in my view, mean that you see them as more positive than you did before. Or that you would be less equipped to deal with conflict with them (in my case this is emotional conflict).

In general. When sending love and light to others. I get insights in general into my connections with them. This is simple things, but powerful things. Things such as: 'Oh, of course this person would have this perspective on the situation'. In a sense, I find that I am more able to let them go with these insights. It is folly to assume a certain thing will definitely cause a certain result. Sending love and light to someone does not automatically mean that I wish to never harm a hair on their head (perhaps this is the case with women and a more maternal love!) It might be shortened in a sense to 'attention'. And giving attention to something tends to reveal its truth. Rather than dictate a certain direction. 

I seriously think that this mental change for me will create real life changes as time goes on. The music insight alone is extremely powerful!

Anyway, onto our next subject here. This might not be relevant but I'm just posting it since it got to me a bit:

 

I made an article angry at this but then deleted it. '10 days' is a significant date in the Q communities and people were retweeting this. The Q communities are very used to false starts and disappointments. But they still will give it another weak shot. It's kind of annoying in a sense because a lot of people are suffering and holding out hope. 

Donald Trump had a statement today, and this man, Stephen Miller, was part of that statement. Was it of groundbreaking importance? I don't know, time will tell. It is not significant in the same way a mass arrest of Democrats including the Clintons would be significant. But it might still be significant.

Stephens announcement was that he has found corruption and lies within the reporting of crime statistics in Washington D.C. For me, I have always thought the mechanisms of gaining statistics is one of the best manipulation tactics of our politicians and neo liberal elite. If you don't know what a problem is, you can't address it. It was not crime statistics specifically that made me catch onto this. 

The characterisation of villainy.

The mentalist: 

I've been thinking, in general recently, as I watch a LOT of TV. (Being unemployed and of ill health). About the way these shows characterise negativity in general. Sort of like, crime or evil. 

In the Mentalist. a cop show but focused on a protagonist that uses mental tricks to solve crimes. The show focuses, for FAR too long in my view. On chasing a serial killer who has started off a kind of cult and has a lot of supporters. Hidden supporters. 

In almost all of the episodes of this show where a supporter is caught, they turn out to be the most mundane person that you could imagine. A therapist, a policeman, some guy on the board of a charity or something. The character will be all normal, and then when they are cornered completely shift: "I serve Red John". 

It makes me wonder about the nature of evil. I would expect a certain 'eliteness' to malevolence. But truly, is this the case? Anyone you talk to who has worked with victims of severe physical abuse, will tell you that it is quite common, and quite severe. People all over the world are going home and beating their kids half to death. Child trafficking is a big problem in the west. 

If that is the case, if it is not just 'the elite' doing these things, if the numbers are large, many of us could have interacted with some truly evil people, unawares. 

Though, it is not in that same style. It is not people that get a glaze over their eyes and start telling you about something as evil, and unambiguous, as their worship of a serial killer. 

One thing that springs to mind is the sudden aggressive physical opposition of ICE even when they are attempting to deport, sometimes, people that have violated children. But in a lot of cases serious criminals. It is difficult to strongly connect people with left wing beliefs from the genocidal chaos that is leftism as it gets more pure. A lot of left wing policies, if you try and communicate them to others, you won't be believed. Even their own supporters don't understand these things. 

But the pattern is kind of there all the same. The AWFUL's being arrested by ICE are the most normal people that you would hope to meet! 

Breaking Bad:

The world of criminality, is one that I do not have any experience of. I wonder sometimes how much I am being educated about real criminality when I watch these shows. How much is just completely incorrect and made up. Breaking Bad, when I watched it, really gave me a feel I was looking into some very educated information about how said criminal world works. 

A lot of inside information about how to make Meth. In one scene Jessie, who has experience in the criminal underworld, says to Walter: "Why are we here? This is like a non drug dealers idea of where a drug deal should be. We should have gone to the mall". Then when the drug dealer they are dealing with meets them he says "Why are we out here homie? Was the mall closed?"

Person of Interest;

A new gem I have found. I don't think it is as popular as the previous two. I am not that far through it. But so far it is a professional show. 

In Person of Interest, there is a group of corrupt cops. The reasoning behind one of the senior members makes a great deal of sense. He said that he liked one of the new up and coming criminals because he "keeps a low profile and he greases the right wheels". To him, for the police to control an entire territory is too much work. Too unpredictable. To have a criminal that is reasonably civilised doing it. This makes sense in strange, structured, cop logic. 

One of the things I also wondered about in this show was that this 'up and coming' criminal was a bit like a Wall Street Guy. Extremely intelligent. The kind of person that would get more money in stocks than controlling the streets. It is another thing I wonder. Do these people really exist in the criminal world? 

Going the other way

The other way this could work is looking at real criminal things and seeing if they correlate with the show. 

In one of these shows. there was a person going around killing single parents. When investigated, this turned out to be that they were not in fact single parents before they were killed. The children were falsified after they die so an individual could claim to have adopted the children and receive money for this. 

