The difficulty of following guidance.

I wonder, what the beneficial point of this blog is to others? Thinking of it, I realise that my self/ soul/ mind is always engaged in thinking about spiritual types of things. It is the energy that I have to use every day. I figure we all have three energies we have to use per day. Part of mine is that I have to re- experience the drive for meaning and to figure that out through intellectual means. Whether that be spirituality, philosophy, or something else. 

After the Law of One Carla Ruckert did a lot of channeling of Q'uo. I figure that is because once you have started down that road. Of seeing things in a Law of One paradigm. Then it becomes beneficial to have constant reminders. Like how, in church, a lot of the messages are basically repeated. Constant reminders is a big part of the spiritual journey and the life journey in general I suppose. 

Anyway, I wanted to mention tow ways that I have felt guided to a certain conclusion and then now figure I may have been wrong about that and the idea behind that. First I wanted to talk about a Law of One quote and what it might mean to me:

Questioner: In previous communications you have spoken of the mind/body/spirit complex totality. Would you please give us a definition of the mind/body/spirit complex totality?

Ra: I am Ra. There is a dimension in which time does not have sway. In this dimension, the mind/body/spirit in its eternal dance of the present may be seen in totality, and before the mind/body/spirit complex which then becomes a part of the social memory complex is willingly absorbed into the allness of the One Creator, the entity knows itself in its totality.

This mind/body/spirit complex totality functions as, shall we say, a resource for what you perhaps would call the Higher Self. The Higher Self, in turn, is a resource for examining the distillations of third-density experience and programming further experience. This is also true of densities four, five, and six with the mind/body/spirit complex totality coming into consciousness in the course of seventh density.

This quote then summarises something very fundamental about the Law of One world view. The higher self programs further experience. So we are living in a situation where the events in our lives are targetted to learning lessons of some description. As set by the higher self.  

Anyway, the two places where I have refined my ideas. One is that, recently I talked about coming off caffeine and alcohol. I have decided I have to stick with the alcohol. The reason is mostly due to communion and other related health issues. I have always kind of believed that Jesus said wine and so it is wine at Communion. I don't ascribe a lot of authority to the church in general (who do say grape juice is fine!)

Communion is not negotiable for me. I have had experiences of a very positive nature and very intense apparently connected with Communion. At the moment I am improving my health in a lot of ways because I am now able to go to the gym. There are MANY different factors to balance and they conflict. I need to lose weight. I have bone thinning. I have stomach issues. I have a huge tendency towards anxiety. Typically I am a very good sleeper even sleeping too much. But occasionally things go wrong and the sleep just stops. 

On two of these, the weight loss and anxiety, but primarily the weight loss. I need to stick with the alcohol. If I am not having wine I have grape juice at communion and I put on weight. It is a problem that I try and get around by just doing everything surrounding it right. But I put on a kilogram and I am not doing well with weight at the moment. (For instance, I have cheese to combat the bone thinning).

Also, I have slept three hours tonight and am completely wired which I know I will have to pay for. My medical condition has somewhat conditioned my body to be more easily made anxious. More than a decade of physiologically based extreme anxiety. It is this that is being improved with the gym.

The wine of course has no calories in it. Unlike the grape juice that is VERY sugary. I put on 1kg with my last communion. The communion without wine I feel a little less connected on as well. 

For the second thing. A previous blog I wrote called Conflicts in world views, applying the lessons learnt. I think the premise of this post is correct. But I think I have applied it wrongly.

It is interesting that in that post I summarised another idea that I eventually went back on. I summarised two wrong teachings there. As though highlighting that I was basically out of tune. 

This is one of those blogs where I carefully concealed where I had gotten the teaching. The tarot card idea at the beginning is actually an image from a dream. Not my amazing creativity! Those tarot cards are always my dream images. The dream itself had me using Stefans kind of thought process and not being able to grip Law of One concepts.

Pretty direct right? But now I think that was a metaphor. Previously, from my dreams I have determined that either Pearl Davis or Stefan Molyneux is causing an inner conflict for me. I did not know which one and have come off one or the other at various times trying to figure this out. 

The dream giving me exactly what the apparent issue was seems almost like wilfull deception. As though that deeper part of me is treating me like a genius. Because to have thought that was only a metaphor early on would have been to have thought like a genius I think. But now, over time. The guidance that staying off Stefan Molyneux is good has not borne out. Pearl on the other hand. I do not need to think about girls and their manipulations that much at the moment, they are not part of my life. There is also something wrong there, a bad feeling I get that is backed up by small things. I am not allowed in her chat for example because one of the moderators has a grudge against me. There are just a few things giving me a 'bad feeling' there. 

So, everything I said in that October 27th blog. The whole argument I laid out. Is not in fact correct. But a misinterpretation as I currently see it.  

