An insight into evil.

I have decided to make this blog today based on a synchronicity. I have had a lot of thoughts about the 'negative polarity' or conspiracy in some manner recently. I do guy by the Law of One's teachings that state that this material is a lot of times 'transcient'. This teaching has been a very powerful, very positive thing that I have followed. But I have gained quite a bit of understanding in that area which I understand is hard to come by. 

There are of course exceptions to every rule. Conspiracy, in general, is maddening and unproductive to look at and even today, I have been contemplating how useless it is in general. Since as I went to the gym yesterday, feel a lot less anxious today, and I am less interested in twitter and politics. I am very aware of how useless to my actual life that stuff is.

BUT, the world is not a monolith. Rules change. Or different rules apply to different situations. It could be that we are going to shift into a reality as mentioned in a kind of 'Q paradigm'. If that were to happen. The people that knew what was going on will be better placed and potentially, quite needed, in supporting the 'normies' mentally. 

What I am coming to is that my illness. One of the only really positive things about it is I have a deep understanding of the world from that perspective. There was literally nothing more positive I could have been doing in those years than learning conspiracy. I was too mentally unwell for relationships or careers. 

But anyway, I have learned to think in the infinite layers of deception that characterise politics and especially politics about the Deep State and Epstein and such. I will not talk about this now. But, I want to share an insight I had about the negative polarity in general:

Questioner: Am I to understand then— just the fact that the third-density entity on this planet, just the fact that he calls or bids an Orion Crusader is a polarizing type of action that affects both entities?

Ra: I am Ra. This is incorrect. The calling mechanism is not congruent in the slightest degree with the bidding mechanism. In the calling, the entity which calls is a suppliant neophyte asking for aid in negative understanding, if you may excuse this misnomer. The Orion response increases its negative polarity as it is disseminating the negative philosophy, thereby enslaving or bidding the entity calling.

There are instances, however, when the contact becomes a contest which is prototypical of negativity. In this contest, the caller will attempt, not to ask for aid, but to demand results. Since the third-density negatively oriented harvestable entity has at its disposal an incarnative experiential nexus and since Orion Crusaders are, in a great extent, bound by the first distortion in order to progress, the Orion entity is vulnerable to such bidding if properly done. In this case, the third-density entity becomes master and the Orion Crusader becomes entrapped and can be bid. This is rare. However, when it has occurred, the Orion entity or social memory complex involved has experienced loss of negative polarity in proportion to the strength of the bidding third-density entity.

Then a few questions later:

Questioner: Can you tell me, in the polarizations in consciousness, if there is any analogy with respect to what you just said in this type of contact with respect to what we are doing right now in communicating with Ra?

Ra: I am Ra. There is no relationship between this type of contact and the bidding process. This contact may be characterized as one typical of the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow wherein those receiving the contact have attempted to prepare for such contact by sacrificing extraneous, self-oriented distortions in order to be of service.

The Ra social memory complex offers itself also as a function of its desire to serve. Both the caller and the contact are filled with gratitude at the opportunity of serving others.

We may note that this in no way presupposes that either the callers or those of our group in any way approach a perfection or purity such as was described in the bidding process. The calling group may have many distortions and be working with much catalyst, as may those of Ra. The overriding desire to serve others, bonded with the unique harmonics of this group’s vibratory complexes, gives us the opportunity to serve as one channel for the One Infinite Creator.

Things come not to those positively oriented but through such beings.

David Wilcock, in one of his rare instances of good research and productiveness, has actually talked in depth about how this bidding process happens. But that is not what I want to focus on here.  

What I want to talk about, is that there is a differing style the positive and the negative process has. The positive, as mentioned in the material and as seen in real life. Goes to a great effort to show those that it is teaching, that it is not above them. There is no eliteness. That we are friends, or just a bit different from you. To this end this contact often said things to that nature. To discourage being seen as overly alien/ benevolent/ infallible, or to focus on the 'alien' aspect of the whole situation. 

