Alcohol. Lustful thoughts.

So I need to correct something I said yesterday. I said that I had come off caffeine but was fine with alcohol. No that's stupid. Especially with weight loss. I am not the kind of person that can casually engage with something. In my head, if there is a rule then it is a rule. Alcohol is in the on position or in the off position. I thought that I should be having wine on Sundays with a kind of make shift communion I do (Since the bible and Jesus said wine, and I started to get tired of grape juice). So if I'm having wine, then all other alcohol is fine. 

This, is not correct, I have decided. I have had four beers and my sleep pattern is a bit messed up at the moment. As in, I stayed up all night. But on balance I have to stop the beer and the wine. I have to just stop alcohol, so will be fully doing session 32.1 now, or at least the bit about the not having harsh chemicals. The appreciation bit following isn't massively relevant at the moment. 

This last section of having drunk is ending on a sour note, It did not get me drunk at all. I wasn't aware that it had any effect consciously. But my temper is just a bit frayed in a bad way. I realise, as my health increases, I will gravitate to handling things of more pressure, and my emotions will tend to become more coherent with clarity. Not having alcohol massively reduces the possibility that I will be unbalanced like I am at the moment, with the chemical also generally disturbing my balance. 

Anyway, this is another thing that has struck me. Another thing that has rolled into the recent self improvement thoughts I have been expressing:

This girl has become more well known by the algorithm for posting that she voted for the Muslim Democrat candidate in New York. After statistics based on that, how many young women voted Democrat in that election. We had, what I think, was an expression from Sun in gate 1 and Uranus in gate 8. That was, that there was suddenly a discussion on twitter about whether women should (be allowed to) vote. 

I am getting to a point here. 

About a week ago, the algorithm, for some reason, decided to show me the most stupid female posts on X that I have ever seen. I started bookmarking them and they were absolute poison. Feminist leaning. This casual bookmarking activity became many. Far more than I would have been able to use for a blog I was creating in my head. 

Anyway, I didn't write that blog. The time had passed for when I was likely to write it. So when I went through my bookmarks I deleted them all. But just now I found a tweet. It wasn't a truly stupid one. But it was one that I think demonstrates a part of the problem:

The problem here is that this is a nothing comment. What impact on any actual reality does it make that this woman thinks anyone should behave in any precise way. Let alone, being able to order what would be basically the entirety of creation. 

Are there any practical barriers to this womans stated ideal agenda? Are there people living in poverty? Or those that have to dampen their ideals in order to find a viable partner and not waste their time shooting out of their league?

There are a lot of very interesting tweets from women. I just logged on to X now and they were coincidentally fire. But, there are times when the same brain numbing opinions are expressed over and over again. When women argue against some red pill points. It doesn't matter how many times the womens simplistic viewpoints are disproved. They just repeat them without changing anything. 

What I am coming to, the emotional nub of the situation for me is this. The attractive nature of the first pic was highlighted for a reason. It feels to me, and it is, I think, practically. That a woman like that, and from the way a lot of women have treated me. Seemingly most women of that kind of age and attractiveness (going right back to when I was about that age). Have such a higher status than me that they might as well be royalty. 

It's just something to think about. Something to consider. I do not have a job at the moment and I have not progressed in a career as I should have as a guy my age, due to health reasons. Even if I was to socialise with women and possibly cold approach. When the girl asks something like 'what do you do?' I can already feel myself sink inwardly.  If I was to approach a girl that was drastically less attractive than that for whatever reason she was less attractive, including age. She would still expect me to have that kind of thing together. Often older women have this idea they are going to meet the perfect provider like guy, like happens in the movies. 

It is just something to generally consider. But also something I have been realising. Is that I never quite know what to do with that 'desire' within myself. Since it does not have an outlet in the world. I suppose, I am going to the gym, and I hope to have the kind of body that provides women with the excitement that a guy gets from looking at the photo above. 

One of the avenues of thought I have considered in the past, is that if I get an image like that. I bookmark it or save it and return to it. To appreciate the beauty and perhaps to create fictional stories of an erotic nature. To stimulate imagination about who the woman 'might' be ideally!