Human Design Transits Part 3. Sun in gate 43, Earth in gate 23.

One of the women whose tweets I am going to probably excerpt here wanted to hear what insights my tweet had given her. So this blog is going to have to be a little more introductory with some of the concepts potentially. BUT, there is an extent to which that is not completely possible. I hope what I write basically makes sense but I can't be sure that it does. 

I am not going to go out of the way to inform any of the others tweets I excerpt on this. Primarily because I do not think I will have any impact on them. My blogs slowly climb over about a week and a half to maybe 10 viewers and that is simply not enough to have an impact. I am not even going to make the effort to hide their handles for this reason.  

There is no legal problem with this Twitter being a public site.  

I have set up this series to talk about the human design transits. I have used general twitter chat to capture what is going on. The first part I talked about Sun in the gate 44 and Earth in the gate 24. Discussing how the transit theoretically shows the real energy. The positive ideal energy. Then a lot of determined gossiping and group think produces opinions against that energy. The second part I talked mainly about the Sun in the gate 1 and transiting Uranus in the gate 8, because that is an electromagnetic channel. This one I am talking about the gates 43 and 23. Which define both the Ajna and the throat. The whole article is discussed with the Law of One and Human Design types of concepts considered to be truth. That is the baseline. 

The 43-23 then. 

Ra Uru Hu, the founder of the human design, had the 43-23:

That is, the upside down green triangle at the top. and the throat which is the square just below it. These are coloured in, their energy is stronger than the white centres. Because the 43-23 channel is defined. 

Ra Uru Hu was a complete genius. He was a genius in these metaphysical and spiritual matters. Which are not so easily understood since they are targets of narcissists and cult leaders to fake. I had not thought much about what the 43-23 really means in a person or in real life. It tends to be the gate of the individual. It is the channel where a kind of acceptance of different ways of being and different ways of thinking is really important. The 43-23 wants everyone to be accepted. Because it itself is weird and eccentric. It is assuring its own survival. 

Another example of the 43-23 is Dr James Fallon. Who talks about how some psychopaths, even though they have the brain of a psychopath. Are actually functional individuals who are not evil people by function of existing. So, accepting the difference.  

The Ajna is also where a lot of processing happens. People that don't have the Ajna just don't tend to think quite as much. Or they don't have their thinking as part of what they are here to do. Their 'life path' so to speak. Where Jordan Peterson and his 17-62, from the Ajna to the throat, the logical process, is endlessly talking about how do we define what's real or not. A little known celebrity with the 11-56 is Adam Elenbass, who processes the abstract information of astrology. 

But I had never really processed what the 43-23 really means. How it really expressed. As an individual channel descended from the 61-24. It is very much about a mystical or psychological process in my understanding. The reason I bring those two together is that a lot of ideas about karma and such, that we repeat the same experiences 'until the lesson is learned'. Have identical counterparts in psychotherapy. In my understanding the processes are both similar. Both into things like personal insight and dream interpretation.

So what we have then, is that this week, as it trundled on. Was going to tell me something about how the collective processes that kind of "mystical" type of thinking.

So on to the definition from Stefan Molyneux. Stefan talks a lot about this. His interpretation of mysticism is something of pure negativity. At least some of what I have heard has been that in my interpretation. I did not understand his critique of mysticism for a long time. But eventually I listened to things that explained it. 

As a small side plot, the world of Neo Platonism and Hellenistic Dualism is relevant here. Truly poisonous ideology that effected the early church and have formed their own kind of gravitas of, in my view, incorrect ideas and concepts. That have had a severe negative impact on almost all of modern society. Including, as I mentioned. Christianity. James Tabor mentions this in his recent interview with Aaron Abke on Mary. If you want more detail. 

Stefans interpretation is as follows: Evil, negativity. The process of the perversion of moral for evil ends is to create a moral rule and then create an exception for yourself. No one in society should steal, but I must steal. No one in society should initiate violence. But I must initiate violence. 

When objective reality and reasoning gets in the way. (Well... Why are you able to initiate violence?). To get around obvious, universal, moral rules. A 'higher realm' has to be created. You cannot initiate force on others or steal. But the king will do both of those things when he takes your taxes... Why? Because of the 'divine right of kings'. The mystical idea they are given their authority by God. 

This brings us to our first tweet example. This womans name is Philosophicat. She talks about philosophy in some manner and I think she interacted with Stefan somehow on twitter. Since Stefan is very grounded and atheist and this woman believes in things like astrology. My younger belief in the world, as someone that is very passionate about things like astrology. Was that she would be right in this argument. 

But no, this woman, while the 43-23 was transitting showed the EXACT thought process I mentioned. 

The discussion started off with her mentioning the conditions under which men should or should not express themselves. In the comments the idea was something like 'Men are allowed to express themselves but not to 'dump' their emotions. OK... well who decides that.