The negative polarity, is the opposite to that. Anything that gives them one up over another they harness and attempt to exploit to it's fullest extent. An alien contact from the negative does not include pleasant conversation, but the alien aspect of it's presence is very strongly emphasized. As though an all powerful diety as arrived. 

Which is the relevant aspect here, and a relevant aspect in a lot of conspiracy I have seen. One of the things that I have seen and looked into, that I believe. Having seen and evaluated the evidence. Is that every single celebrity. Every actor. Every musician. A lot of politicians. Are transgender. 

If found this out following a woman who talked about this in depth but whom now has her channel deleted from youtube. Bear in mind I was a heavy conspiracy theorist by this time. Even after decades of conspiracy theory, that I fundamentally got as a result of my illness. I found this very hard to accept. Very hard.

It is so alien. So sick in a way. So vast in what would need to be organised to keep it all together. So many people would have to be involved (pretty much all of Hollywood). It is not in the same category of like... genocide or anything like that. But it is the flat out weirdness of it, rather than the evil, that is hard to accept. 

This is the relevant element of the above Law of One quote and a comment on the entire area as it exists in the real world. All these negative people are WEIRD. I genuinely think most normies would prefer to hear that a celebrity they liked went to Epstein island and diddled kids, rather than that they are transgender, because the latter is too much of a violation of their world view; you can strongly disagree with the former, be disgusted by it, but you still might understand it. 

In the Law of One quote, we have that, even though it is "rare" (which can mean anything from having happened once in the entirety of human history to something like thirty thousand times!) There have been instances in our planetary past, or even present, where some black magick, negative entity, was able to reach a far higher level of efficiency than the Law of One group of Don, Carla, and Jim (not an easy feat in my opinion).

I can't imagine what environment that happened in, or what tasks that now enslaved negative demon/ alien was tasked to do? But what I do think is that this information is something that the populace will take a long time to understand or accept in any way. 

And to that end, I do not know what is going on in the mainstream politics. With the Epstein list and whatever else. I have indications. Theories. Things I have heard from others. But essentially, something this big and weird, educating the public on it, it could be that nothing we see is legitimate. It could be that there is no Epstein list and never was. It could be that the people we think are the good guys are the bad guys and vica versa. Or everyone is working from the same script. Once you are in that level of deception. Like Socrates said. You know nothing.

That is a horrible philosophy for the real world. You have to know the good to defend it. To have some concept of objective value and objective morals. But when almost everything you are being shown is deception. Perhaps it is closer to the truth.  

Root chakra energies.

Recently, there have been about five different articles in my head. Perhaps even more. I have been thinking about human design, the Law of One, conspiracy, and social issues. There is a potential blog on each of those and different angles on the specific information. 

There is one thing that is more central to my current experience though. One thing that ties it all together a little more than any of those subject. 

I suppose this will potentially go into the human design. But the subject of this blog is Semen Retention. That is, there are a lot of guys out there that believe holding your seed is of massive benefit. Even though there are science videos on this. A lot of it is done from guys that believe it from having experienced it. The guys do all have the intense aura you would imagine. 

For me, I don't want it to be quite as central. As I was talking about recently with a post on the Matrix of the Mind. I think sometimes focusing on life but noticing these things on the side of it to improve it can be the best attitude to have on these things. 

But anyway, it is always something I have generally wanted to do, and I have failed at it a lot. One of the big things I have discovered is that all the nannying, morally highgrounding, annoying, mostly female Christians are... right about this issue. In that because porn was banned by the UK government. Practically, by asking for age verification. I stopped going on the kind of smut that I used to like. My particular kink which I usually indulged in more with reddit posts than from videos per sey. 

Coming off it though, not going on reddit stories and thus obsessing over the fetishtic ideas therein. Has improved my life. It was kind of like stage one. I had one remaining stage though in that the impulse to "release". The second stage was that I used to get ideas that were partly informed by said reddit posts, of various degenerate stuff. So, the last idea I had was me and a woman handcuffed together. What comes from that could be completely consentual, or not for some reason, going any which way. 