But, I think, it is way more positive to not do so. To delete all those bookmarks. The ultimate truth for a guy on one of these kinds of places like X. Is that you feel positively towards her. But she does not feel positively towards you. Because she has a billion other men telling her all that. I'm not even telling her all that. 

It is part of the issue that creates this feel of women like that, and in general, as inaccessible, and with a 'royalty' like aura. 

The ultimate truth it appears to me, of what to do in a positively polarised sense, with those kind of desires and thoughts. Is just to ignore them. OK, there is a hot girl. Scroll past. Because the hot girl, doesn't acknowledge my existence. She doesn't care that I exist. And that instinct I am getting to engage with her is not suited to the modern internet age.  

Another odds and ends post.

I don't know if the reader has been following some things I have generally discussed on here. Personal updates. But at the moment, it is all coming together well for me here. Thus I wanted to do an odds and ends post. Talk about things I generally think are interesting and would want to talk about, but since I am in a bit of a "transition" place in my life at the moment, have not put in the full energy to make a post about said subject separately. 

I said that I had a medical issue, an ongoing medical issue, that was making my life difficult and that I was trying to treat with diet. Namely, I was trying to treat myself with chocolate/ caffeine, that stimulated my digestive system. I was hoping that improving my diet in concert with this was going to work. 

HOWEVER, since my eye issue, I have discovered that using the medication for this stomach issue is far better. Due in part to overwhelm. Once I stopped having the chocolate, I realised the chocolate was also causing the problem. Meaning, coming off chocolate completely has solved said problem. My digestion is now OK without the addition of caffeine. 

This means, without this digestion problem, and with the added tool of medication if I need it. I can go to the gym. Oh my god I love the gym, and health problems that I have had in this life has often stopped me going. But it is not stopping me going anymore. 

With that addition. I can also change my diet. Since I have a bit of hope I can lose weight. Before I go to any complex formulas like calorie counting I am doing the basics. Cut out cakes and crisps, decaf, gluten free oatmilk lattes. My high when I started weight loss was 87.7kg. My target is 75 kg. My success, when I first started getting into weight loss was 81kg. My baseline when no real effort was given was 84kg. And my current is 86kg.   

But, I have not been able to really have a good go at it without being able to do regular gym and I am hoping I can continue gym every other day for a month or longer. 

This was all, I'm sure not that interesting personal updates. But it all has an impact on the kind of thing I talk about here. I fundamentally talk about using these different spiritual tools. Meditation, dream interpretation, the Law of One, the Human Design and others, for personal growth. 

Benefit of the gym.

The gym is fitting into my personal understanding of these things. Of the great path that we all travel to some extent as I understand it. What I have noticed previously is doing exercise, going to the gym, has allowed me to look at the negative things in my life that were previously hidden. 

The way these highly homogenised new age spirituality tends to look at things is that it assumes the person reading is in the place of general negative thinking. Then it tries to counsel things such as positive thinking or visualisation. 

For me, this is not the way to moving forward, to 'evolution' so to speak. For me, my default is kind of positive. My baseline is an incredibly positive state to the extent that I like to, (when I remember to!) Go on one youtube per day on the topic of 'narcissism'. Simply because, I am so reliably conditioned away from any kind of negative thinking, I need these reminders. 

I will give an example from a while back to illustrate this. When I left my last job, I did not think about it much, there was just a bunch of stuff that happened. However, after a good gym session, I realised that someone, a manager from another team, had sat next to me and listened to everything I was doing, in order to cast my behaviours in the most negative light. (Often offering to help but always taking the most negative interpretation of my actions.)

My manager at the time had my back. But I had not noticed this until I had gone to the gym. Several years after I had left. I figure it is something to do with not feeling like you can take on the confrontation. Me subconsciously calculating that I could not stand up to the group. But once I went to the gym and exercised that anxiety out, that insight was suddenly revealed to me.

This happens a lot. It feels like it could be an entire process. When I am wondering about some bad thing that happened. For instance, a friend of mine committed suicide a few years ago. To see the real negativity involved takes this level of exercise. 

Another thing that happens is just generally wanting to see people in a positive light. Perhaps because they are sweet in some way. A lot of young, attractive, women have this general protection that exists in the minds of people in general.