People took it, like they should take it. Like an annoying post that was not particularly coherent, pleasant or moral. This is what she came back with:

You don't have to read that. I did not even study most of it the point I am making is that she starts off the tweet with... 'People are misunderstanding my tweet. It is not open to interpretation, it is just correct.' Pretty much pure narcissism. Nobody, even if they have literally posted statistics themselves. Is just 'divinely correct'. Most of her tweets have carried on with this same kind of thinking. 'Men don't understand the divine feminine', or some such. 

This woman is exactly what Stefan says about mystics. She even states in her bio some variation of Hellenism. She wants to create a 'mystical zone' called 'divine feminine'. Which is immune from things like objective reality and criticism. I am pretty sure that is her entire output. I have seen men in her comments praising her for her mysterious 'wisdom' along these lines. Some people actually believe it.  

Nick, oh Nick. 

The Nick Fuentas drama was also happening at this time. 

I will just state my general opinion of Nick to add a bit of context, going back into my ideological views and general thoughts on the 'zeitgeist' of the day. 

Going from a kind of Ayn Rand perspective. Because it matches some of the relevant realities and I do not have time for nuance (no one will wish this blog any longer than it is!) The left, cancel culture, transgenderism, high taxes, their complete lack of any belief in freedom. This is a very serious opponent. I lack words to describe their negativity sometimes. These are the people that you are not allowed to say even a slightly 'risky' joke around. The politically correct people that police speech until we are all living in a kind of isolated hell. Where we have to remember weird things like asking for pronouns. 

The right, both the Trump right and the QAnon people. State, on paper. That they believe in the opposite of that. They believe in low or no taxes. Wealth. Everyone working. People being able to speak freely on issues like gender. The right, the Ayn Rands of the world. Believe in freedom. Believe that this is the path to virtue. The Q people actually believe that the left, the negative, are possibly aliens and have been mutilating children. That they are a satanic kind of evil. 

Nick, is just a kid really. To me. He is obviously 'something special' in that he has a platform when a lot of people don't. But this is a high IQ young man who thinks about things himself. I have seen Q women get upset and call him a "fed" because he says anti Trump things. 

How I see him, is, as I have said, incredibly fun, funny, articulate. He is very male in a way. Not really 'alpha' but very powerful and direct. He says things that upset people. That shouldn't (but do) upset men. These weird right wing Christian men, with no soul, that I'm sure would be better served as serfs living under the earth. 

And he just speaks what people are thinking. What a lot think is truth. Of the few clips of him I have seen. He says he finds women annoying and doesn't want to be with one. He talked down a fan that asked him to come to detroit joking at him that 'do you think that's gonna happen? hey, here is that podcaster you listen to, I'm in Detroit'. He says some very sweet and poignant things. And some things that are just so weird that I can't imagine how he comes to that conclusion. Like maybe Stalin had some good points. 

One of the things he often says is 'It's not that deep.' 

Men know, that when freedom is starting to be had. All sorts of strange things will crawl out from under the rocks. People that don't agree with your sensibilities. We are not a monotone like the left. We are groups of entrepeneurs and genius' that believe in freedom and freedom of speech. 

Nick shows that some of the women. They do not believe this. Not really. They perhaps like the abstract idea. But it is not in their DNA. They also perhaps fear the nebulous underworld of manosphere individuals that they believe exists. This post showed to me, that that female tendency towards word salad and mysticism is used in this way. To alleviate the anxiety of approaching freedom:

 

I thought this one was funny. It's so hyperbolic! What is a "parasocial trauma bond"? This is where I see the other side of the 43-23 show it's head. 

Also, what is Nick. He is an unusual individual  -> 43-23. So the negative side of this is not NOT accept the person.  

The point here, is that the guys listening to Nick are not... children. Women tend to believe everyone is an infant that they need to protect. Women are also, fairly vulnerable to propaganda and following cult like political parties. But men aren't. Men are just like... Ha ha, that was funny what Nick said. Then they go on with their day.

There are very few men who heard someone say something 'racist' and morphed into some sort of super psycho. Proven in part I think by the complete lack of white male, right wing violence the establishment so hoped existed to justify state tyranny.  

I just wanted to drop another tweet to show this general attitude. This tweet came in when the Sun was at 43.6. So just finishing the hexagram:

When I first saw this woman I thought she was quite sweet. As a Christian, even though I am far away now from a traditional Christian interpretation. Someone talking this passionately about Christ still warms my heart. 

I have, to my detriment I suppose. Got in debates in her threads where I have proven a perspective wrong with biblical quotes and a lot of explanation. This woman just ignores it and will tweet the same disproved thing the next day. 