But I realised, and I don't know why this took so long. That the best thing to do with these ideas is to just forget them. While I used to fantasize for various reasons (including an ineffective cerebral revenge on women that have wronged me in some way, by casting them as disgusting amoral skanks), while I valued those ideas to an extent. I realise they don't serve me and so I just let them go. I just forget these ideas and don't build on them when I get them now. 

Another aspect of this that I looked into. According to the video I watched by Rena Malik on youtube. A urologist. Once every five days is the best amount for a guy. So it was once every five days reliably for a while. 

But then, now I no longer have such issues with "imaginings" I have just stopped. Currently on 9 days. It doesn't sound like a lot, but it is to me. Also, for the reasons summarised, because of the insight not to follow up on the degenerate ideas in a fictional sense, as I have done previously. I am confident I will have far more success in refraining. Like, even if I released today, I would be back to 9 days in 9 days. 

The Law of One, such as the Session and Answer highlighted in the previous blog entry, talks about energies in a way that confirms that they are very real. That energy work, energies such as chakras. Is the reality. Someone taking the Law of One on faith believes this.

Most of the guys talking about this echo this as well. They say that the effects they get from this, one of which is more interest from women. Often feel like they could only have a supernatural explanation. 

The effect that I have noticed thus far. One that I have not noticed... increased energy. I do not have increased energy at the moment. But what I have noticed is an undefineable sense of peace or confidence. A sense that I have more of a grip on my own emotions. More perspective. I don't have any noticeable change in my relationship with women because there are no romantic interests or female friends that I have in my life. 

But I have gotten a lot of insights into women in general. My relationships with them. Quite powerful things it feels like. I have very often felt a kind of pained desire to be included in womens sweetness in a casual social way. After being excluded in various office jobs. But that has suddenly shifted in perspective a bit. I was out the other day walking the dog. Young women are exclusively the group that do not say afternoon or anything when you meet them. Older women or guys are polite. 

My perspective was definitely shifted. Partly by drawing together my actual memories of women and how unimpressive they often are in real life. Like, boring in a sense. The desire to be involved with them socially, and that sweetness, perhaps comes from a partly sexual place, and as the sexual desire runs down, or becomes other than outward facing, I felt my perspective change. 

It feels like a lot of things that were 'projected' outside of myself. The idea of what women can bring me, has been slowly taken away. Slowly, the power of those things outside myself, has started to wane.  

It changed in relation to other people as well. I noticed with someone from my past that I could separate their "cute femaleness", from the person themselves.

It is an interesting experiment and I will see what kind of results it provides. Ideally, it would be interesting if the retained energy has a "healing" effect on me. But we will see how it goes.  

I am also slightly less interested in blogging. A lot of the ideas that I did use to talk about have become a bit less interesting as my focus has shifted a bit lower. To completing general small tasks and such like that.

Reflections. Session 54.27.

I have read the Law of One enough recently I think, read and considered, to think about what the contact is trying to say generally. Not specifically. 

I am reading Session 54 at the moment, and this, and the sessions previously, seem to show that Don had a fixed way of thinking. There is a technical question that Don asks about spiritual evolution and the way the energy field works, and the contact answers to the tune of 'This is technically correct, but it is not correct'. 

The Law of One seems to me to be emphasizing, again and again, and because Don didn't get it, again and again, again. That the path to spiritual evolution is not a matter of getting these things technically correct. But more of a sense of emotionally or spiritually connecting to some etheric force or field. It is trying to explain something that doesn't seem easy to explain. More 'poetry' then 'engineering'. 

I wonder a little bit if this is something I am also struggling to get. To understand. I have described previously that I have not been able to progress at all down a 'healing' route which I hoped to be able to. But have always found intuitively that music and meditation does work for me. Music is very much something that cannot be made into a technical thing. The music is technical sure, it is made of scales and such. But, to play there is an emotional or spiritual aspect that is front and centre. 

Anyway, I do have thoughts down that direction but that wasn't where I thought this blog was going. Like I say I am re-reading the Law of One and am on Session 54. This stuck out to me:

Questioner: Would you please do that?

Ra: The origin of all energy is the action of free will upon love. The nature of all energy is light. The means of its ingress into the mind/body/spirit complex is duple.

