Brought to you by the Law of One, the soul in soulless.

Damn, so I had a synchronicity that I thought was about writing a proper goodbye post on the Law of One subreddit. I followed that, what I thought was "guidance". Oh my god those people are unpleasant. Just unpleasant. 

I am now reflecting on the amount of energy I put into the Law of One types of stuff throughout my life. I discovered the Law of One when I was 14, started blogging on there when I was about 20.

I don't think a single person there has ever liked me. I think, truly, that the entire thing has been a waste of time as seen from a practical, worldly, standpoint. No one has particularly liked my posts. They don't bring me any good will or potential connection. 

It's another one of those things I suppose. I have lost a lot of my life to illness. I think a lot of people must put energy into things that don't give them anything back. Like, a lot of people might have been brainwashed, or spent a lot longer than they should have in familial or romantic connections that went nowhere. Or school that gave them a useless degree and a heap of debt.

I do not wish them well. But I do wish them well to the extent that wishing them well is less energy expenditure than actually taking the time to go to any lengths to make their lives more difficult. I hope I never meet them in my life. I never associate with any of them. Say I were to start doing things in the metaphysical area.

I woke up this morning feeling deeply sad about all this. But I have not confided it to anyone around me. It's just too much of a mad thing to discuss with anyone. 

There is a lot in the Law of One I think that will probably fall away for me. I have kept it in my mind for a while that there are positive and negative entities. I doubt I will stop believing in that. But I think without reading the Law of One and subscribing to its paradigm, thoughts and such liked to it will fall away. 

Looking back on it this is probably why I have looked into philosophy in the past few years. So that I have some way to process these kinds of thoughts without going to the Law of One itself.  

Coming away from the Law of One.

The world is a cesspool at the moment. Perhaps it has always been a cesspool. But specifically at the moment there just seems to be a lot of very visceral news of murders and wars. Remember when a fast news days was the Dow Jones falling like 300 points?

Two pieces of new like that recently. I will only focus on one. This Ukraine girl getting knifed by a big black dude on the train. She was 22 years old, and every bit as vulnerable as you would expect from a very slight, 22 year old girl. When I first saw that and there was a video I was like, "Do I need to watch this?" No, I do not need to watch this. But then 20, 30, 50 it seems, tweets. With either stills, or sometimes four second clips. Now I've seen most of it. Including obviously the most important parts. 

I thought a little bit ago, earlier today, that I should say something on my blog about all this chaos and it's grand plan sort of element. Bringing in Q and such. I would not focus on those specific murders but reflecting on things like why we have this long period of waiting for a bunch of stuff to line up. The spiritual reasons and potential lessons through a Law of One lens.

But, you know what? That is just not my place really now is it? Which is what this post is about.

My last entry was about coming away from the Law of One. I think this is quite a big psychological thing. I also realise, that the Law of One perspective. The attempt to be "fused" with the Law of One contact. To see things as they see them. A reflection of which has occasionally come through dreams and other experiences. For real, I remember a dream about the difficulties of life planning in sudden changes like lockdown. 

But, as I come away from this, I realise that not taking on that mantle of a kind of perceived responsibility is probably for the best, and I wonder what else it is that I will let go of and abandon with this direction?

About a month or so ago it became clear to me that there was a conflict between Stefan Molyneux and the Law of One type of information. I chose the Law of One. It never occurred to me to put the Law of One down. It is hard to bring his mindset, that I do absorb when I listen to his material, and bring it to things like archetypes and such as discussed at the end of the Law of One. 

A few months ago, or perhaps a year or so now. I really started looking at archetypes. To learn about them. I would work on one Law of One tarot card per day. I would often cross these with human design I chings. 

But... and now, this is the question... Is this the best use of my time?

From my understanding of course it is a fantastic use of time. But as I think of it now. I realise that the archetypes, such as they are, even with my ongoing insight into the human design. Might not really be that useful.

With my ongoing stomach issues I have had success. It appears very likely at the moment that dehydration was a big part of why I am getting issues. I have drunk fantastic amounts of herbal tea today and got powerful improvement. Physical, real world, improvement in my medical situation. 