I suspect, that there are layers to this. An insight that leads to a general insight that certain people did not like me, on the following gym session might lead to an even deeper insight in this regard. So this is a powerful aid to the "great work" as the Law of One called it. 

One ring to rule them all. 

I am reading Lord of the Rings. Thinking through what the ring could symbolise. It is an interesting book to read and I had quite a lot of "synchronicity" so to speak, to get me there. 

Not much to say here. Stefan Molyneux said in his last podcast on this with Duke Pesta, that the ring might be propaganda and I might eventually agree with that. 

I have been thinking it could be a few different things though. It is made of pure gold as one. That could represent the corruption possible through wealth. When the ability to create value, takes that wealth and turns it to corruption making a person very hard to oppose. 

It is also a 'hole', a ring. Which could represent female reproductive organs. Also it is what is worn on the finger in marriage. This could mean the incredible power that women have when casual sex is a possibility. 

They pretty much run everything. Between money and that kind of female power that also relates to marriage, that is a lot. 

But my ideas on it are not yet complete. If I do finally decide on something it has to fit with every little detail about the ring. The fact it turns people invisible. The fact that it talks to people 'in their own voice' and tells them they will be the first ones to use the rings power for good. The fact that it takes the user into a different dimension of sorts. The fact that it allows you to understand languages you didn't previously understand when you are there. But importantly, the reason Tom Bombadil, Faramir, and to an extent Sam, were immune to the ring. As well as the Elves rings not being corrupted.

General Law of One thoughts. 

My big issue a while back was not being able to come off caffeine hence not being able to do session 32.1. This has changed now. I do drink alcohol. But not that often, and definitely even less when it might interfere with my gym session. But chocolate was always something that screwed me up quite bad. Screwed me up in a mental way and stops me sleeping after a while. I am very glad I have come off it. 

I had tried to follow Jades ideas previously, and had come away from it. Feeling that if I did affirmations to the Creator while tidying it was kind of maddening. I found another solution. After the gym I can just get on with tidying with no problem. I just feel good and hence 'just do it'. 

Healing:

I have mentioned my many attempts and issues with energy healing. Feeling previously that when I did it I felt like I was kind of 'dying inside'. I feel that not masturbating, the male sex drive, offers an alternative to this. I.e. even if I am healing if I have that energy there I will still feel alive. 

It is not healthy to not masturbate. I did manage 13 days. But it is not something that I've ever been able to do. It is also possibly not healthy. At the moment, as long as I have not masturbated for three days I will consider doing energy healing and I prioritise meditation in a big way. Because, spiritual teachings is very primary for me I believe on a deeper level. Way moreso than healing.  

The Human Design:

I have been following the transits recently. I had distinct experiences and perceptions that related to the 44-24, the 1-2, with the 1-8 channel being defined through Uranus, and the 43-23. These were big noticeable changes. But I am also at the end of this blog so I won't go into them now.  

Q stuff. 

A few interesting Q posts and other interesting things recently. What I also want to follow up on is reflections on the emotional implications on such big changes in our lives coming. I have had dreams specifically to this. Is it that all is forgiven because the world will transition so strongly? Or is it that we have the right to our feelings and it is good to hold people accountable to their previous behaviour? 

Conclusion.

As I said previously, I am so happy recently that it is becoming less obvious to me why I would blog at all. Not that blogging is bad at all. But these, and more, are some of the things going through my mind at the moment.  

I do imagine over the long term as well, things like consistent exercise will change my personality at what seems like a very core level. But we will have to wait and see. Perhaps this change would lead to a different output.  

The eye of the beholder.

I wrote a previous post saying that I would not be blogging anymore. It didn't take. The thoughts in my mind came together and simply demanded expression. 

What were those thoughts? Well, they seemed powerful at the time. I remember them just. But I also feel they are less important now.

I talked about a youtube series on the Law of One here previously. One the basis of that I started doing a kind of chant when I was tidying/ cleaning etc. I started saying things like 'As I tidy this up, I am honouring the One Infinite Creator'. 

It was not me. It required a lot of energy and just seemed a bit mad to me even though it was talked about in the Law of One. It had started to work. I had started to look forward to that period in my day as a legitimate spiritual practice. 