Firstly, there is the inner light which is Polaris of the self, the guiding star. This is the birthright and true nature of all entities. This energy dwells within.

The second point of ingress is the polar opposite of the North Star, shall we say, and may be seen, if you wish to use the physical body as an analog for the magnetic field, as coming through the feet from the earth and through the lower point of the spine. This point of ingress of the universal light energy is undifferentiated until it begins its filtering process through the energy centers. The requirements of each center and the efficiency with which the individual has learned to tap into the inner light determine the nature of the use made by the entity of these instreamings.

What I think is interesting, is that there seems to me to be a hint here to astrology. It is mentioned when it is not strictly relevant. There is no Polaris asteroid, I checked. The term Polaris is sometimes used for the North Node symbolically. Well, technically, there is a fixed start that sits at the end of Gemini, in almost the same position as transiting Jupiter is in right now. (Which I had an insight about a few minutes ago!)

But I wonder if the Law of One is describing the dual instreamings. As they referenced in another section and correlating with the human design, they label two sets of astrology layered into the person. Before birth for the body and at birth for the soul. This is reflected in the pattern in the human design chart where the left is the body and the right is the spirit/ self - personality:

I wonder though, it would make sense to me. If these two separate energy the contact describes. One being "the guiding star" i.e. the natal astrology. The other being the body. 

Or since the contact made sure to say that the energy of the body, coming in through the spine is the opposite of the North Star. Perhaps it is referring to the South Nodes?

Regardless, the information seems a bit too obtuse to be useable in any way I can think. But I did just want to record the thought I had about it. It does seem to me as though the Law of One text and this system are designed to be read together. One brings in a philosophy, spirituality, and states clearly that the focus is on archetypes and how to study them. The other being a system perfectly designed to do that. 
 

Reflections on the use of will power.

Following on from my last post. I have now requested the moderators delete my account at Bring4th, that was done. So that is a chapter of my life that has swiftly passed away. 

I saw this quote from Stefan Molyneux today:

It is yet another way, in my view, to handle people that are generally condescending. To handle people that want to take an unrequested mentorship position. Who assume themselves superior. If they are doing so, they are claiming absolute knowledge over your life. That their pithy cliche, should have more authority than the conclusions you have reached from living your day to day life. 

I can imagine me saying that to someone... "So, from that statement, you are claiming to have absolute knowledge? On what basis do you clam that?" Etc.

But even though it is very unlikely I will have anything to do with llresearch/ bring4th at any future point in my life (I asked for my account to be deleted because they were deleting my posts!) I will still be reading and reflecting on the Law of One a great deal. Today I have been thinking about this: 

In my unification of the tarot and astrology/ human design. This, the very first major arcana and it's concluding picture from the Law of One. Is reflected in the same position as my unconscious North Node and a few other points. So I think it is relevant to my life possibly. 

One of the things I have noticed and wanted to talk about many times, but never quite done so. Is that with this archetype or idea. That looking at the image. The likely answer to this persons issue, the solution, is likely to come from the subconscious mind. As we often experience this. We often get on with things and the subconscious solves it for us. 

The bird, the checkered box, etc. Represents the subconscious mind in this image. The finger pointing down might indicate that this is the point on some level. But the attention of the figure in the image is on the circle. It is on the thing that they are focused towards. 

I used to think of this like what many of us have heard of as the scientific process that includes intuition. Such as the guy that got the dream explaining the double helix. That when we focus towards solving something. We focus towards doing something that perhaps has the emotional core of improving our lives. Either the direct answer to what we were looking for or an emotional response comes to us through the subconscious mind. 

Bear in mind, the figure cannot move forward with his feet because the bird cage is blocking his path. He is focused towards something and cannot even move forward without shifting his attention to the caged bird. 

Now though, I am rethinking the meaning. I have noticed that when I pay attention to going to the gym. When I start to make it an identity and reason for being. My life kind of goes off the rails, and I often stop being able to go to the gym. 

But when I focus on music. Everything kind of seems to work better. Things flow, and I end up going to the gym and getting benefits from it. 