But in relation to how my life is actually going .What actually helps me and works. It really is very strongly focused on the physical world. On the real physical world. I already have reflections on what Christ taught being service in a very practical sense and experiences to back that up that I have considered posting about. But as far as this point goes. My most productive thing to do in life is things like going to the gym, sorting out blenders/ smoothies/ fruit, and doing very real world mundane tasks; which often bring me great joy. 

I recall previously reflecting on how comparatively useless reading Q'uo readings was, in comparison to actually physically walking the dog. Doing something for a real flesh and blood animal that depends on you. That loves sniffing and walking more than anything, and that can't go unaccompanied. (he'd just go to the supermarket anyway and go to the meat isle!) 

I still am aware of certain human design elements of this. Of this precise message. I don't know whether I will talk about that later or if I will let that go too. But I do think that the route of looking at the objective world and how I can improve it is more productive for me at the moment; and that there is not much utility in looking at the Law of One and those teachings in general at this precise time.  

I don't doubt that fuel is still in me to look into things of that spiritual nature. Perhaps reading science fiction will satisfy some of that. Or an astrology book I currently have. But I think it is worth reflecting sometimes on the utility of some of this information in your life at this precise moment. 

Letting go of stuff.

So, since I have had constipation I have been experimenting with things to get rid of. The new age and holistic explanation of constipation is holding onto something we shouldn't be holding onto. Like, emotionally or energetically.

There is some relevance to this holistic model in sources outside the Law of One. The Human Design is of course, lightly like that. It doesn't explicitly say "X physical issue is due to the sacral chakra". But... almost. 

Of course a lot of Reiki types of individuals and Louise L Hay types of people also talk about the body being metaphorical like that. But, these people are not an authority on anything. Has anyone ever heard of a Reiki person actually healing anyone? 

But there is a system. Called German New Medicine. That does talk about the body being a metaphor like that. Things like if we feel we are ugly we grow acne. If we feel sex is dirty we get Herpes etc. This is based though, on the work of Dr Hamer. Who did a lot of research into the brain and how these issues are created, and the real reason for them. Dr Hamer also gained the reward for honest work in this life. He was killed by the state. 

I mention sources other than the Law of One to back up a basic point of mine. Because I'm wondering, if the thing I should be letting go of. Is the Law of One... I.e. the Ra Material... Itself. 

This kind of fits with my intuition thus far. In that, even if I decided the constipation wasn't due to that. I am starting to wonder if it is strictly relevant to my life.

 I started reading it again before meditation due to the work of Jeremy, on the Law of One philosophy. he was pointing out that the 1976 readings seemed to have subtle things within them that were preparing the Law of One trio for the contact. 

But now I think of it. What is the worthiness of that goal? I will NEVER be a channel in that way. It is very unlikely that I go on and do something that is so obviously a contact. A lot of the 'service' that I do is physical labour in some way. I just do what needs to be done. It's also the only service I mostly want to do. I enjoy using my body and increasing my health. It might also be true that I just don't engage in the relationship dynamics where that level of spiritual and emotional energy is needed.   

I have many other thoughts on this. Many other complex explanations. What my spiritual path might be and such. But I think for the moment, I can sit with that insight. Next time I meditate. I will use the pyramid. I will use all the things that I have gained from the Law of One. But I won't sit there with the Law of One book 2 infront of me to keep my vibration in the right place; and I won't read my next session of the Law of One book 1 before I do. 

It does feel freeing. I'm sure it will be a little bit of a hard withdrawal. The Law of One once said about archetypes that after people have learned enough about archetypes. They go beyond what is written and produce their own information. In terms of some Law of One concepts. I feel I have been starting to do that. In terms of service to others and service to self. The other day, It felt pretty clear to me that Service to Others is kind of grassfoorts and Service to Self is heavily top down. 

I'll see how it goes.  

How did we get to this subject?

You know. I have had some scary dreams in my life. When my medical condition was worse than it is now, I used to frequently have fighting and/ or torture types of dreams. Women being eaten by crocodiles. Mass deaths that I had done in said dream.

But no dream I have ever had was as scary as the one that I just had, excepting perhaps some of those around my attempted suicide and schizophrenic break. 

I will not say what I think the meaning of this dream is. It was not subtle in it's meaning imo. But I have been doing well with my dream interpretation recently no Grok 4.0 is out. I have occasionally been having sensations of "connection to God" because I'm getting this so right. It feels like. I have been interpreting dreams since 1st of July 2017. Before that I just wrote them down and threw them in the bin. 