Well, let us look at a real situation like this. The daycare fraud in Minnesota. In the show, this was all a very refined event. Full of complex maneouvering and generally smart, high IQ, people. The Somalian fraud is not that. The Minnesota fraud is very unsophisticated. It was discovered by a 23 year old youtuber driving around different daycares having a look. 

I don't know if there is this incredible refinement to negativity. Evil is, in a lot of cases, incredibly lazy. It's excuses are often made on the fly and they are ridiculously easy to see through. I can't remember where I heard this, perhaps in some analysis of Lord of the Rings. But there is an incredibly reliable, "disgusting" aspect to evil. 

And, not evil but negativity in general. Crime, drugs, sexual degeneracy of various intensities. There is a LOT of it. If it ever does start to be handled. It does seem to be at the moment. Perhaps we will get a clearer image of what it is. 

The human design new year, gates 61, 60 and 41.

Reflecting on the human design chart:

It's very frustrating working with something so obscure and abstract as astrology in general and the human design. While I am sure it is true. I seem to be often guided to and have insights that it is the tool to use at any given time. The strange art of watching signs in the sky to be timed with subtle changes in reality, just subtle coincidences in life. Is all rather passive in a sense.

But nevertheless, I do believe it, it is to some extent my "faith". 

One of the patters that has seemed clear to me since looking at this system, and astrology in general. Is the obvious logic that if something is going to change. Then the moments before it actually does is a period where the LEAST change is happening. Change only happens when the forces pushing for it have overcome the resistance to such change. So it breaks a bit like a damn in a sense. 

The Human Design New Year is coming around January 22nd. I tend to feel things kind of stagnate a bit in this period. Our modern rituals put New Year a few weeks before obviously. Right around the time when the Sun is in gate 38. it then goes through 54 - 61 - 60, then the new hexagram is gate 41. 

There's a lot to explain here. Gate 61 is a kind of enlightenment of sorts. It is the beginning of the mystical or psychological process. This is equal to the Religious (64-47) and scientific (63-4). In January 2020, Saturn and Pluto conjunct at gate 61. This provided, in my reading, a huge burst of energy that 'enlightened' the world. The light provided was that circumstances revealed a lot of peoples inner nature to the world. We all of a sudden knew who would turn against us for political disagreements. 

The following hexagram is gate 60. Because as we can see in the world. After that light is revealed. Oftentimes, it is inconvenient. It has definitely been inconvenient in this example. People want to sweep it under the rug. To forget. But the limitation, gate 60, prevents that. Everything clams up and gets stuck. There is no new situations to celebrate. No new partners. No new jobs. The situation must be dealt with. All the hidden limitations come to the fore. 

Gate 60 has deep spiritual implications. It is a gate I have worked with closely in examining and understanding my "not self". What the real limitations are matters in this space. Because what our limitations are, are not always obvious. Sometimes, for example, we think what was actually a physical issue, was a mental issue, or just bad luck. There are literal layers that have to sometimes be uncovered to see our real limitations. 

It matters what the real limitations are, because it is not at all clear what the path forward, as shown by the gate 41 is, if said limitations cannot be seen.  

Gate 41, is big though. It feeds directly into gate 30. Which I believe shows, in the not self, the madness of certain left wing beliefs and it's link to narcissism. Relating to Chiron and Neptunes meeting in gate 30 in February 2010. 

Gate 41 correlates with evolutionary psychology. It's descriptions as 'Decrease', could also link to issues with the economy, although I have never observed that happen. 

Regardless, where I am going with this is that it is my hope that something politically significant will come with this transit. Venus is actually currently in gate 41.2. Once the sun goes there, Mars will also follow. They are not all out of the gate 41 (aside from Pluto that is long term transitting), until February 2nd when Mars leaves.  

Like I say, it is all too maddeningly abstract. But it would be interesting to think about.  

The Law of One and sending love and light.

I have been reading the Law of One. There was something in session 66 which I just cannot get a handle on. Something like, that if someone uses an illness to improve their life, it becomes more difficult to cure that illness. 

Very confusing. Something I have to turn over in my head. 

Anyway, this from session before the point that I found interesting:

Questioner: I will ask if I am correct in this analysis. We would consider that the entity making this so-called attack is offering its service with respect to its distortion in our polarized condition now so that we may more fully appreciate its polarity, and we are appreciative and thank this entity for its attempt to serve our One Creator in bringing to us knowledge in, shall I say, a more complete sense. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. There is no correctness or incorrectness to your statement. It is an expression of a positively polarized and balanced view of negatively polarized actions which has the effect of debilitating the strength of the negatively polarized actions.

This, in general, is a very odd perspective. That negative people in the world should be kind of appreciated. 

This was the interesting line for me though, when I last read it: 

Questioner: Then how could we solve this paradox?

Ra: I am Ra. Consider, if you will, that you have no ability not to serve the Creator since all is the Creator. In your individual growth patterns appear the basic third-density choice. Further, there are overlaid memories of the positive polarizations of your home density. Thus your particular orientation is strongly polarized towards service to others and has attained wisdom as well as compassion.