In essence, I wonder if that is what the card is saying? Not that focusing things is an indirect way of getting solutions in life. But that the best way for the conscious mind to function is to function on what the person loves. That the subconscious can then do it's work unhindered. That this is the correct way.

Also, this is my way. I have no doubt that a lot of the gym bros that promote the gym on X and things are genuinely meant to focus on that. Because we are all different. But for me, focus on music and the rest follows! Including this! I don't produce spirituality from wanting to be a spiritual person but as a side effect of living my life.  

Philosophical thoughts. 

I got home yesterday and saw that Stefan Molyneux had a livestream: "Bring your questions". One day I have no doubt there will be millions of people that look back at the time that Stefan Molyneux was giving out answers and would love to talk to him. Like, some today might Lionise other celebrities. Like Elvis Presley. 

Something I have been turning over in my mind, trying to figure out, get a handle on. Sometimes it matters emotionally to me, and sometimes it really doesn't. But the gym definitely changes my perspective on it. 

"Love is our involuntary response to virtue, if we are virtuous". As I said before part of me can't quite capture this and I have been trying to understand it. With Stefan Molyneuxs definition of free will, "Free will is our ability to compare proposed actions to ideal standards". He has explained that this is something we naturally do. That we cannot not do, it is just how the brain operates. 

So when he talks about these things he talks about things he understands that we naturally do. It is not something that intellectual understanding really changes that much. It is not like 'Oh, I have to compare propose actions to ideal standards', and then the person starts doing that. It is more like 'Oh, so this is the billions of times I have compared proposed actions to ideal standards without being aware of it'. 

So, if someone becomes less virtuous and we are then to fall 'out of love' with them. How does that happen? Is it because they start acting badly and we do it with our will power? They ghost, they get abusive and we start thinking "You know what, this person's a nasty piece of work", and then use will power to stop that loving feeling? 

Or according to this theory do we just suddenly not feel positively about this person anymore and start avoiding them?

Like, what is happening with the people, that, say, do have a partner that becomes an abusive drug addict. But they still feel like they love this person? Are they not in fact in love with the person still according to this theory? Then what explains the emotion?

Stefan has discussed this with people where lust is involved. Where a guy is pining after a girl with no virtue that he eventually admits he just wants the sexual access. But this is not the motivation in all situations like this.  

It is a bit of a mind bender. After I had been to the gym though, I did not want to ask the question because all of a sudden, I did not care about the person in my life that it was relevant to. Another thing Stefan has said is that you need to be lifting enough, because without that testosterone increase, you might not know what your real beliefs are. Without high testosterone, people have a tendency to yield to the beliefs abusers would prefer them to have to avoid conflict. Which is why if you give liberals a testosterone injection, they convert to Conservative. 

So I suppose, ideally I should have done gym often and for a while. Like, a few times a week for several months. Before I know if the question is even a real question. Previously I have noted that going to the gym allows me to perceive and confront the negativity in things more. So perhaps, being able to perceive the lack of virtue is an important element in this? 

One thing I do think though. When I write songs, I tend to capture a whole lot of the nuance of life. I recall a girl that I knew who jumped off a cliff. A song I wrote about her, the first verse and the chorus was about how fragile she was. How unwell. The second was about how I missed her, and the third was that she now has to face the consequences of her actions (since I have new age beliefs about life after death etc.). A little bit more angry. But these are all aspects of the same situation, that's one of the things that I think music captures. It captures the contradictions. The complexity. Without having to reach a conclusion.   

It is also kind of channeling in a sense. None of this is mapped out before. It just comes out in the feeling. So perhaps just writing a few songs of this nature could also address the emotion that has motivated some of these thoughts. 

Which goes back to what I was saying in the last post referencing real life experiences and session 46. For me, perhaps accepting these emotions and creating music around them is how the catalyst is addressed?

Pearl, Stefan, guidance, the Law of One.

I want to discuss a little bit, the value of certain internet personalities work. I have mentioned before that I had been attempting to discern if I should stay away from certain thinkers due to dream interpretation (Pearl Davis or Stefan Molyneux).