Anyway, since I am up, and since I DO NOT want to go to sleep. I am going to do another blog. It is about this video:

Pearl Davis: Former Adult Actress. Brittni De La Mora, Joins Pearl. September 6th 2025. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSdxa5gm5qQ  

I will make some general notes and weave them into my thoughts:

28 minutes, actually just before 28 minute mark: 

Brittni: It's hard to understand the things of God when you're not spending time with God, and most of America, probably most of your listeners, probably aren't spending time with Jesus.  

Pearl: See, right there that's a shaming tactic. 

33 min: Pearl (To summarise has been discussing that Bittni's kids might be more exposed to being collateral damage to pushback on her mother if she is out in public)

Brittni: But I'm not going to sit around and think about that.

Pearl: Well, of course you're not!

This was the only time in the whole interview that Brittni's mask slipped. Her face showed real anger. I don't know if she has botox that has restricted her facial expression, but I think she has, there is no movement in her forehead. 

35 min: Pearl: Well, you didn't seem very humiliated when you were doing it.

Brittni: I wasn't. Actually because I had no conviction of sin until I experienced a relationship with Jesus.  

Pearl: You didn't feel this six months in, or one year in, it was eight years in? 

1 hour 21 minutes:

I will describe this. Pearl says that Brittni has a book on how to deal with it if your wife has a high bodycount. Brittni gets up and gets this book and clarifies that she didn't write the book, her husband wrote the book. Then there is a pause from Pearl and she just starts laughing.

It was a very unusual and unique scene because it was kind of slightly cute. Brittni getting the book in a kind of helpful manner. But there is just something deeply wrong with that. It was like she did not understand that she was humiliating her husband.   

Power: 

Rewatching this interview is a bit insightful. I do not see Brittni's message as that ethical and I will properly explain why here. I also see the message in another manner, that which aligns with my dream, as kind of on point. I will explain the part that I feel aligns with mine as well. 

Brittni is amazingly charming. She is charming partly because she is beautiful. This woman, in my belief, is really beautiful. She is literally disarming because of it. She wears her wealth on her face in a very real way. At the beginning of the interview, the bits that I quoted around the half hour mark, Brittni had not yet realised that Pearl is basically a softie at heart and there was a bit more friction between them. After the hour mark roughly it seemed to me she realised that the way to deal with Pearl is to do the sweet thing, and it did kind of work. Even if Pearl says the same things she can't keep the ice wall up. 

The woman seems to me as pretty much the prefect manipulator. Not that she intends to manipulate, we can't "know her heart" like the Christians say (often when they are knowing a persons heart as positive and beyond reproach) When I first watched the interview my white knight instinct kicked in (yes, I do have one of these!) But as I rewatch it, just on those bits. I don't feel that Pearl went too hard, I feel she went too easy. 

However, in my view, this is where her message falls apart a little:

In the 28 min piece she revealed that she believes Pearls followers to be sinners of a sort. I do not agree with this interpretation and it is one of the issues I have with the church. Their monopolisation of the definition of "connected to God" is quite viciously unpleasant in my view. Pearl is a long term Catholic, she associates people who are also a long time in the faith. Andrew Wilson, Rachel Wilson and Reclaim your Throne are all a long time in the faith and are able to articulate it in a complex way. Many of her followers are the same way. And of those who are not, some atheists are very impressive in their support and following of virtue. Way better than most Christians. 

There is also the larger theme in the Christian church that for them. Anyone who practices something like astrology is shunned as a non believer. This annoys me, and there are few real spiritual voice on the ground. There is a reason for this in my view. But I would say when it comes to 'connection to God' this woman does not have any authority. Because her authority is derived from the church. An organisation that has been involved in a lot of bad practices including fully supporting the COVID lockdown and co operating without question in many other government things. Including historically. Such as recruiting young men into World War 1. 

The theme of this womans co operation with the government agenda, and the government is almost the only true evil in this world it seems to me. Comes up again.  

In the 35 minute segment where she basically, if I am understanding right, argues that she did not have a conscience until she read the bible. Not an exaggeration as far as I understand. Like, she literally did not know the difference between right and wrong before Jesus. Is she making the argument she is some sort of reformed sociopath?

This I have real issue with, and it is the kind of viewpoint that suppresses any real understanding of the world and why people do things.