But, it also became something that was weird and I didn't like. A kind of 'repulsion of the magnet' so to speak. I prefer to just tidy my space from the perspective of just practically doing it. Not creating a ritual around it.

It made me think about something from a new perspective. I checked out that youtube channel with its spiritual teachings because it was there and I am always looking for ways to kind of move forward. I found it to be interesting partly because the woman reading it had a lot of perspectives on it. That she read it and emphasized parts of the text that I just skim over. Sort of how two people might watch the same movie and one remembers the action and another remembers the character development. 

But perhaps, that's not the point? Perhaps the additional knowledge is not useful to me and perhaps, everyone that reads the Law of One interprets it in their own way and... That's the point?

For me, I would skim over normally the parts like 'make a ritual of your tidying'. Because it is not relevant to me? 

This is what I am going with at the moment. It makes sense.  

An exploration of left wing types of people.

I am definitely questioning the value of blogging and making youtube videos. In my most recent medical issue, to recover from the shock. I have been listening to a lot of music. I have been low on energy and soberly reflecting on life. 

I have been motivated to continue my youtube for about three reasons: 1) The Law of One quote; 'Forget you the counting'. In relation to this 2) The fact that the Law of One group themselves started off in obscurity. Just recording the sessions. Only later was this published in a book 3) The fact that I have the free time and can do this stuff as a hobby. Also, to settle things like boredom and loneliness. 

But, I have to imagine there is a limit to this. I have to imagine that at some point the market. One of the fairly objective measures of value. Has valued my output as too low for me to practically justify continuing. 

Another set of thoughts I have though, that kind of indirectly relates. Is the intersection and reflection on two elements. 1) That the world and everyone I am surrounded with, even digitally, is very left wing and has a very determined dislike of me based on only that; and 2) That it looks like to me, that some sort of Q thing is about to happen. 

The tactic of the left of claiming victimhood and then doing all sorts of criminal things under that cover is actually meeting some consequence lately it seems to me. I thought SNAP being cancelled in America would never take. In my life so far on this earth, the people that vociferously claim victimhood, and no doubt a small percentage of those are legitimate victims. Have never had something just cancelled like this in the Western world. 

I think, on a global level. This power dynamic shift is pretty significant. It's like knowing someone that falsely claims some sort of illness your whole life and then a couple of your friends suddenly stop enabling this person. 

It suggests, that the common left wing bias of the normies in society is starting to meet friction. Even though these people are unchanging. They go on twitter/ reddit and wherever every day with the most incorrect takes but refuse to hear anything else. They just repeat them the next day. But while they have been doing that, the ground underneath their feet has been shifting. I know the difference between 2019 Trump and this Trump. I know that John Bolton has been arrested and the significance of US- Aid. But these people do not. 

I have had a lot of people in my life. A LOT. Articulate a lot of unpleasantness towards me for other than left wing views. I mentioned that a girl I had known had killed herself and she didn't like my non left wing views. She disliked them so much in fact that she kind of moved very hard towards friendships with people (family even!) with left wing views that did not like me. I was her strongest supporter though. I knew how to keep her in a mentally good place. This choice from her was not a good one from my perception. 

The consequences for people engaging in left wing habits/ friendships/ thoughts can be STEEP. These consequences do not seem to motivate change. 

It has been the revealed motivation I think behind a lot of bullying. I was even talking to someone on reddit the other day that was being extremely friendly until he realised I was not the person he thought he was talking to. He thought I was someone else he was talking with. It was interesting. Because for a few minutes I felt the normal connection that he would reserve for left wing people. He stopped completely talking to me when he realised who I am. Didn't even finish off the conversation. I had been very polite talking to him since it was a novelty talking to someone not sullen and hostile over reddit. 

I wonder how many interactions like that have been so motivated? How many people that WOULD have been nice and normal and pleasant; but chose not to for this reason. It is a very invisible thing. 

I do directly interact with left wing people and tell them they are wrong. Which I did on reddit recently. It usually starts with something pretty nondescript. Like this is the purely factual thing that I think relates to what someone posted. Just the facts. No emotion. No anything. 