Originally I made a post where I thought I should stay away from Stefan Molyneux, then I changed that to maybe the dream meant Pearl Davis. But I do not know that it is either of these people now. Where I am settling is to simply not be too involved in either of them, but to not stop going on them either.

Pearl Davis 

Firstly, Pearl Davis, Pearl actually sometimes comes out with extremely wise things. I talked before about her radical acceptance that she mentioned in a video covering Andrew Tate. In this video though, around the 40 minute mark and clarifying at the 45 minute mark. Pearl talks about how real life is a lot better way to interact with reality than 'studies'.

Youtube: Pearl Davis: Let's Catch Up. Dated December 6th 2025:

https://www.youtube.com/live/MBsTkb7WVac?si=-NrXIZOs7Rj6vaKW

It might sound like a really basic point, but it's something that clicked for me. It reminds me of this line in the Law of One, session 46:

Questioner: What is the plan for use of the catalyst of cancer?

Ra: I am Ra. The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen the catalyst fails in its design and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control. There is no lack of space/time in which this catalyst may work.

This relatively small line is quite powerful. In that it basically states that a positive entity is meant to accept literally everything in their life. All the mundaneity. It is a bit of a perspective shift. But it kind of states that what we have in our lives is relevant to us to engage with. That is our real lives. It means, to me, that things like statistics is not the point. Like Pearls video talked about. 

Stefan Molyneux 

Now I want to move onto Stefan Molyneux:

Before that, I just want to mention something. A few months ago in June I think, I stopped going on the llresearch forum. In my most recent absolutely last tussle with Pluto in gate 60.6 before it left for about 300 years or so. I decided I should go back to energy healing. 

When I do energy healing on myself I fall away from myself. I stop being passionate and doing music, I stop doing meditation. It also broke the commitment I had to stay away from that forum. 

I may stay posting there. It is not uniformly negative. But I do want to discuss one feature that is common in the spiritual communities.

I actually talked with Tom Humble a bit more and the conversation ended with what I thought was quite a good joke from him. 

But it is showing something I have heard talked about in a Stefan Molyneux podcast. I have seen  this a lot. I saw Adam Elenbass mention this recently. 

The thing about the Law of One is that although it submits to a whole lot of a kind of undefineable mysticism. Where a lot of it is given over to the law of Free Will and/ or, the mystery of the Creator.

But some of what they say is actually solid and real. Exercises to do or comments on emotions that can be applied and reflected on. It is not just all 'everything is one'. But sometimes there is some substance to it. 

In the world of morality, there are a lot of people that do not want anyone to have any commitment to any standards. To anything solid or real. Stefan talks about this in Podcast 5099: Moral Relativism is control:

2 minutes 55 seconds: So if somebody says to you, "well there's no such thing as objective value", well clearly they're trying to communicate a truth to you, they're saying that truth is preferable to error objectively. Because they're not saying it is my opinion, they're saying "there IS no such thing as objective value". Well why would you tell me that? Are you saying it is better for me to understand there is no such thing as anything better than the other? Again, none of it makes any sense it is all complete machiavellian power grabbing nonsense. 

Like, once you understand, human beings, we're functionally incapable of not comparing proposed actions to ideal standards. We cannot avoid doing that. If you understand that's the human mechanism. Then if someone can convince you there's no such thing as objective value, then the moment you start thinking of objective values, you will have this ideal standard called "Well there's no such thing as objective values", and you will nullify that within your own mind. 

We are objective speaking machines, we are ideal standard seeking machines, and people will constantly deploy that against you, in order to cripple you, in order to invalidate anything you might do to block their use of power over you.

Like what a lot of Stefan says there is a beauty to these lines. There is a whole lot more in the podcast segment that is only nine minutes. This is about one minute. Where he clarifies in more detail how viciously people are trying to gain power over others. 

This is where the passive aggressive response comes from in spiritual communities if anyone actually expresses and SAYS anything, then the tone policing comes out. When someone makes a passive aggressive comment you must not respond to that passive aggressive comment because you apparently don't know it is objectively what it clearly is. 