I have to be a little secretive here. I don't want to say where I got some of this. But during young womens "hoe phase" in their twenties. They make a lot of really unethical decisions. And often the decisions are bad for very indirect reasons. It's strange, women as a group are very indirect, and it seems to me their psychology is kind of indirect as well. As though the Creator were doing to them what they do to the world. 

But these decisions are very very invisible. Say a girl meets a guy whom she could make a go of it with. She could love him and say he has had a worse childhood, than the childhood the girl is gong to spend the rest of her life complaining about for sympathy points. 

If she were to completely neglect that opportunity for purely lust based reasons. I have had women admit to lust based reasons a lot. Then she is making a choice that the Creator remembers. Also, bad decisions like these things have downstream effects. For instance, women that spend a lot of time around men high in lust, high in testosterone, pushy, powerful. Often tend to get this thing where they avoid people a lot. Especially men obviously. But in truth, it gives them this kind of overwhelm where they don't support anyone in their lives. Including those with disabilities or those that their friends dislike. 

Another issue women get if they sleep around a lot is they tend to give away their body, and then hate the men as only wanting them for their body. This is a kind of borderline trait where the guy is happy that he has a woman that puts out. But as this happens she grows to really hate the guy in an intense way. While he has no idea that anything is wrong. But then one day she really takes it out on the guy.

The trouble is with the narrative that the woman is the eternal victim is that these things get skated over. You chose to break off and have a hot girl summer rather than taking the chance on someone that probably deserved it. But later on, this does not need to be mentioned by the woman. Ever. 

She might have had say, a family member in her life that would have helped her but that she condescended to in some way. But when she plays victim one day, no one ever has to know that. 

The trouble with dismissing an entire story as a victim story to gain sympathy points. Is that it completely glosses over these points and thus, it kind of helps repeat the cycle. To prevent that cycle repeating, accountability needs to be had in the moment by moment encounters. When she breaks off from the guy she could love to have a 'hot girl summer'. Because of lust, not because of being a victim. That moment is where energy needs to be applied. When she ignores the relative, or whatever it happens to be. 

Women that grow up without any idea of their own sexuality. Tend to think they are unusual, super sexed, and that they don't need to apply any particular standards to their behaviour because they are unusual and no one can help them. Rather than that these are normal experiences that the older women have not admitted to because of vanity. 

And that is the problem with this womans message. 

The support of tyranny: 

The UK Online Safety act in the UK, The ink was not even dry and the UK government went straight for Andrew Torba. Who is a free speech advocate. He is more Christian than Brittni by a long mile. He has stood against evil in his life. But the government does not like him because he supports right wing views. They went for Andrew before any producers of actual explicit images. 

It is also being used to suppress a lot of political videos on X. 

Part of Brittni's focus is to give government the power to remove images on the internet of people that produced naked photos of themselves and changed their minds. I think it is suitably symbolic that she aligns with what is basically the devil on earth. The force, that has, and will again, commit every genocide and most wars that have ever happened.  

I will end though on what I think a good part of her message is:

This is a short of hers from 25th of April 2025. her shorts are not hugely different from each other:

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/TMg2_hTzLvg

There is even more I have to say here and I think the reason that Brittni would enjoy a conversation with me even less than Pearl, is that one of the things I think is important is to take a hacksaw to Protestant Christianity as not having properly understood much of the bible. The source on this, one of a few, is Aaron Abke. Who seriously questions the validity of Pauls message and states unequivocably that it is opposed to Christs. Aaron Abke is a third generation pastors son and is extremely high IQ and well read on this area. 

Those that have pushed against the mainstream message of Christianity from within Christianity, are strong indeed, because the challenges will be many. The debates in bad faith will also be many.   

But, as with my dream that started this. Occasionally, a simpler message is needed. Occasionally all you have to do is do a few simple things. Remember a few simple things and you are good to go. We don't all have Pearls emotional complexity. 

For me it is that. I had taken on some behaviours I know are bad for me. (Nothing to do with caffeine). My dream reminded me. The only thing I really need is a North Star to keep my eyes fixed on what is good for me and keep away from what is bad, that is very tempting (nothing to do with "intimate images" either). I do actually experience this through the mythology of being Christian. 