But then I am met with just an unbelievably stupid response. It's because left wing people have all these delusions. Reddit is a place of a kind of agreed mass delusion. You state reality, that I wouldn't predict could be easily be denied and then they're like "No, this thing which is completely ridiculous and makes no sense is reality." Then I'm like... Wait what? No, this is why that's crazy. Do I ask questions about their worldview?

I will show what I mean in relation to the SNAP conversation. They say a federal judge agreed that SNAP benefits should be paid. I said that I saw a Trump truth social that said that he believed it could not be done legally and so had written to the court to ask them how it could be done legally. 

So what Trump is saying is that it can't be done legally basically. They didn't like this and they said to me. On top of quite a few comments like 'YoU sRe StUpId". Not much more than that and I find the left genuinely think the conversation can move on from a point they don't like upon that put down. They said that of course it can be done legally. It's just the way it generally happens in government. 

So many problems with this but the biggest one is it is a position of pure arrogance. Donald Trumps opposition is not small. It is well funded. He has been targeted by lawfare many times. If there was such an easy response to Trumps query, then the court would say so. They would also leak it to the media if they were ignored. It would be an absolute propaganda win for the Democrats. 

At the moment the left is going with 'A judge has ordered Trump to pay SNAP so he has to pay it'. In typical left wing fashion they haven't been acknowledging any nuance.  

The larger point is that the people that are engaged at this level of judiciary and politics are high IQ, the effective ones, and have decades of experience. There are MANY of these people. Highly paid. Highly connected. The general knowledge of a redditor is... just that.

But there are loads of redditors and left wing people in general, and they all uniformly seem to believe this. That their opinion, which I don't know where it comes from. Has some sort of seniority over what all these very capable people have put together. 

There have been rumblings of a Q nature. Some that are more interesting than I have heard thus far. If it were to happen that events did work out to shrink the left and put power in a more productive configuration. Meritocracy and a lot more right wing people. The disproving of the COVID narrative. I wonder if my life would improve and I would be somewhat vindicated at this time. If that were the case. The sacrifice of all friendships and most socialising, and even of a lot of other benefits. I would hope the positive change would be proportionate to that.

And no, I don't believe in forgiveness for these people. A lot of them have spent decades bullying everyone in their lives that falls out of conformation with left wing beliefs. Their first motivation. That of the leftist... Envy. With any luck it will be the hell they live in when meritocracy is restored and they are left to contemplate their own... infinite... mediocrity. Because who else but a mediocre person would believe those things?  

Law of One healing quote.

A short one here. No larger context just a thought:

From session 5.2:

To begin to master the concept of mental discipline it is necessary to examine the self. The polarity of your dimension must be internalized. Where you find patience within your mind you must consciously find the corresponding impatience and vice versa. Each thought that a being has, has in its turn an antithesis. The disciplines of the mind involve, first of all, identifying both those things of which you approve and those things of which you disapprove within yourself, and then balancing each and every positive and negative charge with its equal. The mind contains all things. Therefore, you must discover this completeness within yourself.

This is an interesting quote. I never had any particular success with it previously which was likely due to, because of medical reasons, I was always in fight or flight and didn't have any particular emotional depth.

However, it is something I am looking at now. It strikes me it might have some relevance to interpersonal dynamics that relate to manipulation. If you have someone in your life. You have a part of you that desires excessively to gain favour, codependent, loving etc. and another side which is cold as hell.

This is interesting because the part that wishes to gain favour, if you are not aware of it, it will tend to motivate you behind the scenes. Then obviously, the other side is something we would not tend to be aware of if we are stuck in the more compassionate side. 

Anyway, if this process genuinely got changed emotions that would be pretty amazing. 

But I'll leave it there for the moment. It's early days.   

Gate 51 and Trauma.

In the human design, one of the most spiritual channels is the channel of 'initiation'. The 51 - 25. With the hexagram for shock, in the gate 51. Which is both upper and lower trigram as thunder. Linking to the gate 25. Which, in my understanding, from my putting together of things. Is solely responsible for 'The Fool' archetype from the major arcana. 

So shock gives way to basic innocence/ spontaneity and truth. 