You do not have merely two opposite requests for service. You will find an infinite array of contradictory requests for information or lack of information from this source if you listen carefully to those whose voices you may hear. This is all one voice to which you resonate upon a certain frequency. This frequency determines your choice of service to the One Creator. As it happens this group’s vibratory patterns and those of Ra are compatible and enable us to speak through this instrument with your support. This is a function of free will.

A portion, seemingly, of the Creator rejoices at your choice to question us regarding the evolution of spirit. A seemingly separate portion would wish for multitudinous answers to a great range of queries of a specific nature. Another seemingly separate group of your peoples would wish this correspondence through this instrument to cease, feeling it to be of a negative nature. Upon the many other planes of existence there are those whose every fiber rejoices at your service and those such as the entity of whom you have been speaking which wish only to terminate the life upon the third-density plane of this instrument. All are the Creator. There is one vast panoply of biases and distortions, colors and hues, in an unending pattern. In the case of those with whom you, as entities and as a group, are not in resonance, you wish them love, light, peace, joy, and bid them well. No more than this can you do for your portion of the Creator is as it is and your experience and offering of experience, to be valuable, needs be more and more a perfect representation of who you truly are. Could you, then, serve a negative entity by offering the instrument’s life? It is unlikely that you would find this a true service. Thus you may see in many cases the loving balance being achieved, the love being offered, light being sent, and the service of the service-to-self oriented entity gratefully acknowledged while being rejected as not being useful in your journey at this time. Thus you serve One Creator without paradox.

The reason this is interesting to me. Is that "sending love and light" to people that I do not get on with is something I have mulled over for a long time. I had thought that it is strictly not the right thing to do because it is a violation of free will. But this session seems to indicate that it should be sent to this purely malevolent entity that DEFINITELY would not consent to it under free will. 

I have not found it to be effective to pray for others without permission. That DOES seem to be more of a free will issue. But sending love might not have been as bad as I had initially thought. I have decided many times NOT to send love, thinking it to not be positive. But this quote blows that out of the water. 

But perhaps it is in fact fine. Also, I used to be able to write music, I used to flow more often. Now I am coming up with lyrics less often. This is probably just age. But I do wonder, when I was younger, if I fell out with someone, often a hot girl, I would still feel love due to that testosterone/ idealism type of thing that young men have. So I wonder, if I send love, it would allow me to continue with a lot of songs. In order to articulate a lot of the complexity in a situation. Love perhaps still needs to be involved. 

Reflections on societal responsibility.

This is a video I want to make a comment on today. Not a particularly direct comment:

Youtube: Chiara: Musings on the G center in human design. Dated 12th of January:

https://youtu.be/OR2094DLhpY?si=x7JNjKceWcLjZM4i

These sorts of casual discussions on the human design I have always found to be very useful. Often when people get overly confined to structure they miss out the benefits of a story that has little insights within it.  

While watching this video I had an insight on responsibility/ accountability in general. It strikes me that having a human design chart in front of a person. Having the person they could ideally be, I suppose. Might change some of what we feel about them. 

The quote earlier that I wrestled with about "love being our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous". Might link to this. It is not a thought I have completed. But it is interesting. 

I used to know a girl with an undefined G. I have said this before, but I have to repeat it here for context. We were friends but I was not well enough for actual sex. So we played about a bit but nothing serious. We spent a lot of time together though, but she was borderline. With severe mental issues. Putting it lightly. And she jumped off a cliff.

I have wrestled with the very masculine, self help or philosophical idea of one hundred percent responsibility. I believe it makes sense. It is the opposite to a powerless perspective. 

But I have wrestled a little bit with it as it applies to me personally. Since I have a serious medical condition, and it is only recently that I have been kind of... well. I have had a lot of issues because of this. The medical condition really screwed me up. Issues with anger and such like that. 

So, it seems to me that it is hard to take responsibility for a previous situation, emotionally. This is the issue I think with the discussion on responsibility in general. For me.  The emotional element. When it is discussed and people are challenged it is often strongly emphasized. It is very what I would have once called a "neurotypical way of thinking". That every single thing needs to be processed emotionally to be "real". 

But the insight I had as to how I interacted with this girl. I have a defined G, and all the additional things that provide context to that for me. How, as the defined G, I could have explained of modelled certain things. It stung. But it also got past that emotional difficulty. Regardless of what the emotions are. I can see the best way things could have gone down in a way they didn't, and it doesn't have any emotional connection. 

It's like listening to someone complain about money, and the larger economy, when you know fully well their voting choices have created this issue. There are many issues I think, with how much blame should lay on people voting destructively. You could say that people are tricked. That the negative has fashioned the world in a way that someone going to put a tick in a box in a voting booth creates galactic level crimes and this is an unfair trick. Or you could say that no, those people voted the way they did. Often bullied and socially ostracised others based on said propaganda, and they need to take emotional responsibility. 

The middle route is, it doesn't matter, I cannot know and do not care about this emotional element. But we can describe and explain the mechanical element in the chart. Person held this political idea and it moved xy and z parts of the chart into the not self, as an example!