Brittni is a Projector and one of her other videos is having courage to follow the best parts of yourself. She also did mention a few times following virtue in various ways such as making up with people she had wronged in the past. It is not all fluff. 

I supposed when balanced with the fact the woman is supporting global tyranny over the internet, it isn't much. But I just thought I would add that in.  

Adventures on another Law of One forum.

I want to recount my recent experience on the subreddit about the Law of One. Just to outlet the energy really. But I have been quite interested in how things have worked out and it seems to me that it is somewhat holographic as to what goes on in society in general.

I am a TRUE believer in the Law of One. I have studied it since I was a teenager. I have blogged on it. it is a big part of just... Everything.  

I have had various trysts on various forums as well.  The pattern is similar on these forums as to how it works out because the people are not psychologically different from each other. They are NPC's. 

For context, a thing of small relevance. There is a small different between when I am on caffeine/ chocolate. and when I am not. I think it is positive for my "spiritual evolution" to not be on it. But as I mentioned in my last blog currently I am on it. 

When I am on it I have an easy going happiness. I have learned that I am just slightly less confrontational on it. I am just slightly more happy and am paying less attention to the other person. Just kind of broadcasting this happiness. When I go off it. I become more productive. That gritty energy gets directed towards actually doing spiritual practices like meditation and music, and I am more inclined to the gym. 

This reflected in three of my recent posts. The subjects of these were 'How are you doing with session 32.1?' A general post on the tools the Law of One offers. Then I wrote a post about a passage in the Law of One saying sacrifice is necessary on the service to others path. 

These were very much phrased in the friendly way of a guy eating chocolate regularly. 

Then I wrote a post (so this is the fourth post) that changed the situation a bit. It changed my relationship to the forum in a subtle way I believed. I will go into why this is. But to just describe this post. I posted on how Carla had received an amazing compliment from the contact. I also posted, and this is the relevant part, about how I had reflected on how the different densities are expressed with Wanderers and how to spot these in people. 

There are two points of relevance. One is what I just said about the densities of wanderers. The second is relevant to the subtle change in directness from the caffeine. 

The next two I wrote were one; How does the law of One interact with your Christian faith since the Law of One seems to align with Christianity, and two; I reflected on a quote from the Law of One and hypothesized that this quote means that we do NOT send love to others who have not requested it. 

There was a clear difference between how things went from the first three posts, in comparison to the last two posts. The first three were almost the same but not quite. I said that session 32.1. discouraged drug taking and there were a lot of people saying that they take drugs and don't plan to stop. That kind of thing. 

However, the two last posts. These were both pointing directly at a change of behaviour if one wants to continue to identify with following the Law of One. They really hit a nerve. I quoted several passages where the Law of One had quoted the bible. But people, who obviously follow the Law of One and oppose Christianity DID NOT LIKE this perspective. This was fiercely pushed back on. 

The last post. Where I talked about not sending visualised energy. it gave me real insight into what the problem was. Whereas all my output there, even in the comments, was often direct Law of One quotes. None of the people, NOT ONE in the comments quoted the Law of One. None of them quoted their own experience as I have at times when discussing this precisely. They all said basically the same thing: "No, I think it is absolutely fine to send love to other people". Something along those lines and then "don't overthink it". A sort of old person style passively saying: "I am better and more learned than you". 

This, is intellectually lazy. It strikes me that the people in this forum are of mostly the same mindset. They generally want to be able to say "This here is the correct thing to think because it is my opinion"... and for no other reason. A very "normie" mindset. 

Another thing, I said there were two elements in how these last two posts were received. In terms of comment count, there were a lot of comments. between 15-55 I think. For all but ONE post. That is the one where I talked about densities and noticing it within people. it feels strange as well how the posts were kind of fine and then there was just this subtle shift to more condescending. More passive aggressive. 

I had not realised or consciously done it, I don't think about this kind of thing. But by stating I understood densities in that way I was making a play for a position of status within the Llresearch hierarchy. Within Llresearch, there is a hierarchy. Jim and other Llresearch peeps are the ones with the most knowledge and authority. If I say I understand something like that, it circumvents that authority. The best thing for them to do then is to ask me questions. 

I knew it was somehow coming to a head. Shortly after I wrote the Christian post, which was the fifth not sixth post. I could feel that it would be coming to a head soon, and I thought I probably would be thrown off on the eclipse date precisely.  The sun was already in gate 64. Which I think inspired the Christian post. 