It is an interesting thing that brings a few questions. It was one of the channels that lead to Ra Uru Hu's expression. Through both the 51- 25 to the G- self then the 10 - 20 to the throat:

 

It is also in my own chart. I have the 51.1 twice in my design/ unconscious. Which links to the 25.6. So I have closely worked with this channel. I had a friend commit suicide when both Mars and Chiron were sitting on the gate 51.1. Chiron exactly and Mars was two days out. 

It... starts to bring some sort of understanding about how negative experiences can aid a person spiritually. What was Ra Uru Hu's expression? Well, Ra Uru Hu had an unbelievably intense, what I think of as extra terrestrial experience, which lead him to create the Human Design Chart. Of course, this became the basis for his expression. The gate 51 and the shock of that was a big part of this for him. 

Ra talked about, in one of his books, that he had met someone else that had started talking about human design similar concepts. Who had not been able to receive the information, and was now in a mental hospital unable to feed himself. Ra explained that this was due to his moon having gate 51.1. In that he was able to absorb the shock of these experiences. Whereas not everyone is. 

This is a basic understanding and theory that could go in a few different directions. But, my point is that I feel I am in this state right now. I was terrified when my eye hurt a great deal and I had to wait for it to get better and I am still psychologically unwell in a sense. I am not playing music. Not being able to play music is a novel experience for me. Not feeling it. I am not meditating or praying right at this moment. 

But I am still getting insights at the moment. I wonder if it is through this process. That this was initiatory in a sense. I am having insights about new ways of looking at the world that feels like it is putting together some puzzle pieces that are the results of months, even years of insights.

Those are not for this specific blog, maybe for other entries these insights will feature. But it was just a bit of a thought on gate 51 and such.

 

Here is my chart. You might notice that it is similar to Ra Uru Hu's. But it is the same in a very powerful way. The initiation channel of gate 51 - 25 leads up to the G- Self. But the G- self doesn't reach up to the throat.

I have written quite a bit about this due to believing that some of my 'not self' conditioning was to artificially create a G- self connection to the throat. That is too complicated to go into. But the point is, the 51- 25 is a projected channel in me. It was a manifested channel in Ra Uru Hu. 

Yet again I have summarised something that I can't fully explain. But it is important.  

Conflicts in world views. Applying the lessons learnt.

This is both a blog I am writing from a place of psychological exhaustion; and also one that is potentially more meaningful than a lot I have written. It is probably going to be LONG. It concerns a deep misgiving I have about following Stefan Molyneux's work. One that I haven't really wanted to voice because, I think, if I had my own way, I would probably be following it. But, I believe that the paradigm I have from the Law of One and Human Design Chart is not compatible with a lot of his work. Some of it is fine. But there comes a point where objectivism is not compatible with the more mysterious and mystical concepts of the Law of One.

First, here is one of the many tarot type cards I am working on. Since LLM's, I have tools to create these images. They are almost always dream images. Sometimes with some modification to show something of my understanding or something that the LLM's wouldn't draw:

The prompt for this image was a dream image that was far more of a car coming through a portal. But the LLM drew this and I like it. It is a little less obvious than normal but the point is. When two worlds collide. Sometimes no real good can come from it. If this were to really happen. If cars turned up from another dimension through a kind of water portal and appeared on a highway. No good would come from this. People would crash. People would not recover, and might not have any way to process this experience. 

Laying it out. 

These are many areas Stefans work conflicts with my own so far understandings. There is both the initial disagreement. Something I don't agree with him on. But, his philosophy, his worldview is deeply objective and rational and it is built like a mental fortress. As he says, matter has stable and predictable properties so we can draw conclusions from that. So his view is that you take the basics of life, what philosophers call "first principles"; and draw conclusions, and he concludes that the reason for life is to live a virtuous life. Even though he is steadily, fastidiously, atheistic in a sense. 

The trouble is that when you believe in the Law of One and a few other things. Some of these basic premises are different. The Law of One, and the Human Design Chart, are partly faith based. These are partly subjective experiences people have that lead to belief. Especially the human design chart. I have marvelled often at the accuracy of human design transits. I recall specifically having an insight over the gate 54. But these things, though real to a lot of people, remain steadily unprovable in any objective way.