Do not commit to one meditation or one theory of how to making your life better. Even if it is in the Law of One, because we are all equal and none is above the other, so if you follow this theory and it makes you better, you are not better than others. If you just say 'everything is One' you are at the top of the pyramid anyway. Never commit to anything. 

Or some other poisonous crap.  

I could go on here and add more clarity. but the point of this is not really to add clarity to this particular point. Which is just a fact of life and so does not need that much emphasis. It is to explain how positive and powerful Stefans work is in explaining this. When I have had a particular bad time with people that have played passive aggressive games, it is time to go back and listen to some Stefan. 

Conclusion:

For me, in attempting to follow this guidance, I do not think it is the individuals themselves that are what I need to stay away from. It is over engagement in them. I used to go on every single Pearl livestream for a while until the moderator took a disliking to me and blocked me. I used to listen to a lot of Stefan Molyneux. I think that these bits of wisdom are incredibly useful to me. But I also think that there is a depth in them both I can't engage with. Stefans call ins are life changing for a lot of people, but for me, listening to them is kind of confusing and meaningless, the information can't be applied at the moment and Pearl has a whole lot that she wants to say. A whole career of explaining the emotional to's and fro's of this current world. Which is another depth that loses meaning for me after a while. 

I think for me it is best to take from these thinkers sparingly. So that's where I am sitting on that particular guidance.  

Reflections on Human Design in General and more on gate 41.

A video to inspire my blog today:

Youtube: Human Design with Denise Mathew: 2026 Starts here. The Huge Nodal Shift No One Is Talking About!:

https://youtu.be/TqEt4W3lhS0?si=zHUMNYQLEOR9oWXZ

It has struck me recently how utterly impossible it is for me to communicate a lot of human design insights I have, and some other generally mystical types of thoughts. 

The above is a very well edited video. It talks about something that is profound to me having worked very closely with human design and human design transits for a long time. But there is no way to really bring it down to earth. Neither is there with a lot of human design insights. 

I talked about the gate 41 in my last post. Pluto now arriving there and it being a kind of "reckoning" of sorts. I have seen a fair few news articles since then that fit into how that might express itself. But at a certain point, wading into the news world. I realise there is simply too much to bring to bear. I realise a lot of news, a lot of tweets, could be talking about this reckoning, and the case for it will simply become cluttered if I bring news articles in.  

But let's just say the way I see it is that a lot of the hard progressivism, the left wingism and the out of bounds feminism came in the Chiron Neptune conjunction in gate 30 in 2010. This was the moment a lot of women could have either looked at the world as it is and adjusted their expectations. OR, they could ignore that and become more narcissistic in a sense. Ordering the world to behave as they want without awareness of objective reality. Declaring everyone racist for not wanting to import the entire third world. Getting all the DEI jobs they can without thinking about how this effects men, and resultingly, their future choices in reference to relationships and marriage. And assuming infinite resources, and that anyone that talks against that to be 'not compassionate'. 

Many people went with the latter of those two choices. 

Now the bill comes due though. As Chiron and Neptune have continued through the zodiac. The results of those choices have developed. Had light thrown on them. Influenced narratives that have spread through youtube and the collective. 

Now the bill is coming due. Gate 41, where Pluto is now, is very much to do with 'objective reality'. It is where evolutionary psychology sits and the zoomers who had Uranus or Neptune there, (Pearl Davis and Nick Fuentes respectively). Are now feeding this into the collective.

Gate 41 will now be feeding into the lives of people that used the gate 30 well, in a positive way. But it will bring consequences down on those that didn't. That got conditioned into the negative gate 30's "Whatever I feel is true" narcissism. This is why we are seeing the end of DEI start to practically come to some companies. It is the reflection of the Trump administration moving a thousand individual chess pieces against the progressive zeitgeist. 

That was kind of a tangent! I actually wanted to speak a little about Nodes in gate 63-64 and the move into gate 37-40. I have not done that. But suffice to say. What I am trying to say. Is that this is extremely significant. I am practically emotionally preparing for it. But we will see how it goes. 