As a side note now. I want to focus on the kind of personality, the kind of perspective that these people have. The people on the other side of this. 

I was surprised. I am never not surprised. By the amount of conformist thinkers on this subreddit. I mentioned Stefan Molyneux to xomeone and he was like "Oh that is a controversial person for me to look at" and the second time I mentioned it the person I was talking with did not like the post. Even though we seemed to be having a good chat and the post included other positive information. 

There were also pro state people on there. Pro leftists. That predictably. Started an argument because I had one mention of Ayn Rand. Then played victim like they always do. I checked their profiles and their discussion points were things like how much they loved the vaccine and getting their fifth booster.  

I think the moderators and people in general here. Were mediocre people. They also were women or beta males with a female perspective. You had me, who comes out with loads of ideas and such, loads of discussion and activity. But he argued with the pro leftist. (Not taking into account they started it!) So he is a meanie and should apologise to that feminist. Of course the feminist does NOT need to apologise. They never do. The left and women are always above reproach in this model, and everyone needs to serve them. 

It is the same every single time. These are NPC's. 

The issue come up with moderation though. There were two times I interacted with the moderators. Someone asked me a question on the density issue. I had seen on the forum that you need to ask permission before posting your own stuff so I was going to blog up the reasons I had for the density thing. 

This is a position of power, if minor, the moderators hold. To write to them to ask to post your own stuff is to respect that power. But they chose to just ignore me. They didn't write back. Because they are scum. 

It came to a head though with this last post. Late on the day of the eclipse. At about 22:30. I posted this about Grok Imagine:

Using videos from Grok Imagine as seeking reminders

Original Body

I originally used Grok Imagine to take photos of twitter and animate hot women. And any other photos I happened to have hanging about. Grok Imagine does do NSFW types of videos.

However, slowly, I had various ideas about videos that inspired a positive feeling or idea of seeking. There are a few different ones I have. There is one of a girl staring into a box of light which was like the little 'God boxes' that the Bajorans used to contact the Prophets in Star Trek DS9. Also, there is a nice picture of a harp on a seaside which is very like the quote about 'plucking the strings of the Creator'. If people are familiar with that.

This is one I did that reminded me of Carla. Bear in mind that I never met Carla and was never close so this can serve as a casual reminder to me about seeking, without bringing up strong associations and memories:

I don't know if this is interesting to people. But I just thought I would drop it here!

Knowing what NPC's think. What I suspect happened here is that the feminist/ beta male that saw this for moderation. Decided that the first few lines about me getting images of random women and putting it into Grok imagine was something I shouldn't be allowed to say.

Not that is wrong for any reason she can articulate. But that she just generally doesn't feel like I should be able to say it. Part of the TradCon game of excessively demonising male sexuality and giving women free reign. She probably thinks that women that post picture online should have full legal power over them and that the government should delete naked selfies from womens boyfriend when they are no longer with them. 

It's always the same with NPC's.  

But I'm not having that. On any forum that I am censored I will disappear and never be seen again. As happened with the last guy on "Philosophy of the Law of One". Who censored me for a subject that the law of One contact brought up first, before the questioner did, classifying it as transcient information. 

Man these people are scum. 

Part of where I think this meets a point in the everyday world. Part of the pattern I think this reflects. Is that in this situation .I have offered a lot of posts and energy and information to this forum. I have contributed something. Part of the reason that I contribute something is that I do not consider that I have all the answers. I am actively searching still to get things just right so I re- read the Law of One. It inspires me, and I comment on it. 

But these people, as I have mentioned before. Their opinions come down as though from a god on up high. They say "This is the truth because it is my opinion". Not because it is in the text. So, in effect, they already have all the answers! So why the need for questions? They don't post on session 32.1. or Christianity or Sacrifice. Because they already have those answers.

Since I have stopped posting the forum has just died. There is one new post from a beginner saying he likes the material.  

Because when these NPC's. That are always right about everything. Enter into a situation. They have an opinion on how things should be. But they do not contribute. They are not givers. So when someone else says something. They have an opinion on what that person should think. So their only contribution, is that when someone who actually contributes says something, is to criticise that person. 