There are in fact some small scientific proofs that Ra Uru Hu brought up but these are small things. 

For this reason, I would say that a lot of these things are based on faith and how would I define faith? Faith is information that is not falsifiable. It is not scientific and is usually only experienced in a subjective manner. However, these things are very real to a lot of people. 

If you believe in the Law of One you believe in visualisation.

If you believe in the Law of One you believe in crystals. 

If you believe in the Law of One and new age paradigms in general, you believe in astrology. 

If you believe in the Law of One you believe in 'the One Infinite Creator'. 

Premises such as these, and others, starts a person off on a different footing than you start off with from Stefans philosophy based perspective. Also, this can also reach up into everyday life experiences and virtue.

The larger plan. The Q perspective.

One of the things Stefan talks about, and that I think has a lot of merit and I have used in my real life. Is the idea that people on the left wing side of politics are lacking in virtue. It is a good, well worked out, highly intelligent perspective. It is based roughly on the idea that taxation is the initiation of force and that no good can come from the initiation of force. Which, on a deep level. Is an argument about free will. Once violence starts negotiation stops. Once an organisation has money given to them via taxation. They do not have to negotiate with the customer. 

This does follow into the real world. Bear in mind I am not agreeing or disagreeing with this perspective, just laying it out. But it follows on from that argument that keeping people out of your life who do not have a commitment to virtue. To freedom in a sense. Freedom from the initiation of force, the national debt, and state power. Is necessary. Not only because they would not reason in a particularly moral way. But also because they will continue to vote for these same kinds of policies. The expansion of state power and such. That ostracising them from your life, especially as a group, will go some measure towards influencing them to come away from those ideas. 

It is a good argument. Not one I agree with or disagree with as I have said. But two points I will mention. One is that I have in fact used this argument against people. I have used it when people show a lack of any particular moral backbone. I will say to them things like 'What are the abstract values that you commit to?' Because if you are having a conflict with someone and you don't want their behaviour to be repeated. You need an abstract value that they prioritise beyond their emotional preference that you can appeal to. This is devastatingly effective against those that subtly take a centre - left position and sit happily in the moral highground while treating you with disrespect. 

Secondly though, just on a personal level. I have a huge misgiving about trying to effect others or tell them how to behave. This is doing so. It is not logical perhaps. Perhaps it is my own issue. Perhaps we need to do so to some extent. But when it comes to me applying influence to others I simply recoil. I deeply want people to play out their lives in accord with their own free will. Away from me if necessary. But I don't want to engage in the emotional conversation. 

Now to the Q posts. 

Be that as it may we need to bring in another thing here. The Q posts. Q came on the scene in 2017 and is a feature of the most far out conspiracy community you can find. Even though it has gained popularity. The premise is still very obscure. 

The idea behind the Q posts is that a government insider of some sort, associated with the Trump administration. Has been dropping a lot of coded hints of how things are going down. That they have become dominant behind the scenes. That the real world is far more fantastic than most of us can imagine, that advanced technology is concealed behind top secret clearances. And after some truly negative beings have been jettisoned from the world. We will live in an amazing, better than Star Trek future. 

Notably, this perspective aligns very much with a lot of the Law of One. There is even a hint of a link in reference to session 17.17. 17, the alphanumeric number for Q, is thought to be used as a big part of the code in this community. 

I will summarise something Jordan Sather said when talking about Q. 17 days before the 17th anniversary of September 11th. No name - As he was called in the media and was referenced in the Q posts. Due to Trump using his bill and taking his name off of it. John McCain died. There were other Q linked events surrounding this but Jordan brought up a point. He said... "What do the anti Q shills say when they are confronted with this kind of evidence?... They don't, they don't say anything."

There have been even more numerically/ code based powerful events. Including personal synchronicities for me. Some being about 6 years ahead of time when they were predicted in the Q posts. I do believe in this. As I have said, this aligns with the Law of One. It moves the discussion in a very different direction than a normal paradigm.

From this perspective. There is absolutely no danger from the people in our lives that are left wing and have other confused political ideas. The society is being worked out of a kind of brainwashing. Q has specifically said he wants the anons that follow them to be trying to open "normies" minds. 