She is not actually moral, she is sweet. There is a difference. It seems to me her goal is not virtue, but the solidifying of her own power and 'the female agenda' in the church. Like I said this blog doesn't need to be any longer so I will not explain further.  

So Nick said something that upset the church people on twitter. He said that Jesus was more about telling people the truth and he would rather be a rough around the edges truth teller, than a suave liar like most of the people criticising him. 

They did NOT like that. 

To me, this is a substantially correct point. Jesus spoke at length against the Pharisees. The Pharisses were corrupt spiritual leaders. He completely dressed them down. There was not much else that he did that upset the Romans it was probably this dressing down that got him killed. He was crucified for being impolite essentially. Polite society and the truth often conflict.

This woman has stated clearly here that she wants everyone to shut up and take her own personal view. To not offend her sensibilities. 

Here is another one of this kind of thinking:

 

And this one. This has to be my favourite. It is absolutely glorious in its hypocrisy:

Every single tweet this woman makes. Like the one I just quoted trying to nag people for acting 'impolitely'. Is claiming a position of authority. She claims authority through her belief that she has that authority through being 'saved' and can speak on these kinds of matters. 

You will not find a single tweet of mine that is telling others how to behave! 

I have also not once seen any posting about her service on there. 

Mainstream Christianity, especially how she practices it, is also pure mysticism from a Stefan Molyneux definition. Which Pauls gospel is. If you believe Jesus rose from the dead you are saved from all sins. But no one else is. Everyones works are 'filthy rags'. So you are literally better than someone that actually goes out and does good things in the world but hasn't been dunked in a pool of water! There exists a dimension where normal objective morals do not hold sway called being 'saved'. 

Conclusion:

Like I said, no one is going to say of this blog post that they wished it was longer than it is. What comes next is actually very interesting but is in process. The Sun moves to gate 14, the Earth to gate 8 and it will soon conjunct Uranus! It is all big. It is Venus that is in the position of gate 1. 

I have seen some interesting tweets and pushbacks against manosphere types of tweets since this. We are only at 14.2 and 8.2 but the entire thing is very powerful. The new moon on the 20th is exact Cazimi (conjunction) Mercury retrograde. Exact, on the new moon. Less than one degree. Opposing Uranus is obviously a big deal. 

I don't know how that is going to be expressed but I think it is very interesting.  

Human Design Transits Part 2. Sun in gate 1, Earth in Gate 2.

I have not written this article despite wanting to, and now I have just in the last few minutes had an insight that pulls it together, so I can write it. 

It would be great to have a visual, but unfortunately, I don't. To plot a human design chart includes two separate sets of calculations. The self and the body. When you are viewing transits you only need one type of calculation. If I were to plot a previous set of transits. I would need a single set of calculations. But the only way to make a chart is with two calculations.

In the last article I talked about the gate 44-24 and talked about how the twitter sphere. Talking about what these gates probably mean. What their energy is. And also talking about the not self themes that come up to cover that energy. To prevent the real realisation coming up and messing up peoples world view. A theme in each part of this is that it is women fundamentally driving the not self theme. A kind of gossipy madness of women that walk in lock step and say certain things. 

There is a difference in this post. Because the transit of the Sun in the gate 1 linked to Uranus in the gate 8. 

Uranus is a distinctly political energy. Even though, as I will talk about, it also has personal implications. It's main implication is of a huge scientific intelligence that includes among other things. Knowledge of the free market and philosophy. 

Uranus is retrograde. In a retrograde the energy connected to that planetary transit is questioned. So when the planet goes forward in shadow. You are blissfully unaware there is an issue and continue forward with both the positive energy and with said issue. When it goes back you take a breath and the issue is revealed. Ideally, you get rid of it then and you move forward again without the issue. There are all sorts of ways this can go wrong I think. Especially in people that are unaware. The issue can be consciously capitalised on in the retrograde and used for negative purposes. But, ideally, of course. It works exactly like that. 

This means that a kind of revolutionary energy was there, but then we are now in a place where there is a re- evaluation of whether everything is OK "within the movement", so to speak. 

This was a much harder energy than the previous week. The 44-24 was on two undefined centres. Once definition comes into the picture it is a stronger energy. Unless perhaps it hits your chart personally. 

But we have the Sun in gate 1- connecting with transiting Uranus in gate 8. Then the discussion became suddenly very heated and what it was about was... There was a guy who posted that women shouldn't vote, and this suddenly became a discussion. Which makes sense. Uranus evaluating what is going on within it's movement. I think that the fact that this theme came up when Uranus was being energised in an electro magnetic channel, shows a strong element to Uranus' current position. I think a lot of men are more serious about this than twitters jovial nature would make apparent. Or at the very least, the fact 80% young women voted Democrat in NYC's recent election, as an example; is a thing that many people are aware of and wish to address. 