They are the self anointed gods from up high. What they want is to be recognised in their godliness. What they want is when someone contributes to a system. Someone intelligent and knowledgeable. That they come along and say "You shouldn't say that about women, apologise to Karen". The person does it, and they are thanked, as the reigning gods that they are!

But in reality what happens is that people that are alive and contribute, say something, are criticised, and do not have to put up with that. So they leave. Then these NPC losers sit in the empty room they have made, and tell themselves that they are indeed the gods they imagine themselves to be!  

Chocolate is chocolate.

There is a quote of the bible in the Law of One. Something like: 'Everyone seeks the Creator everyday and falls short".

I... HAVE NOT been able to keep up with the no caffeine thing. And I decided against tablets when it really came down to it.  

Simply put, my stomach hasn't seemed to have let me. I had faith that blended smoothies and all the things that I am doing would work. But alas, at the moment it seems like it hasn't. Flaxseed, Prune Juice. The only thing that seems to work is chocolate.

The paranoia I get with caffeine makes me think I should have it as a food group and not as a tablet.  

I will have to keep experimenting to see if I can get a better result. The two days I spent off caffeine were very productive. I got on with music, I meditated both days. I prayed both days. Those are the big three for me. I had amazing insights from dream interpretation. Real deep change. 

I am not sure if I can keep those things up with incredible discipline while still eating chocolate. Which makes me feel that I don't need to bother because I am generally happy anyway.  

I never got this issue when I was taking six hour walks twice a day. It is annoying, but it is what it is. The reason I being it up is two reasons A) To not be a hypocrite to claim to have stopped chocolate and not stopped it. B) Because my output my slow or stop, or change, while eating chocolate so it is worth informing anyone who this is relevant to. 

The Law of Attraction and its problems.

Following on from my last post. It has some context. This post might make enough sense without it but just wanted to mention.

When you have committed to the Law of One and Human Design types of ideas. You move away a little from a purely objectivist viewpoint. A lot of the information I believe to be true has been declared on high from a supposedly Angelic source. 

But, I am also kind of skeptical. I have definitely called out crappy ideas. So I end up being in the middle somewhere. With a lot of information that very well may be true, but that I cannot be sure one way or the other is true or false. 

The general instincts I get point one way or the other. With no conclusion. 

This is the case at the moment. The previous post I talked about acknowledging grief and a friend who died who was "lovely". I went down the supermarket just now and standing right behind me was a girl that was a carbon copy of that one. Very similar looking. Similar sort of age. A little taller than average as that girl was. 

It felt like a bit of an answer to my sort of questions to the universe. A few months ago I got very angry at Chat GPT after it gave me a picture of a woman that looked like she had had a masterectomy and refused to make the breasts bigger. I went down the supermarket late night after getting angry at that and a girl was further down the aisle. Slim, and dressed for clubbing with large knockers, low cut. I felt, whether this was true or not, that she would have invited me introducing myself if I had been so inclined. She certainly wasn't avoiding me. (She walked within a foot of me!)

It brings up an issue. I typically haven't believed in the Law of Attraction. But, there does seem to be a "correlation". That things I am thinking about and feeling do tend to suddenly manifest in the world.  

But here is my problem with that. I was not looking for the lovely girl I described in the last blog post. She was just kind of there and I felt that she was there from the Creator almost. She was the best thing that could have turned up at that point in my life. As far as I know of course. 

I feel often that having faith in the Creator will bring the best thing we could have. That the energy that could be spent on 'The law of Attraction'. Imagining some beautiful broad and/ or pile of money, could also be spent willing the personality to the Creator. 

Also, and I know this might seem like a bit of a doomer mentality. But there are a lot of things that could go wrong with the Law of Attraction. I have previously wanted a certain kind of girl, she has turned up, and my life has become hell. I could sit there everyday imagining a 25 year old blonde hottie, and it could go very wrong. Partly because... what do I have to offer? Not a lot, not a lot compared to her other options I am sure. What with the lack of money. It seems to me, even if it were to "temporarily" happen, it is a recipe to get cheated on! 

But I dunno, praying to the Creator, now that, I think, will bring the best results. Even if it is preparing you for something, ten, twenty years from now. I am sure that is the best result. 

I had more to say on this topic, I started with a different idea. The idea I started with was the same kind of thing with more complex information. Explaining good and bad directions of thinking with my human design chart. But I think this has gone on a little too long to go any further!