Pluto into the gate 41. Postmortem on the gate 60.

Wow, so I have done a few tasks that I have put off for years. Bank account stuff. One of these outgoing payments I had not cancelled for about a decade. I knew I should do it but I was just too stressed to. 

I feel the other side of that stress now. Exhilaration from sorting this issue out! 

I attribute this to Pluto finally going permanently into the gate 41, it has gone there at least once and retrograded back out. I realise this post is very self focused. It is hard to show how this effects other people. But to retain honesty, it is best I simply explain first my experience and how I think this related to the transit. Then move out to what the larger principle might be from there. 

Firstly, going back to the gate 60. This is my chart:

My chart, has my conscious Jupiter on gate 3. So when gate 60 hits my chart by transit it connects to that gate 3. I DO NOT have anything on the 41-30 electromagnetic channel. So even though, Pluto being a collective planet. The collective theme might effect me. It is not as serious of an effect on my chart. The difference is night and day.

I started a new job late 2021. Looking at the human design a few months later, thrust into a very difficult job. Think 9-5, all day working and always being pressured to work more even when you are working at top capacity. On top of this, I was very, very ill. But due to the invisible nature of my illness and the fact that it is considered to not be nearly as serious as it clearly is. I simply had no awareness of how bad the situation was. 

But this was the pattern I noticed with the gate 60:

First part of Pluto entering the gate 60 and retrograding out shortly after: My story to myself at this point was that I was a person that had had a bit of bad luck but now was the time to sort that out. Have a normal job. Money. Raise up in the world somehow. This was my story for most of my life. This was the basic not self position, the conditioning, of the gate 60.

In one of these gate 60 then retrograding out to gate 61 cycles. It was specifically and definitively punctuated in reference to work. Real life events.

In the second journey into and out of gate 60, my story was that my mental health had been the issue keeping me from a normal life. It was a deeper story than the first but not yet correct.

In the third, I had the insight it was my physical health that was the issue, and how actually bad that was. A huge veil was lifted from me as I realised that. 

My point here is that transiting Pluto was grinding down into the truth for me. Through the experience of limitation. Each direct motion was an experience. Each retrograde became a moment for introspection. Each following direct became a deeper understanding.

I then experienced long term grinding real world insight into my medical condition. Day after day at one point daily nausea. Until I had an insight that I am an extremely sensitive coeliac that can't even have oats that are not gluten free. It was a bit hazy when Pluto went into and back out of gate 41, although I do have thoughts based on that. Again, I had a course that ran only for the 6 weeks that Pluto first went into gate 41 in it's May 2024 entry. 

The last week, the last few days of Pluto in the gate 60.6 have finally finished this off for me I think. The numbers after the hexagrams are similar to chakras. So the 6th gate is that spiritual Indigo chakra like state. 

The insight I finally had which I think has lead to my massively increased happiness and productivity today was that, also in line with Neptunes transit. All that emotion and rage from the limitation and the desire to fight this in a sense with supernatural means. Energy healing. It was kind of the final acceptance that that is not possible. The emotional not intellectual realisation, and formulated in a positive way. At least that is the situation for me. As I learned where that desire to do energy healing is in my chart and had hopefully, my last fight with that desire. I solidified that NOT the energy healing route is the one to go. Meditation and music is my actual path. 

It is the acceptance that the gate 3, my conscious Jupiter. THIS kind of thing, this blog. My message. Is not mine to manipulate in a sense. I am interested in this information, and it is a temptation of mine to use it to solve my limitations. But the metaphysical information. The 'tools for mutation'. Are not that. They do not exist for that purpose .

As Pluto has gone into gate 41. The DAY. My attitude has changed. Not even for a reason I can put my finger on. I am just like: 'I want to do this, I want to find this product, I want to enjoy life'. Solving these long term anxieties has become less of an issue. 

What gate 60 means collectively, and what gate 61 meant before it. Is a LONG discussion. What gate 41 now means is also. But I do hope personally that the entire world will experience a shift in direction in the same manner.