Part 1 and Part 3 had more to say on what was going on. More substance. Perhaps because the not self element here is not so apparent. This individual electromagnetic channel expressed what it did and the not self element wasn't able to gain so much prominance. Unlike the 44-24 and coming 43-23.

I have another realisation about this though. A personal realisation. In my next article I am going to speak positively about Stefan Molyneux's definition of mysticism which comes from listening to his history of Philosophers series. It has come from hard intellectual work in my thinking. Philosophy and insights and stuff is HARD. Even though through a kind of Dunning Kruger I believe, most people seem to think of themselves as divinely moral without philosophies aid. Which cheapens the value of the discipline for, I would say, most, normal people. 

BUT, I have had trouble with another of his definitions that I have talked about previously on this blog. 

On September 21st and 23rd I wrote two blogs around the same kind of theme. This is what I was really saying, although I hid it in loads of indirect speak. I had had an issue with a family member and due to this, it was uncomfortable for me to feel like I 'loved' this person. Since, I cannot think of a 'virtue' this person has. They are leftist and all that. I was trying to break down my understanding of the situation with this definition as I have also heard it talked about by Stefan. 

His definition is that 'love is our involuntary response to virtue, if we are virtuous'. So as an example. If I were talking to someone and I asked something and they came out with something they heard on the BBC, or in a University feminist class. Then this energy essentially 'covers' the person, and when we are not able to 'see' the person. We cannot love that person. So what we often feel in it's place is our body manipulating us. An example from Stefan I gave and which he goes through with his callers is the guys that have strong simpy feelings over a girl and then can't name a virtue of hers. Because... They just wanted to play hide the pickle. Even though they were not aware of that aspect of their motivation. 

The way we actually do love then according to this is if people have real emotions. What they really feel, not information out of a text book. Then we can love that thing that is that person. With our also real self. 

It is a very interesting definition. It is powerful information that has an 'outer planet' quality. Uranian things, often are linked with Neptunian and Plutonian as well. They often have an 'alien' quality to them. So, Human Design itself is one example. The whole thing looks like it was given to us by literal aliens and the entire thing speaks in a kind of language that is completely different to how most people process reality. Music might be another one. It is kind of Uranian. Mostly. It's technical aspect. 

But to give love a definition like this. One that changes reality itself in small ways. When the normal world would just say if you feel it, it is correct. You love that person. But using the definition it shifts you to the realisation it's not really love. It does have that Uranian quality. 

But, as I said Uranus is going retrograde and gate 8 Uranus is HUGE for me! But, this piece of insight from Stefan has not seemed to take. Perhaps that young family member doesn't seem to have any particular virtues, and I believed I had incorrectly believed the love idea for a while. But no, for whatever reason the irrational feeling has returned. I can't label it anything else.

Even though I fully intend to avoid the person as she is toxic as hell. 

This kind of thing might be relevant to previous posts I have written that talk about two world colliding (Conflicts in World Views, applying lessons learned, October 27th). The Law of One and Stefan Molyneux. To the point that that emotion, that 'love' might be incorrect. The Law of One does offer some tools. That of balancing. As summarised in 'Reflections on love and balancing'. Or perhaps the entropy meditation as I have talked about in relation to session 46.9 and 104.2.

Or, it's just a thing I have to deal with. I have positive feelings for her, and by all accounts in relation to objective reality. She has nothing but negative feelings for me and she is a nag. It's just something I have to deal with.  

Law of One Session 34 reflection. Television.

A reflection on a Law of One quote. 

Questioner: I thought that that was correct, but I wasn’t sure. Can you give me the same type of information that we have been getting here with respect to the unmanifested self interacting between self and gadgets, toys, etc.— inventions?

Ra: I am Ra. In this particular instance we again concentrate for the most part in the orange and in the yellow energy centers. In a negative sense many of the gadgets among your peoples, that is what you call your communication devices and other distractions such as the less competitive games, may be seen to have the distortion of keeping the mind/body/spirit complex unactivated so that yellow- and orange-ray activity is much weakened thus carefully decreasing the possibility of eventual green-ray activation.

Others of your gadgets may be seen to be tools whereby the entity explores the capabilities of its physical or mental complexes and in some few cases, the spiritual complex, thus activating the orange ray in what you call your team sports and in other gadgets such as your modes of transport. These may be seen to be ways of investigating the feelings of power; more especially, power over others or a group power over another group of other-selves.

This is a scary prospect. Especially for someone that spends a lot of their time either on twitter, youtube, or watching some other form of entertainment. I have no friends and no money, partly because I am not working. 

It is annoying. The world for me is changing with having access to the gym now. But I am having to adapt myself to quite a situation of discomfort. Or lack of comfort might be another way to put it. I don't have a streaming service I go on. I'm wondering if boycotting television types of things. Like series of shows. Might improve my tendency to do the things I really want to do. Such as play music. 