So this is a distinct difference. Most of the left wing people in my life have gotten me out of their lives for the cheek of, well, existing it often feels like. But in relation to the big complicated world there is a conflict here. Stefans idea of socially ostracising anyone with those views goes against the conclusion that one can draw if they take in, as fact, things such as the Q information, and also, potentially, the Law of One. 

One that serves two masters. 

I have actually used Stefans information to bolster my understanding of the Law of One in a big way. In session 34.6 the contact in the Law of One defines 'the process of balancing' to include "understanding, acceptance and forgiveness". The understanding part of that equation. Understanding your triggers right through to childhood. Is something that Stefan has shown a great deal in his radio shows. Once a situation is really understood, often what is motivating it, and thus what can solve it, are completely different from the knee jerk idea that the person began with. 

In my view, the 'understanding' part of that equation could take years. I am still understanding a lot of my past as my brain clears from years of illness. I could not perceive my own anxiety and the effect I was having on others for years. 

But there is a great deal of conflict with a lot of the rest of it such as when someone gets up to studying archetypes and such like that. Even though I have liked a lot of his output, such as some things that are individual products. I have decided to step away from keeping up with his current output and making his world view a part of my mind. I need to allow myself to draw a lot of my own conclusions from philosophy. 

But it all comes down to an even deeper issue I think, that I will talk about now, that relates to this:

Youtube: Jade Norby: Law of One Session 4, in depth analysis and discussion.

https://youtu.be/CDQCcqKwFvY?si=Yhl4ZrP0b4XE4zUu

This series has been very interesting to me. But what I want to discuss that has come off this particular episode is 'The Law of Responsibility'. 

The Law of Responsibility, roughly states, as has been stated in other parts of the Law of One, that when you hear a teaching, you have to apply it in your life otherwise you get a kind of bad karma. 

Well, why is that? To me, the reason is that when you hear a teaching. You then have understood that the morally correct thing is to use that teaching. This is the first example that came to my mind when I wanted to talk about this, as it is more exciting, and I am glad I have the freedom on my blog to do this. Whereas if I was writing to someone more personally it would be like I am trying to discuss these matters. 

Imagine you have a guy and a woman. The guy is a cool guy. But with a hot temper. They are very much in love but the girl is a bit of a wallflower. A bit delicate. Sometimes when they get in arguments he gets a bit physical. He doesn't hit her. But he kind of lunges towards here a bit, he stamps his feet. He doesn't think anything of this. 

Let us say this guy is attached to a teaching, like Stefans perhaps, where non violence is a big part of the idea. Which he is applying in a lot of his life. But as he is contemplating. He realises that when he gets aggressive towards his girlfriend. She gets very submissive. She does what she can to quiet the situation, including being nicer than she would otherwise to him. 

At this moment, he has a choice and one he did not have in the same way before. Before, he got angry and expressed a bit of aggression, and enjoyed the result of this. Perhaps this was how he grew up as one of five brothers or something, or an aggressive mother. But he did not have much choice because he was not aware. But now he does have a choice. He can choose to do it again deliberately, and get the advantages. Or he can choose to not do it, to make sure he doesn't intimidate her, and then potentially put up with mediocre cooking. 

The point is, once the teaching and insight becomes conscious. He has to use it because choosing not to use it is taking advantage of the situation for a negative purpose.  

Lessons learnt and applied.

As much as I have enjoyed and liked Stefans work. I find more that is useable in the Law of One. I have a huge problem with tidying. I have been doing it lately. But I am someone that lives so completely in their head it is a struggle. Not doing it, but noticing it needs to be done. 

In this run down of session 4 by Jade she talks about making sure to pay attention to the mundane things in life and it reminded me of when the Law of One contact told Carla to repeat something about the Creator when sweeping. Well, I did this and have done a lot of tidying. This has improved my life significantly. 

It is a lesson that references the normal, mundane world a great deal. And one that has given me a fantastic benefit. To follow a teaching is to be subject to the Law of Responsibility in relation to it. Which cannot be done with two conflicting teachings and world views. 

This has been a big thing for me. I have followed Stefan for almost ten years now. But, I think, the principle, unfortunately, is sound.