It starts to feel upsetting and urgent sometimes. We only have this one life and even if it turns out that life is extended or something in the future. It still feels like time is so precious. Wasting it on TV, even though that is what I have been doing, feels so "bad". Since stopping alcohol and chocolate as well. I have not been able to enjoy said TV nearly so much. I used to be fine watching a few episodes of something with a beer or bar of chocolate. But without that I find it harder to get over the inconsistencies in the show. Parts that are unrealistic and such. Even when this is seemingly a more subconscious realisation. 

Obviously, if I had a job and needed to chill after that job it might be different. 

At the moment, I am off alcohol and caffeine. I intend to be off the permanently. I do think of them so I consider it discipline to stay off them. I am doing the gym, which might have a reflection on how much a masturbate. I seem to go longer and fantasize less when my energy is concerned with the gym. But also, coming off watching television even. All this might add up to real world change for me but also, periods of discomfort. It is usually hard to relax without being able to watch a series.  

Anyway, I'll see how it goes!  

Personal breakthrough: The power of the gym.

Due to health problems. This is one of the first times in a long while I have been able to reliably go to the gym. For a while I had stomach problems that stopped me going. At various times various other problems. But at the moment. I can usually get to the gym, do a session, and there is nothing stopping me. 

The power of the gym on my mental health has just been staggering. So much so that I am writing a blog only concerned with this. After a gym session I am often able to access emotions that I did not know I felt. As I have written about before. I am able to access things that I perceived that were perhaps a 'survival threat'. But are revealed with muscle release and testosterone increase. 

But I am thinking it is more than that now. Thinking it is more than simple things I didn't acknowledge through a subconscious fear. Ra Uru Hu once talked about the Projector in Human Design. He said that the Projector experiences blame and this blame gets layered. It would make sense to me that each type experiences 'layering' of the not self emotion, not just Projectors. Because every type has a fundamental not self emotion created by their true self type being mismanaged. When things go wrong, the other side of the positive energy is a negative energy. So that would have happened constantly and from very early on. Meaning it always gets layered. 

This is the kind of insights I have been getting. Things revealed that I got incredibly angry about. But which haven't been thought about for a long time. Some of these insights are very relevant to how the world works like. My last blog about 3i/Atlas ideally being alien contact was kind of answered. I can see a little bit more. I have more insight into unpleasant behaviours that people have that deserve the kind of situation we are in now. Not have it all sorted out. This is only possible with the rage of remembering unpleasant behaviours against me in the past. It is good, like the negative feeling serves a positive function of insight!

I am very tired though, even as I write this. This insight has come from a harder gym session than previously since I was annoyed (angry!) that I had missed one, due to unavoidable health issue.

The positive effects though, I feel it would be hard to even spell them all out here. But one of the insights I have had was just how messed up I was previously in my life. This makes a big impact on the world around me. On how I process my past.

I am reading, and really enjoying, the Lord of the Rings. I previously read this when I was not particularly well. When I read it previously, I stopped because it was just incredibly dark. I got to the point where Frodo is walking through the second forest with the Elves and I just felt it was bad.

Now I read it though, and it is not even slightly dark! The reason it is not dark is that there is so much love in the set up. There is so much love with the hobbits and the relationship of the four friends. I am really in a positive place with this book and I think it is where Tolkien shines. He has set up an incredibly loving thing for us to invest in before he introduces the danger. A lot of sci fi doesn't really do that. They just lightly introduce the characters then get on with the plot. But... Something needs to be threatened! Courage needs to be shown. 

The difference in my memory from now to when I previously read it is so stark that I realise that I was more unwell mentally than I ever realised. This brings in a lot of additional and powerfully relevant insights. I cannot remember hardly a single thing that I am now reading. Not one thing. The memories I do have are inaccurate of this book. 

Anyway, that's it for the moment. I believe that doing the gym regularly from now on. If I am able to. If there is no more problem. Will be a hugely positive thing in my life and it is something that I really want.  

The petition for 3i/ Atlas to be the real deal.

Many people in the new age say things like. "We are the ones we have been waiting for" and "No one is going to save us". I want to push back on this. In this blog I am going to put a theoretical model forward that the actually correct thing to happen in this society from this point forward is to have some sort of mass alien event or something. To do this, I will summarise how I think the world really is, what is really going on at the moment politically. During this I will go full Q-tard. About 1/4th David Wilcock. 

Firstly, my paradigm is... in truth kind of descended from my supernatural experiences as a child. But in a more explainable way, it is based very strongly on the Law of One. 

There are some beliefs that come from the Law of One. From Session 8 we are told that our society has at its disposal. All the means to heal each and every situation that afflicts us. Poverty, illness (all illness) and hunger. We also have as a basis that there are very powerful positive and negative extra terrestrials that interact with us. We also have that there is a path of 'satanism'. A legitimate spiritual path in that direction. Of pure evil basically. That some on this earth practice. 

There are more things like this talked about. From the real world I have also learned a few things. Some thing about the negative. That all the weird nasty torturous things to children and stuff that people affiliated with Q say that negative groups are doing. That is real. But also, there is an entirely other weirder layer. 

One place where this shows is that every single celebrity. Like, all of them. Every single one. Keanu Reeves, Ed Norton, Brad Pitt, Russell Crowe, Jennifers of various descriptions. Lawrence, Aniston Garner, Love- Hewitt. Just all celebrities... Are transgender. Bob Dylan, Bill Gates, Alexandra Occasio Cortez, Hillary Clinton. 

This took, even me, even having held most of these beliefs since being a teenager. A long time to accept. There was a woman called Michelle XYZ who talked about this on youtube. I used to watch a video every day, she had about 200 or more. I think I watched every single one. Because I just couldn't convince myself, on the deeper level, it was true. It is... literally. So bizarre. 

This from someone comfortable with these beliefs. That is the main thrust of my argument. I will need to explain more though. 

According to Q, according to the hints they drop, and according to many in that communities understanding. We are kind of watching a bit of a 'show' of sorts. Behind the scenes, deep behind the scenes. The positive military has won out against the negative groups and dismissed a large amount of the worst people. They are now setting up a convincing story for the main population. That remains permanently asleep to these things.

While I imagine there are pockets of real bad guys still. They are middle management. Not the top truly evil types. They might not know this and the truly evil ones like to be super mysterious about giving orders in my understanding. So the ruse is pretty easy. 

But anyway, all the events we see are things happening to slowly show the population the mildest of what has been really going on. Since, I'm sure a lot weirder and unpleasant stuff has happened than transexual celebrities. There is a lot that would even shock me I imagine. 

So that's where we are now. We are in a place where we need to transition from a situation where pretty much nothing is really understood by the main population. To a society where the basics are all understood. Perhaps not the true depth of malevolence. But things such as there are extra terrestrial races. There is a negative path.

Part of what has been going on since the lockdowns might have been to wake people up as much as they can be. But I don't know that that is still happening. Out of the normie population. Boomers that watch the BBC every day as an example. Young women at University. The most brainwashed. There is NO understanding of this information. No understanding of this world view. Non, zilch, nada. 

The numbers of people awake to this at all is very low comparatively I think. Even of those that are awake, a lot of them not massively so.  

I imagine the way the shift might go is simply free market innovation slowly changing things. Such as Elons Optimus robots improving society. A literal surgeon in every house. That will also clean your floor. 

But that amount of stuff that needs to be done to awaken people to these realities might take... DECADES. Which is why if 3i/ Atlas were the real deal. We could jumpstart that process. Give the normies a bit of a shock with a first contact of aliens. And use that opportunity to jumpstart the whole process. Say they were benevolent aliens and could give people positive experiences. So the shock would not be too bad. Then just allow this whole paradigm to unfold quickly, but with the knowledge that there are 'benevolent' aliens helping us! 

I don't feel that some of the suffering happening at the moment. Poverty, increased poverty due to inflation and everything being dysfunctional. Bad health services. Jobs being very confused. No jobs. Massive crime. I don't know that this has a function. Of course I wouldn't. But it would seem a positive thing to me to sort these situations out in society and assume that whatever spiritual lessons those 'catalyst' were teaching. That people have had enough of it now and if they were going to change, they would have done so already.  

Reflections on lust and balancing.

In a way, I realise I am a kind of fundamentalist. Just not for mainstream Christianity. But for the Law of One. 

I don't really know what 'fundamentalist' means in this instance. But, a lot of the time, reading the Law of One, re- reading the Law of One. Seems to answer a question that I have at the time. Like, Christians say that all the answers are in this book, and hold up the bible. I feel that same way about the Law of One. 

So here's what I am thinking. There are two things. The second, the Law of One quote from session 34, of which I fully intended to write here. The first, the rest of the post, is something that has been turning over in my head from different perspectives for a long time.  

I will be honest about this even though any rational calculation would warn against it. This blog will be about handling feelings as a guy of that kind of lust for women. But moreso, more importantly, a kind of feeling that they are an aristocratic, untouchable, class. 

Two blogs ago I talked about this and I posted on that blog an image from twitter of a girl with her breasts out as an example. 

I have seen girls like that before and stopped thinking about them. It was not a compulsion for me to carry on thinking about her. But when I meditated, she did come up, and I wanted to in some way handle the situation and feelings with metaphysical tools. I wanted to finish with the energy rather than rehash it in my mind or suppress it. 

First thing I tried was seeing her 'as the One Infinite Creator'. I do this with everyone I have trouble with. This did not do much in terms of insight, but I did feel like it switched me on. Intuitively I felt more connected. 

But then I did the perfect thing for the 'balancing' of such emotions. As talked about by the Law of One (session 5!). As I have mentioned with other situations in my life. Doing a contemplation that involves two sides of an emotion. The emotion and its opposite. 

Which was VERY insightful. Before when I did it it was in relation to someone I know in real life. A family member. This was completely different emotions though, because it is someone I don't know at all. The first thing I did was incredibly idealise and 'love' this woman. The second thing I did, was the opposite of that emotion. It was to, as best I could, demonise the girl as 'trash' in my mind. To escalate the opposite emotion. 

I found that the results of this exercise was counter intuitive. The escalation of the loving emotions lead to a kind of manipulative simpiness. I realised the 'love' was not unconditional. It kind of expected something in return. It is a shame I can't remember that in greater detail. 

The escalation of the anger and condescension lead to an examination of the girls likely behaviours. "She probably has a hundred men in her DM's" and all sorts of thoughts about her carnal side, like, the carnality that she expresses from herself, not me towards her. Based on other similar girls I have actually talked to. But this then lead to an easy going and accepting... "Of course she doesn't want to talk to me and would be suspicious of me!" 

I would say that is a win. There is a little more contemplation on this, but now I am not interested in her. The emotion/ fascination seems to have been genuinely released. I think the exercise is effective.

What was interesting, and what leads in a far darker direction is that I did actually comment on her page. I looked for something interesting I could say and found a comment on music, what chords are interesting, and suggested an unusual and nice sounding chord that I have liked using. Then I liked one other of her tweets. 

She said something king of condescending and deleted it. Then she pinned the tweet I liked to the top of her twitter (and did not respond when I went back and commented on that one. I deleted them both after that). But interestingly, after the tweet response to her chords question, I got a strong, left ear ringing. Which from the Law of One tends to be a signal from the negative (session 44 or 45!). I have only experienced it three times in the left ear, in a really strong way, this is one of them, and each time from a woman. I have never experienced it from a man. I have only experienced the right ear in a really strong way, like sound completely hollows out and just a loud ringing. With a book I picked up. I have experienced low intensity of the same thing, both ears, many many more times, but those are harder to remember. 

Going around town today, getting on with my normal stuff. I do not think that women in general are more negatively polarised than men. I went in a shop today and two young girls were polite. Just polite, that's all I'm looking for. Not sheet ripping sex. In person though, I am kind of dorky and harmless, and I look quite good facially. Perhaps as a semi anonymous twitter poster it is not the same. 

I have wondered a little recently, on a global level, at the polarity of women in general. There are so many workplaces I have gone into where the men have been nice and sympathetic, and the women have been nothing but nasty. Gossiping. Socially excluding etc. It has got to the point where assuming positive polarity on their behalfs is less wise in general to my perception.  

But now, to the Law of One quote that actually 'squares all the circles' so to speak. It's the kind of thing you can read but only when you re- read the entire book and it hits the right note does it land:

Questioner: Thank you. Can you give me examples of catalytic action to produce learning under each of the following headings from the last session we had… Can you give me an example of the self unmanifested producing learning catalyst?

Ra: I am Ra. We observed your interest in the catalyst of pain. This experience is most common among your entities. The pain may be of the physical complex. More often it is of the mental and emotional complex. In some few cases the pain is spiritual in complex-nature. This creates a potential for learning. The lessons to be learned vary. Almost always these lessons include patience, tolerance, and the ability for the light touch.

Very often the catalyst for emotional pain, whether it be the death of the physical complex of one other-self which is loved or some other seeming loss, will simply result in the opposite, in a bitterness, an impatience, a souring. This is catalyst which has gone awry. In these cases, then, there will be additional catalyst provided to offer the unmanifested self further opportunities for discovering the self as all-sufficient Creator containing all that there is and full of joy.

This is a hard line to hold but it sets the direction. It answers a question that I have had for a while about what to do with those emotions and feelings. The lack of female company/ young women/ potential partners in general, and sex as a part of that. Is causing an emotional pain.

But this is the direction. To discover the self as all sufficient Creator containing all that there is and full of joy. 

As I have said before, thinking through what that actually means, that we are all the Creator. Is not something I believe I can easily explain. But perhaps, if I were to write an erotic story with women in it, I am able to quite well approximate that female sweet energy. When I have read it back, I have been surprised. I can imagine myself as a young woman. 

We are all things. So I am the both the nicest and most vicious person. Ruthless and sensitive. Strong and weak. Contain all those polarities. Every women I know, no matter how prim and proper, also has both those polarities.  

The point is though that the direction is to be legitimately happy in my life without female company of that kind. To be self sufficient and full of joy. This brings huge insight and a potential solution to the problem.